I'm supposed to go over to Patrick's apartment tonight, I'm not sure if that is going to be happening. I'm going to text him around 7 and see what time he wants me to come. It kinda sucks that I haven't heard from him yet, cause I do get paranoid and stuff. I hope that things don't fall through tonight. He was the whole reason why I stayed here another day. Hope he hurries up and texts me first.

I'm all done with Shawn. Listen to this bullshit. He is one of my best friends, or was. He's been texting me for a couple days now, flirting with me allllll the time. I don't even flirt back. He sends me on skype and then texts me saying we need to stop flirting cause his ex is jealous. I was like okay cool, I wasn't flirting. Then he says she is going to send me facebook hate mail! Bitch please. That's not even the worst part. He BLOCKS me on facebook. Legit blocks me. Wow, I didn't think that I had to keep our friendship a fucking secret. Sent the kid an angry text of course. Saying that I am done with this shit. Every time he falls off the planet, then he comes back and expects everything to be normal. GET THE FUCK OUT. Not even stressing about it. I have a nice date planned for tomorrow night with Patrick. Looking forward.

Tomorrow I have a stupid biology test. Ryan is coming over before the test so I can copy the group assignment, then we will go together. He is a pretty chill guy. Made a black friend! lol. Hanging out with Patrick tomorrow night. Should be fun (:

Tomorrow I am hanging out with Patrick, and I think that I am going back to his place. Not really sure what we are going to do, but I hope it's something good. I am in need of cuddling. It's been 7 months since I cuddled, and its been 16 months since I really actually enjoyed the cuddling. But it's been 2 years since I had somebody who was there to cuddle with me through everything. I miss having somebody. I hope that Patrick is a cuddler, cause I need somebody. Now more than ever.

No Lindsey. I will not change any part of this diet. If I want to get the immediate gratification of losing that much weight, I need to do this. I've planned it out today. Breakfast- omelet- egg whites, green peppers, onions and cheddar cheese. Lunch- lovely salad with Cesar dressing Dinner- a lot harder to plan out, but probably just a salad again. (all the meat allowed is not even close to what they give us at school) And working out tonight. I need to get rid of my carbohydrate craving. I hope to only be on this stage for 2 weeks, but if I can't get over the cravings, it'll have to be more.

So fucking hard. I think I might revise the diet. Maybe I'll let myself have 1 meal with carbohydrates. Then work out at the end of the day to burn them off. No carbs in college is a nightmare considering everything here is like pizza, chicken nuggets and fries. Fuck me.

I stayed the same in my weight. It's driving me crazy. I am trying the Atkins diet tomorrow. For 3 weeks I will be in the introduction phase. It will be the hardest because I am going to have to stay in this phase until I don't have any more carbohydrate cravings. It says that you are supposed to lose on average 15 pounds in the first 2 weeks. I'm going to do that.

I missed Shawn soooooo fucking much. It has been like 5ish months since we last spoke. He told me that he is thinking about moving back up to MA again, and I freaking hope that he does. He is so fucking cute. We have always had a thing for each other. We just never acted on it. I miss muh best friend! We just skyped for almost 2 hours. He had to go, but he wants to again tomorrow. I really hope we do.

he falls off of the earth for months, we haven't spoken at all. Now he is added me on facebook again. Hey at least he is thinking about me.

She knew she was wrong. Came over and gave me a big hug (: Went to lunch and came back. Makes up for being an asshole earlier.