Out of the 40 days of my diet. I haven't stuck to a diet really, just eat things in moderation now, with less junk. I work out every day, Monday, Wednesday and Fridays I work out twice. PT today was awesome. Friday it's going to be a killer, but I am excited. I just want to get this down. I'm glad that people are noticing that I am improving, it makes me happy. I can't wait to see Becca too, on Friday. And I am hoping that I can see Patrick tomorrow at some point. I want to see him. I need a cuddle buddy :(

It was pretty bomb. Quite proud of myself. Satherly noticed, and said that I have become so much since I first came here. Thank God. Have to go get blood work done today, I AM NOT HAPPY. Stupid mom, she didn't take me to the doctors when I had chicken pox so now I have to go get blood work done. Truth is, I am just a big baby. I hate needles and I am terrified it will hurt O_O

Your roommate walks in when you are in a fight -_- totally awkward. Definitely going to the gym tonight. Need to manage some stress. I hope that this stops soon. I hate it. Looking forward to hanging out with Patrick this week, and for Becca to come on Friday (: I have PT tomorrow at 5:45 in the morning. A 4 mile road march, a competitive one. They are always super challenging. I'm going to want to make sure I stay in front of Master Sergeant Langdon. He is short but man he walks very fast. Sprints on Friday, it will be misery. But I am an ex basketball player, I did sprints like it was my life before. I will do this.

I studied... so hard. Knew everything. Spent so much time on biology. My brain was fried. And I still failed the test. On the plus side.... Patrick called me today (: he said that he will definitely make time for me this week. SOUNDS GOOD!

It has been too long that I haven't said anything. I am not going to keep going with all of these words unspoken.

I have been on Tumblr all afternoon. Went on this gay kick! My favorite picture yet is a pie chart, completely filled in with blue. The title is "What will happen if gay marriage is legalized?" Blue means- gay people will get married. SO GUESS WHAT GUYS?! This means that there WILL NOT be a third World war! The terrorists will not win! The world will not end! Good Jesus, love is love is love. Get in the 21st century!

I fell in love today. Right this afternoon. Jonny Craig has been the apple of my eye since I first heard his voice. He is so sexy. I was on youtube, being a creep, and I stumbled upon a video of him singing Cry Me A River. IT WAS SO GOOD. I am in love with a man who is way out of my league -_- My goal in life: meet Jonny Craig. along with kiss Jeremy McKinnon.

People making fun of me for my last name? seriously.... Huskey. It's not even that funny. It means big and muscly, and also a breed of dog. OH SHIT. So fucking funny it hurts.... Get real. I'm nice to everybody, so what the fuck. Being nice gets you nowhere.

Haven't talked to Patrick in a while. I am not sure why. But this weekend I was here, with nothing to do, and next weekend I can't hang out because Becca is coming to visit me (: So he better not ask -_- Wah I just want to be loved.

So I am getting prepared to start going all out with the diet tomorrow. Hmm, let's see how it goes. I am buzzed. I am wearing off of my high. I just need to relax. I am kinda pissed off because Patrick is kinda being an ass, but I think it is unintentional, so I am not getting all worked up about it. We haven't talked in a few days. He wants to hang out but whenever I can, he can't, and then I don't hear from him for a day or two. Just frustrates me. Why can't I just have somebody?