she is so gorgeous, really absolutely beautiful... craving those 34 hours now, realllly craving.

I promise everything, I swear.

but my fingers just go, go, go. I just can't write, listening to the words of shakespeare makes me feel entirely inadequate. hmmm, the death scene is coming up very soon something I know too well... every word, every line. paris pisses me off -__- I just... argh I don't knowwww last night I was so very angry, could have written for days but now I'm just blank everything's done, I've accomplished what I wanted/needed to do for months. examining love, real love... romeo and juliet... I used to think that was real love. but I don't even know anymore, they were soo young. although love can't be trapped within age barriers. I love music, I love literature, I love photography, I love passion, I love film and television, I love my real friends, I love my best friend, and I love my girlfriend. however the difference between doting, loving and being in love? different. so different, and difficult to judge. I do believe every human can be in love with someone... anyone. I sound like a hopeless romantic now who has definitely read too much shakespeare. I guess one day possibly soon? I will find out. iunno, we'll see.

lulu, in thirty-six hours I would have already snuck into your house and you will be present in my arms. fuck, it just seems like way too long but certainly beats the six day mark. THAT was excruciating. so, what to write? nothing interesting is happening in my life except forrrr · lucinda · trying not to part ways with friends · being a scary dyke and making sure my best friend's boyfriend got out of our lives for good · romeo and juliet r+j is actually just the film playing right now, pretty much the best film ever. best story ever... of mine anyway I truly adore it, and the rest of shakespeare's works. I miss my english teachers... that may sound weird but I actually miss all of my past english teachers. they were awesome brilliant amazing people. and history. not my history teachers, just history... for some reason I love it. and farming, but that's for another day. DENISE LEVERTOV: I don't think one can accurately measure the historical effectiveness of a poem; but one does know, of course, that books influence individuals; and individuals, although they are part of large economic and social processes, influence history. Every mass is after all made up of millions of individuals. putting aside my babbling, to donotresucitate. I fucking love you, beyond conceivable form... sounds ridiculous I know, but I do. thirtyysixhoursleft.

till I get to see all my loved ones and the one I love most. there is a shit load of cleaning up to do, unfortunately -___- it's all good though.. I'm escaping to seniors tennis, you know coz I'm old n all div 1 takes the life out of me, what's worse is that I'm the first player. it's actually so hard... gahhhh death kthatsallbaii

I could kill something, I need need need tegan & sara's discography noww

far too tired to write properly. so until tomorrow I just won't bother as for this girl... she is keeping me up all night. if only she were here, I would wrap her in my arms and never let go. very soon, lu, very soon. something scary: I think my heart is finally in the right place, and my brain too. I love her, no cliches, I just *really* care about her.