mother came home, she started yelling, wrecked my good day, i ran away to my hill, lay there in the sun, dulling my senses with noise, fighting off the urge to cut, i came home, got yelled at for leaving, they couldnt leave me alone could they? when i try and escape from them, they drag me back lucas' ducklings hatched, and then died, which makes us all feel like utter shit, and christmas is shit here, yeah thass it coz theyr yelling at me to get off

new redpurple hair, watching reddwarf, just ated the yummiest lolly pop, and the sun is shining (:

for the first time in so long, i remembered my dream, it was wierd in a notcool way. i was just walking around and my teeth were falling out, like blood was everywhwere and they were like pre much tmbling out of my mouth, and id bend down to pick them up, and more would fall out, i was trying ot get to the dentist, but charlie kept on interrupting me, wanting to talk and i was like BEBE< I have NO teeth, i need to get to the dentist when i fgot there, the dentist was putting my teeth back in and i noticed they were blue, i had a bit of a freak out, but she was like oh dont worry, your teeth have always been blue. yeh. that was my dream.

^ that is all.

honestly, there is not a moment now that im not thinking about her, that my body tingles at the thought of her touch iv been smiling since she asked me, "shes got my heart tied in a knot and my stomach in a whirl" to lie in her bed, kiss her neck, yeahh i want too is my dream is only 18 minutes, i think (:

hehehe, i made a promise to myself, that id try and write something that WASNT about her, im failing. miserably. um, so, that part of my life is amazung, and, i got extra $$$ so i can buy stuff that i want and, victor was beautiful, taken so many photos, the beach is orgasmic, and yeahhh but, im feeling blergh, like my head isnt working, and just that shitty feeling im not sure what its about, but i dont really want to think about it. right now, im a waiting for like an hour, then midnight, then saturday, when i can finally see her.

21:30Jacinta
I havent been like. lulu I want you to be my girlfriend, will you my girlfriend?

and I should be like lulu I qwant you to be my girlfriend will you by my girlfriend?

so will you?

she makes me feel so amazing, im aching to touch her, to spend the night with her, everytime i look at my phone, i see her and i smile i havent felt like this for so long, since declan, i think. (:

13:19 Jacinta I have an idea It's a promise you'll understand 13:19Lulu what? amd i wont, i could nevr do that 2 u 13:19Jacinta I will cut lulu into my thigh. And for a long as that scars there I won't stop caring about you Okay? 13:20Lulu ummmmmmmmmmmmmm,,,, um, i dont want you cutting yourself becuase of me 13:21Jacinta It's not beause of you Its for you Duhh :) 13:22Lulu ahh, 13:22Jacinta An or myself To remind me what I'm there for now 13:22Lulu but, you stopped, dont start again 13:22Jacinta I won't start That's all it'd be Your name 13:22Lulu ._____________

for the moment, for now, i am trulytruly happy. j came over, (: ah, *smiley faces all around* im SO bloody happy, i dont wanna write about it but just EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! (: