SUCKED today. I had to clean out the fat guys van, and it was awful. Getting a turkey club for lunch! Cheer me up some more by talking to me! IM- Onthetriggerrxo All I wanted was to be with you.

My fingers smell like steak! Weird, haven't eaten steak since I was in Jersey. Haha weirrrrrrdd. Talk to me everyone! I just need some clarity.

Tuesday was our one year. Tuesday night was the night I described, amazing. I can't believe it has been a year already. He saw me and my best and my worst times, and still loves every part of me. You can't find anyone better than that. Count 'em one, two, three, you look so cute when you get that mad.

So I am home. I would rather be back in Jersey with Alex to be honest. I got home at 4 yesterday, I was going to write but I was so tired from the previous night, which was absolutely amazing. That night we went to Wildwood with him brother Albert, until about 1am. After that, we stayed downstairs for a little while, until 1:45 then had to go up to bed. We waited til 2:30 then I went into his room. We had the most mind blowing, amazing, perfect sex for over an hour. He didn't want to get in trouble so he suggested that we stop for the night, but I couldn't. So I went back to bad a little later and fell asleep around 4. He woke me up at 7 but I could not stay awake so I went back to sleep until 9. He woke me up and laid with me and we ended up having sex again, just like we did that night, only shorter. It was really great. The rest of the time I was there we just hung out, messed around obviously and spent time with his friends and family. Everything was perfect. I will go back, and it will be amazing, again. When your n=mind breaks the spirit of your soul.

already getting nervous. sweating. all ready to go. don't miss me. Wish me luck. I'm leaving pn a jet plane, don't know when I'll be back again, oh babe I hate to go.

its 1:35 AM. I hate insomnia. I can't sleep at all. This sucks. Catching my flight at 5AM. I need to wake up at 3:50. I guess I can rule out sleeping tonight.

I love you. Yes, yes I do. I don't have anything to write about but I thought I would say something anyways, I am in a very good mood tonight. Maybe its the thought that I get to be with him, emotionally, spiritually, physically and sexually. I am really happy about that. On a side note, I am a good friend, I tell Alex a lot but I don't tell him everything. Not because I don't want to or that I can't, but simply out of respect and trust for my friends. I want my friends to be able to come to me for anything, knowing that I won't tell a soul. I only wish that my friends did the same. Whatever I say about my relationship, my body, my thoughts gets shared with everybody. My girl friends end up telling their boyfriends, who I frankly don't think they should know that kind of information. I don't mind sometimes, but when its about my body type, breast size (I know they are very large and it is quite visible to everyone) or relationship troubles I really don't think it is anybodies business. Therefore my friends shouldn't be going around telling people, I trust them enough not to. Well I am going away in the morning, and I have free texting to Verizon and 500 texts to anyone else, so if you have my number, give me a text! I would like it a lot. Stay young.

Tomorrow at 3AM I am going to the airport for my flight. I am so happy. I need to get out of here. I need this vacation. I downloaded AIM to my iTouch so I can still talk to people. I will not be on here to write til probably Wednesday night, so everyone, don't miss me too much. Don't let them tell you that you aren't beautiful.

Mike screwed me over again, I thought I saw something in him, I thought I saw change. I was wrong. I was robbed, stolen from, not only me but my family. He ruined his chances at anything. I spent the day with Kellie, swimming and skinny dipping and hanging out watching movies. It was fun. I am probably going to do it all over again tomorrow. Saturday I am going to the airport at 5AM to catch my flight to New Jersey to see my love. I am going to Ocean City and stuff then too, after spending the day in Philly. It should be fun. On Tuesday I am going to Wildwood for the day. It should be fun. I can't wait. When love takes over, yea yea. ^ corny song but its quite catchy :)

I went to the beach today, for three hours. I got sunburned, but I had fun. I went crab hunting with my cousin and then went into the water, which is the first time probably since I was 11 that I went in and actually enjoyed myself. I had plans to hang out with Rachel but she pulled out, so instead I went up to Nashua and hung around with Olivia and Meghan. Tomorrow I am heading back to the beach with Kellie, Taylor and Haley, which should be fun. I love the beach. I wish I lived there. I am going to Alex's on Saturday, I am literally stoked. It is so exciting. I love that kid. If you hate filling out your time sheets...