This is referring to drea and brock. I wish me and alex could be like those too. They seem like such a real couple they don't put on this little fake show like they're the happiest couple ever but still even thorugh thick and thin they're always their for each other. Me and alex aren't even a couple we just are two people who each other. You know I'm gonna go back too myspace now TYtL

Alex. I wish you could read this because I listened too this song and every word in this song is how I feel about you. Obviously I've devoted a long of songs too you such as tatto,I will always love you,and wait for you but all of these songs is the way I feel for you I love you! Blah.. I sound physchotic like I'm actually talking too him he dosent even know about this website. Great drea I just made myself look dumb. Anyway TTYL

Is contacting alex. Yes I do plan to do this before the end of today. I don't know how but I sure as hell know why and its because now I can finally tell him the way I truly feel. Its bad enough that he didn't want to know... Personal situations. But anyway I hope that today is the day today alex pena will find out how much I truly feel about him!

Is what I am. I want to talk to alex but I can't. He won't get on myspace and its pissing me off so much.ugh sh.. Da.. Fu.. Ahh forget it!

Yea so my day has been quiet. By the way happy fourth of july! This is to anyone that's reading this. So anyway I finally got me a myspace again! Yep man my life sucks big fat floopy penis! I can't be with the one person I truly love and my stupid internet on my phone is being a butthole or an alex. I want to talk to drea right now I don't know why but she always has this amazing effect on me. Its like she really is a sister too me. Just like alex is just like a husband too me. Yzy is my best friend and she's just amazing overall as a person but man its been a freakin decade since I talked to her. Well anyway TTYL!

Hey drea that's good for you and brock and personally I have faithin you two and I know you two will last. Me and DS well I'm at a point to where I don't really have any more feelings for him. He's not the one for me basically we are continously going downhill. Trust and honesty is what a relationship is built on and I have neither one for him. On the bright side I have a myspace(new) and mallory made it for me so I browsed alex myspace a little. Yea he lies so much. Ex:look at his sexuality. Just thinking about him pisses me off. But at the same time I can't stop thinking about him. He just may be my most hated but favorite person I've ever met.

Drea for that I appreciate it. It was really cool but it triggered something in my mind. I really hate you :) because your so nice and sweet but at the same time you speak your mind about things and you stay 100% true too your heart and feelings. I need you too tell me one thing how in the hell can you feel so good knowing brock won't be their with us. Unless you've found out their is some change in the case like brock switching over too our school. Well anyway TTYL

I believe I am anyway. Inside I feel like my spirit is being sucked right of me. For the first time its not all because of alex although most of it is. Its also DS he's such an a.. Ugh I hate him but let's talk about that later. Man my only problem with alex is that I can't function correctly without talking too him. Yea drea this basically squashes our previous theory that being away from him would stop my feelings for him. It dosent stop anything just makes it worst. The only way to make me fall out of love with alex is if I never met him. Even when I first saw him I thought he was the most amazing human to ever be created. Little did I know that was a mistake that would soon lead to me drinking alcohol and attempted suicide. Not to mention my FCAT scores dramatically decreasing due to stress. Oh the things...

Is what I'm feeling. Not only did I take DS back but I'm also thinking about alex. I shouldn't be thinking about alex that's the one thing I've been trying not to do. I just love him so much and it kills me that he just dosent know or care. I love him! And there isn't a thing I can do about it. But next time we speak he will know. He will know everything. Yea I know seem really emotional drea but its just the way I feel now:) TTYL

Is what I got today. I finally got to talk to someone who I thought hated me! My ex he is the most amazing guy in the world. So I guess its no apparent reason why I dumped him right? Well take a wild guess... Alex . Yep mr pena is the reason why I lost one of the most important people in the world. Its a long story but basically I liked alex before... Ahh forget it just listen to this. You say you love me. You say you wanna be with me. You have no heart. And I hate the air that you brethe