My weekend was fucking horrible. Thing is, i can sit here and bitch about and it wont make anything better. So in other news, i have a boyfriend, yay me. His name is well it starts with a C, lol. Drea, im mad you havent sent me a message on here. Id sent you one but i cant remember your name on here. First period is boring and i finished most of my work. Damn, my hands are frozen this sucks. This weekend, i realized something really great about Alex, he was the first person i ever fell in love with. Eh, anyway that was weird, g2g. P.S.- Drea, have you noticed that my typing skills have improved?

I was reading through a few of my old journal entries and i relized that i have matured a lot. Now dont be fooled, im still moving from bobblehead in 5 months, but im not bitchie and annoying as i used to be. Ive also learned to be more appreciative and that rather than being afraid i should be excited. well g2g

I got my answer from Damien and it was a no. Youd think i be very pissed pff or crying but actually im ok. Well i wont lie, yesterday i cried my eyes out and thought about doing some other things but thanks to Ryan i didn't. By the way Ryan is one of my best friends, he's so amazing. Actually i want to date him but thats another story. I don't believe it is wise to use peoples names on here but hopefully it wont trigger anything. Anyway hey ladrea/le-a. Ill write later. :)

hey journal im in 1st period bored as crap. well guess whos in love again, me. his name is damien and hes the most amaziing person in my life. i feel new when im with him. i cant even describe the way i feel about him. Damien is just abosolutly perfect and i love him with all my heart. Id give my life for him if i had too. Yes i do love him more than i ever loved alex, well actually i dont want to say that just yet lol. Just know that i love him

Yep. I'm at Drea's. She's typing this because I don't feel like gettin frizzy. You know the song "Get Silly"? Well, I made up my own version. The dance flo' silly The ladies gon feel me The fellas in the back And they twistin up a Philly GET FRIZZAY! As you can tell, we're both pretty hyper. Life has been pretty sucky. Stupid bobblehead BITCH broke my cell phone so I can't use the internet

That's how I feel, blank. Like I'm not even me anymore or more so the fact that I don't wanna be me I want to be someone else someone who's life isn't full of bullshik (yes I put the k at the end on purpose). I'm vexed infuriated fustrated aggrevated and just a whole lot of other things which is the reason I just put... I just want to get away I want to go to africa and/or asia. Learn about my culture just do something to where I won't be miserable. Then again on the other hand its pratically impossible to satisfy me so I'm not sure where I want to go or what I want to do maybe I just want to lay down in grass(empty of any kind of bug) and just look at the sky look at how time passes by when I'm actually relaxing. Well anyway I guess I'm about too go look up some music ill journal whenever it calls me again...

I'm not sure about anything anymore. I'm just so confused about so many things. What does my future hold? Will I still be with joey? I want too be I love him so much he's amazing but its just that we have our extrme differences which dosent bother me I just hate that he can't tell me his feelings about anything

I'm so happy I have someone that actually cares about me. I love him so much he's one of the greatest things that ever happened too me. I'm so glad to be with someone again baby I love you now and as long as we date which I hope will last a long time. Who knows maybe a year and eight months from now me and him will be just like brock and drea haha I wish ill journal later

I'm back lol. Actually I've had my phone I never had to give it up but anyway that's a long story. Well um I wanna type a real entry but right now I'm outraged so that's impossible. But this is all I have to say. 1. Ill be moving soon. 2. These next few months will probably be hell for me so ill journal more often. 3. I have a boyfriend now yay and I love him to death anyway I guess I'll journal within the next few hours most likely after I talk to drea so um ttyl :]

Well for now bye my journal. Ill truly miss you and the internet but don't worry ill be on in like a year or so. I just can't believe she's making me give up the phone I pay for with my own money. I have lots too say but I won't say it because of its unapprpiate material. My whole life I've been treated like crap and this is just another accessory to it. So if I don't die when I turn 15 because that number hunts me then I should be back on like I said I love you my beatidul journal well drea at least we have classes together. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!