Because I did. I've given her a chance and so help me ... I'm already getting fustrated! Its freakin impossible some people just simply can't be helped! I'm given her one whole week! 7 days she better not screw up these next few days like she did today. Calling a date line and playing with peoples feelings is wrong! She had the nerve to ask me do I have a problem with it! Of course I do! You know its like trying to slap a pig and then expect it to let you eat it for dinner! That's okay though because now I'm gonna fight fire with fire and yes i want an explosion

Hey so this is the new me. My objective for the new me is too not right about how pissed I am or say any curse words. I'm also gonna be nice to those that I may hate or have strong dislikings towards. But theirs still a tiny part of me that just don't give a rats a** about being nice I mean its bull honestly. Why in the hell should I treat a piece of shi* likes its some kinda royalty or something. I understand that you should never get tired of doing the right thing but sometimes it can be some gosh dam difficult. I'm so tired of people though. So does that make me evil or unnormal. The only people I really wanna be around now is andrea brock yesmine karrissa and alex. I know that sounds really mean but its the truth. Anyway ill journal later. P.S. Happy 15th month anniversery drea and brock

Between love and obession. Is their even a difference between the two. I feel as if I'm so gosh dam misunderstood. Its like no one really cares or even tries too care. Have they really all abandoned me has everyone I love just abazndoned my feelings. But maybe I'm wrong maybe I abandoned them and that just could actually be true. In the past two years I've abandoned some feiends and bunches of family members. I'm a horrible person the people who loved me so much all I've done was hurt people! But tomorrow will be different I will be a new person tomorrow

Things have happened since lsat time I journaled. My life seems sa if its at a ruff but calm point. I lost my best friend but at the same time I've gotten a chance to talk to some old ones and actually restablish my friendships with them. So I guess you can say my life is balacing itself out. Yet still I'm not happy but at lesat I havo no complaints. You know what drea I miss you and love you and I need you right now. I'm going crazy again I just thought I saw a tattoo on my hand. This is weird if hope he changes his mind and let us write a book togethre

Is my heart is my the note. Its all incomplete if alex was to be with me my heart wouldn't be incomplete if I could tell him the way I really feel the note wouldve been incomple. Is he even complete himself I don't even think he knows who he his. I hope being in texas helps him find himself the person that I know he truly is deep down inside. Because I jnow the true him isn't a acholic the true him isn't a compulsive liar. I know who I feel in love with and its not the people its the one true person I know . His name is alex edgar pena

Well that pretty much says it all. My old feelings are returning back for my best friend. But I hear he's a new person now if he is that's not good! I don't even think I'm going to like who he is now I can't believe this. I've known this person since kindergarten and he chooses now to change mman that pisses me off! Bye

He actually was comforting me and so he was in a bad mood later on and I comforted him. Man our friendship is blossoming and that makes me really happy. I told him today that I love him. Shocker! I know but its true I think. I may be falling in love with him which can be dangerous or good but hey what's going on with your feelings for brock

There's good bad and dumb as hell ones. When I broke up with ab that was a dumb as hell one. Drea he told me he was truly in love with me. For me to leave him for ap was dumb as hell. I mean he said ap actually did like me but for some reason never told me. Ab told me I should leave ab alone yesterday. He said all ap will do is hurt me. It just may be possible that...nah

Stupid me I actually thought that I could get back with him. I can't believe he's about too date someone else. Although I don't blame him I want him to move on but of course that dosent change the way I feel. So does this mean that I'm being selfish or inconciterate? I reall am not trying to be but deep down inside I know I am. Man this really sucks drea if I'd never broke up with him in the first place. Ugh! I'm so stupid!

Um drea can that be who I think it us. Is it the person who's confused about whether he loves her or not? At first I thought it was to yesmine but I soon figured out that it wasn't her. I bet that its him then my second guess was josh but I know it isn't him either. So is it T.D.L.