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[37] ....?
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on November 07, 2008No CommentsWTF.
VVVVV that one was supposed to be named
It's A Still Life Watercolor Of A Now Late Afternoon
...so pretend it is.
<3
And add
'Fakin It'
to my list of Simon & Garfunkel songs.
thaaaaanks.
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[37]
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on November 07, 2008No CommentsNOTHING EXCITING IS HAPPENING!#$%^&*( Haha, whatever. It's a four day weekend, and I bought a cute dress yesterday. How much more excitement do I really need?
I like this survey. So I'm gunna do again... for like the 43rd time (:
Song #1: Baby's Romance by Chris Garneau
Your favorite lyric from this song:
The bugs are out cause they come out at night,
Usually they just bite our hands.
Cause normally we have clothes on without a fight,
But now fighting’s a part of baby’s romance.
But now fighting’s a part of baby’s romance.
Does this song have any bad memories attached?
No, not really. I mean, this song is devestating, but it just reminds me a this amaaazingly beautiful dance I saw once. So, no.
What genre is this?
Folk?
Song #2: Something That Produces Results by The Early NovemberWhat's the last line of this song?
But you're never wrong
Have you ever seen this artist live?
Yes!<3 Warped 04, Warped 06, and Bamboozle 07. Aka their last show D;Who does this song make you think of?
How amazing they were, basically. <3
Song #3: I'm Lost Without You by Blink-182What's the first line of this song?
I swear that I can go on forever again.Where did you first hear this song?
When I bought the album in 2003.How about the first time you heard the artist?
Oh, omg I have no idea. How did any of us first hear blink!?Song #4: You Can't Spell 'Crap' Without 'C' by The Devil Wears Prada
Which friend could this be a theme tune for and why?
Idk, it kinda works for my friend Amber. Well, no. More for her ex-boyfriend. Yeah, him. It works good for him. Why? Well, read the lyrics. That's basically what happened.Write down the chorus:
There's not really like a legit chorus..Why do you like this song?
TDWP is awesome, and Craig Owens of Chiodos does guest vocals on this song. SHWAAT?
Song #5: Degausser by Brand NewWhat kind of film would you choose this as the theme for?
Hmmm, some like wierd drug-related teenager drama movie. Aka The Chumscrubber. Or ever Aka Donnie Darko. Like this song would be set behind a part where the main character gets majorly fucked up because he/she is so depressed and angry and frustrated. So they get seriously strung out to numb themselves, but they kinda feel shittier. Maybe toy with the idea of suicide. Maybe attempt it.
Who introduced you to this artist?
I think my friend Nichole, a really long time ago. Like when they first started out.
Best part of this song:
Jesse's voice is so ...troubled. Just the way he goes from like a scratchy mumble, to a insane sounding scream. Ugh, he's so good. And his lyrics are fucking genius.Song #6: Your Way With Words Is Through Silence by A Day To Remember
The fourth line reads:
It'd break my heart if we fell apartHow long is this song?
3 minutes, 53 seconds.
Is it one of your favourites?
Anything by ADTR is one of my favorites.Song #7: The Only Living Boy In New York by Simon & Garfunkel
How long have you been listening to this artist?
My whole life. My dad LOVES them.What's the cover look like on the album this came from?
It's off the album 'Bridge Over Troubled Water' (which is fucking flawless, by the way). Paul Simon is standing in front of Art Garfunkel, covering Garfunkel's chin and mouth with his head (which I find really funny). Simon has this like... goofy lookin face on and is staring off camera, where as Garfunkel is staring straight ahead and into the camera. They're standing on what looks like a city sidewalk, next to a building or wall. They're standing on the right side of the cover, and the words "Simon and Garfunkel Bridge Over Troubled Water" are on the left side, with one word per line.
What's this song about?
Being alone, or just feeling alone. Paul Simon wrote it about when Garfunkel went to Mexico to film Catch-22. He feels desperately alone, and feels that no one can understand him except for Garfunkel. Thus, while Garfunkel is away, he is left as the 'only living boy in new york'.
Has your favourite song come up?
YES - Only Living Boy In New York. I adore S&G. Plus Baby's Romance. Plus Your Way With Words. Plus Degausser. Hahaha yeah, my favorite came up.Now, I'm listening to a bunch of S&G songs <3 Please listen to them. Please! At least listen to these:
- Only Living Boy In New York
- Scarborough Fair
- The Boxer
- Old Friends/Bookends
- Bridge Over Troubled Water
- The Dangling Conversation
- The Sound Of Silence
- For Emily, Wherever I May Find Her
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[36] Hey, I've Got Nothing To Do Today But Smile
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on November 03, 2008No CommentsSimon & Garfunkel will never be out of style.
Things are going well. I seem to be happy. Seem to be... I can't really trust my own feelings these days. But I feel good. I'm content I guess. I'm okay with the fact that things aren't perfect. I'm not stressed out.
For now.
Ugh, why must I be a pessimist.
WHY is the new SongMeanings making me jump an ENORMOUS space between lines?
Anyway. Top 5 reasons why things seem to be looking up,
and most of them are about boys.
Goody. Let's get on with it.
- Old boyfriend for whom I fell for quite hard [not the one I saw at a party a while back] is off drugs for good. All of them. Said old boyfriend is also trying to get back with me. Which is entertaining, because he's still somewhat dating the chick he left me for. Point of this being - I win, because he is currently doing everything he can to get with me, and I am simply holding out on him until the other girlie is out of the picture for reals (; He has never with me, and maybe never in his life, been the one unsure of how his courtship will end. He's never been on the recieving end of playing hard to get. He's used to getting the girl. Yeah, I'm not falling for that again baby.
- New boy at work.... (; Tre tre cute. Really the only thing worth looking forward to when working Saturday nights. He's a nice boy. And funny. On his first day, he started talking to me like we'd known each other forever. And when I didn't come over and say hi this past Saturday, he came looking for me. Call me juvenile, but it's been a while since a nice boy came looking for me. Shit, it's been a while since a guy in general came looking for me.
- I'm actually pulling up my grades! And giving a shit about school! I mean, I realllllly need to if I wanna prove my dad wrong and go to NYU - a goal that I have every intention of acheiving. I won't settle for anything less than my dreams.
- The fighting might actually be over between Amber and I. Hopefully. We talked, a lot. Mainly about last year, when everything was at its worst. She'll always have the quirks that bother me, but no one's perfect. She's my best friend. We've matured. There's no point in petty stupid ridiculous obnoxious bitchy pms-induced arguments.
- So I guess there was only a Top 4, but whatever. I've just come to terms with a lot. I straightened out my priorities. I'm balancing my life better. I pretty much know what I want, and know how hard I have to work to get it. Mind you, anyone who has read my journal before can probably see that my mind is... eh, interesting.
I might be back here tomorrow with 10 pages on how I've completely lost it.
But I guess that element of surprise is just part of the fun, yeah?
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[35] Why Can't You Just Be Happy?
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on October 14, 2008Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Why Can't You Just Be Happy?! Have you ever reached the point where everything just hurts so much that you can't even draw the line between emotional and physical pain anymore? The point in the dead of night when the whole world is asleep but you, and you're dizzy and nauseas and physically sick from all the violent crying you've done? That point and I are very good friends.No Comments -
[34] Oh, To Sleep In A Comfortable Bed
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on October 08, 2008Okay, so I really have nothing about me to talk about. But my english teacher (who is wicked cool, by the way) did something really impressive. A lot of the teachers have accounts on websites like SchoolNotes and stuff so they can post the homework and handouts so we can get them if we forget. Mr. Scheiner (my aforementioned english teacher) has one. So last night I went on it to see if our vocab list was posted. It wasn't, but something so much more useful was. A few lines down from all the posted homework, he had "THINGS THAT I LIKE AND THINK YOU MIGHT TOO". Under that, he proceeded to list his reccommendations for albums, tv shows, movies, and books. I'm so excited about this, because he is one of the coolest people I have ever come into contact with, and probably the coolest teacher in my school. So I saved his list of reccommendations. And now I'm giving them to you. But before I do that, I wanna say this. I find it go awesome that he posted this. It's so... idk, like him. He wants us to want to be involved - in school, in his class, in life. He didn't tell any of us that this list was on the website. All he did was put it on the board on the first day. He said "feel free to check it out. there's some pretty interesting links and stuff on there" It was up to us to us to care enough to check it. But he went through the trouble of actually compiling a list for us - for the kids who actually give a shit. He obviously knows not everyone will look at the site. But he also believes that some of us will. And he believes that some of us will appreciate his taste. Idk, that's why I think he's so cool. He's not like the jaded asshole teachers who are just there til they can retire, and really can care less if we pass or fail. And he's not one of the annoying young teachers who are just cool because they're only like 5 years older than you. And he doesn't treat us like babies. Plus, he's a musician. Which makes him automatically cooler. Hahaha. But anyway. Here's Scheiner's list. THINGS THAT I LIKE AND THINK YOU MIGHT TOO MUSIC: THE AVETT BROTHERS - The Gleam II DODOS - Visiter MIDLAKE - The Trials of Van Occupanther BON IVER - For Emma, Forever Ago VIJAY IYER - Tragicomic GOWNS - Red State TV: THE OFFICE: Excruciatingly funny THE DAILY SHOW: Fake news that's more thoughtful (and funnier) than the "real" stuff FRONTLINE - Consistently thoughtful and probing reporting on important issues and events; a great antidote to superficial reporting of most TV news THE SIMPSONS - The finest show EVER. MOVIES: NO COUNTRY FOR OLD MEN - Chance.... THE ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND - Perfect. THE FOG OF WAR - The most recent film by Errol Morris, a brilliant and utterly uncategorizable director. CRIMES AND MISDEMEANORS - A great, funny film about the biggest things. THE ROYAL TENENBAUMS - It gets greater every time I see it. BOOKS: THE ROAD - Cormac McCarthy THE PLACES IN BETWEEN - Rory Stewart THE LOOMING TOWER: Al Qaeda & the Road to 9/11 - Lawrence Wright THE MEN WHO STARE AT GOATS - Jon Ronson Anything by UMBERTO ECO THE AMAZING ADVENTURES OF KAVALIER AND KLAY - Michael Chabon THE PLOT AGAINST AMERICA - Philip Roth THE AGE OF INNOCENCE - Edith Wharton I already started listening to some of the albums he reccommended. And it's exactly what I expected him to listen to haha. It's excellent though. Midlake is my favorite artist so far, and where the title of this entry comes from. Head Home is a beautiful song. His movie taste is amazing. Eternal Suhshine is BRILLIANT. His choices for tv are also perfect. THE OFFICENo Comments -
[33] Attempting To Discover Where To Begin
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on September 30, 2008If you haven't already listened to City And Colour, do it asap. 'Waiting' is brilliant. So I really had nothing of great importance to say. It's just more for myself than anything. It's what I want to do this year. I feel so lame by doing this, oh my god. But whatever, I'm already here. - I'm going to actually do my homework. - I'm going to manage my time!!!!! - I'm going to go to bed a at a sane hour. - I'm NOT going to procrastinate. - I'm going to find myself a good, worth it boy. - I'm going to relax, and not let stupid issues stress me out. - I'm going to juggle school, sports, work, and friends. - I'm going to hand everything in on time. - I'm going to do everything I can to get scholarships. Idk why I felt the need to type that out, but it's time to turn over a new leaf. I mean, I'm in my most important year of high school. It's about time I get my shit together. Good grades always come relatively easy for me. But I'm actually going to work at it this year. I'm going to do anything and everything I can to make sure that after graduation, I'm headed off somewhere bigger and better than Manalapan, NJ. I'm not letting my paranoia, ridiculous stress levels, procrastination, etc etc get in my way. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeah, so that's really all I needed to say I guess. I'll check back if anything good happens...No Comments -
[32] In Fact, It's Cold As Hell
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on September 22, 2008Rocket Man by Elton John. Timeless. Get the cover of it by Jason Mraz too. Where to begin. Too much to say, really. I don't even know where I left off in my life last time I wrote. All I know is that nothing's really changed. School's school. Field hockey's field hockey. My family is still ridiculous. My friends are still... I don't know, up and down, I guess. I still frustrate and tear myself to peices. Oh, download the song On Your Porch by The Format. But be prepared to cry. I met someone potentially interesting last night. He's Christian. Well, so am I. But he's really, really religious. Bass player in a Christian band, goes to church almost every night, has a Christian ringtone. And yet, he's a totally normal teenager - He curses, he watches good movies, he listens to good music, and he eats PB&J with the crusts cut off. As for me, I have some mixed feelings about religion. I don't like the idea of being told what to believe. When I had CCD classes, I would be yelled at if I questioned anything they told us. "Go pray for forgiveness. Pray, and you'll find your answers and your faith." Well, I prayed. Nothing happened. So much of the things the Bible tells me strikes me as... iffy. I don't have faith, and I don't really understand how people can blindly be like "Oh yeah, that's all true. Jesus really did this, and this is what we should believe and follow." How can you trust something so wholeheartedly with no proof of it? I'd like to talk to this boy. Maybe he can help me understand. Because it might be nice to have something to believe in for once. There's really not much else I want to cover. Nothing of any substantially interesting content, that is. So, I'll leave it at that. Hopefully I'll be back with a more.... riveting entry sometime soon. But I highly, highly doubt it.No Comments -
[31] So Now I'm Taking Back My Words
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on August 24, 2008Maria Mena has a ridiculously beautiful voice. Reminds me of crystal, or glass. I'm not sure why. But she has this song, Miss You Love, and it reminds me all to much of that boy I was talking about in entry 27. He's on my mind a lot lately. I saw him once more after that entry, and then a third time tonigt at a party. Seeing him so often again, and so randomly, must mean something right? But I'm not talking about that yet. I really wanna put the lyrics to Miss You Love up here. It's a song about that frustrating, heartbreaking time when you can't remember why you broke up with someone in the first place. Only now, they're not around for you to take it back. Oh, yeah. I know how she feels... I've run out of complicated theories, so now I'm taking back my words and I'm preparing for the breakdown. Your t-shirts lost the smell of you, and the bathroom's still a mess. Remind me why we decided this was for the best. Because I miss you love. I miss you love. I miss you love. I miss you... love. I know the distance is a factor but I stretch as often as I can. My goal's to reach your hands anyday now. Please don't blame me for trying to fix this one last time. I have a hard time as it is. Because I miss you love. I miss you love. I miss you love. I miss you... love. Don't act like you don't know me. It's still me, I've never changed. I'll be here when you come back. And I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you love I miss you... love So simple and beautiful, yeah?No Comments -
[30] Call, I'm Sick. Call, I'm Angry.
by CurtneyIsASuperher0 on August 21, 2008Call, I'm Desperate For Your Voice. I'm so torn up, it's not even funny. I'm physically hurting. Everyone around me is letting me down. "And I'm tired of being all alone." I want to scream and cry til my lungs collapse all together. I'm utterly sick of myself and everyone around me. This happens all too much. It's an all too familiar feeling. No one makes me happy anymore. All I do is listen, and try to say the right thing. I usually fail. But I'm always here, always listening to their problems. Nodding, consoling. When is it my turn? I think I need to be nodded at. I need to be consoled. My hands are shaking really hard. I just need someone. Anyone. Soneone to hold my hand and tell me everything's okay. And I want to believe them. I don't want to feel like they're saying it to shut me up. Or because they just don't understand what I'm saying. I want to feel something real. I hate feeling like I'm so perfect for someone, only to have it go unnoticed. I always feel like I'm jumping up and down, waving my arms in the air, and I'm never noticed. What more should I do? What more can i do? I feel so helpless, it's not even funny. I'm so fucking hard on myself. I'm always the ugly one. I never get the guy in the end. I never know what to say to make them stick around. I feel like I put myself in the same position all the time - Spotlight's on me, and I choke. I ruin it with a single remark. I never know how to show how I feel. Possibly because I don't know how I feel. I want someone to go out of their way to get to know me. Really, really know me. I'm scared to go back to school. What if they don't like me as much as they did last year? What if I'm not as pretty as they remember? Not as funny? Not as cool? Not... anything. Courtney Burgess, junior year: EPIC FAIL. And yeah I don't give a shit about my full name being there. You wouldn't stalk me anyway, right? I just don't know what to feel. I'm so painfullly alone, it seems. I can be in a room of 1000 people, and I'll feel alone. Standing next to my best friends, I feel like nothing. Sarah's the daring crazy athletic-looking hot one. Amber's the wierd, yet beautiful one. Nichole's the witty, trendy, gorgeous European looking one. Matty's the token HOT gay guy, who just so happens to have a million and three friends. Courtney's the.... sidekick. Always the sidekick. Just left of accepted. I just want to get really fucked up. Get fucked up, and make mistakes. I don't want to think about anything past the now. Just Drink, Smoke, Fuck, and Forget.No Comments
Deftones music is a bit... mind altering.
Makes you wanna move slow and punch walls.
Spectacular.
Oh, well look at me.
I've beat the SM system of the double spacing.
Such a wonderful life I lead.
I wanna feel something.
I wanna feel paaaaain. Slice open my skin. Throw my head back and laugh.
Throw
My
Head
Back
And
Laugh
Scream.
General, Rant, Rave, or Story.
Can I have the definition, please?
Can I have the word in a sentence?
Can I have the country of origin, please?
Can you repeat the question?
Can you repeat the question?
Can you repeat the question?
Can you repeat the question?
Spinning, spinning, spinning, stop.
This is how you live now.
Seems my mind was only joking when I said things were well.
Something's happening. I just don't know what.
Reach in the bowl, and grab one of the paths.
This is how you live now.
FUCK IT.
This is how you live now.
What the fuck, man?
Throw
My
Head
Back
And
Laugh
Scream
Run.
Cliches are sounding mighty fine right about now.
My books are piled on my bed behind me.
They've been there since 2:30.
I never want to go back.
Edgar Allen Poe was one twisted mother fucker.
He should get a journal on here.
Who Are You?
Who Are You?
Who Are You?
WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?
Throw
My
Head
Back
And
Laugh
Scream
Run
'NOW ENTERING THE TOWN OF FUCK IT; POPULATION - YOU.'
Looks like I'm home.