i've come so far. but i feel like i'm losing it all. fast. it's amazing how you can work at something for days. weeks. months. years. then lose it in seconds. a moment of weakness. that's all it takes. for all you've worked for. to fall and break. it's not even that cuz i know i'll arrive but i still can't make myself believe i'm alive. maybe because i'm not. not as alive as i could be. as alive i should be. i would be. if only i could let go. my weaknesses are my security. i know i'll never be perfect. so i try to make people fall in love with my flaws. i'm yet to make it work... there's distance in the air and i cannot make it leave i wave my arms round about me and blow with all my might i cannot sense you close though i know you're always here but the comfort of you near is what i long for Song: Faithful - Brooke Fraser

They seem to have forgotten to remember me. All of them. What role do i play? i'm not the funny one i'm not the friendly one i'm not the caring one i'm not the encouraging one i'm not the realistic one i'm not the out going one i'm not the shy one i'm not the cute one i'm not anything so where do i belong? do i belong at all? would they notice if i was gone? is that important? how am i supposed to help people... if I'm always the one in need of help? so ashamed so ashamed but i need you so and you wait for me and you wait for me... Song: Prodigal - OneRepublic

Yes. Its True. All Of It. Yet at the same time none of it. 'All i need is honesty' Well all i need is you. Is that honest enough? If i knew you would take it right, i would tell you everything. But i can't be sure of anything. So i sit and wait for confirmation. All i want is pure truth. Without your name poisoning its beauty. Will it ever be? Song: Better Than This - Beth Anderson