the situation will never beat us, what is a relationship, two people in love. and thats what will keep us alive, love, yes i worry, when something is important you always do, but i know i love you and as long as you love me, we will last forever, death will not due us part, only lack of love. as longas you wake up everyday loveing me, and i woke up loving you, we will last forever. i wanted to say this earlier but you were hanging out with casey so i held back and now i wish i said it. as long as i love you baby and you love me, we will beat it and everything. i am not just saying this because you said, it has been on my mind all day. just have faith in us baby and we will last. i cant see myself doing anything else in the future but loving you and as long as we try to love it will work,

yeah 11 months, that is so cool, i have loved all the time i have spent with my baby, and i cant wait for more, she means the world to me and i couldnt be happier if i spent the rest of my life with her

damn schools gay, it keeps me form spending all day with the most beautiful girl of my life, i hope we can still get to hang out a lot with school going, as for school ,i tis cool this year,. but i still miss the summer good times with swan swan i love you, and i miss you already, i hope i can see you soon well yeah, i will type more later

tuesday, me and swan, baked a cake as she likes to put it, lol but yeah, it was very good, lol, and really i could go on and on explaining it, so i will just say it was a very special experiance, i was glad to have with her, the love of my life, she is so beautiful to me, in all ways, she has a lot going on in her mind i hope she do whatever she feels she needs to, man do i miss her right now, i cant wait to talk to her tomarrow, and hope i can see her too so i saw rage, it was great, i never thought i would ever get to see them, 70thousand people with the middle finger in the air is something to see

well i miss her a lot right now, it is monday, i am waiting for her call, if she can call me today, i hope she gets a chance, i really miss her, i hope she is ok, i hope i can see her tomarrow, every moment is better with her around. this summer is comming to a close, it has been the best yet, i anticipate more time and life with her, as this summer has shown me how great all time with her would be

wow, why do i seem to miss her so much when i just saw her yesterday, lol, man, these 10 months have jsut been so amazing, no other way to really explain it, just so amazing yesterday she cooked me dinner, lol, it was really good, she worked hard in there for me, lol, i was really thankful for it, it was good, and she did it with great intension, it was cool, and our band is doing great, we are getting along very well, i really like how it is going, i love working with her, she is so great also i am waiting to see if she can go on the houseboat with me, any amount of time will be cool, all week would be quite the experiance, but even if just for a day i will be happy, any time with her is amazing i have fall so far for her, i love her so much, it is insane, at times she is all i can think about , and it is rare to find time i dont think about her, lol, she has just taken over my life and i am so glad, i want to be with her forever, lover her, keep her safe, be with her listen to her, it would just be and amazing life with her no matter what happened, man, when i kiss her i can just melt into her, it feels so good to kiss her, especially if i havnt seen her for a few days and that fist kiss feels so good, she is so amazingly beautiful, i could just stand back and watch her for a long time,lol, all of her is beautiful , she is so sexy, her body can leave me speachless, and her skin feels so good on my hands, and she is so much more then just a super hot chick, lol, i mean i could just stay quiet and listen to her all day, man i have really fallen hard for her, lol

i hella miss swan right now, i havnt talked to her since i swan her on friday and i am going crazy, lol

hey,i wrote a good entry on the noose, you should read it

every moment me and swan spend together just seems to be amazing, i enjoy every moment with her so much, even if we arent doing anything i enjoy it. jsut being in her presence is good enough for me, man i would love a time i could be with her all the time, i would enjoy life in general so much more, i could just be myself , her be herself, and we could do anythign, i would not care what it is, as long as we are together, i would travel the world with her, do anything, and with her by my side it would be great. she just makes me feel so much better, i could not imagine life without her, ever since that day our love was lit aflame, i have had a feeling i cant explain, adn i feel it is a fire that could burn forever

man, well i hope i can see swan at least once( most likely once, lol) but yeah i should get a chance this week befor i go on vacation man i wish i could see her all the time, that would be so great, i still cant wait for a chance to sleep with her, or if we didnt sleep, lol, at least lay with her for a extended time with no distraction, that would be great, she really is so special to me, i really still find it crazy at times to know what i have with her the future holds so much, i wonder what it holds for us and everyone i know, it is so crazy, some of my friends are leaving on there own difficult journey, others are finding themselves and growing up, and developing into themselves, while others search still to find themselves, or there own way to finally grow comfterble with themselves so they can actually be themselves for once, and so many journeys people are taking, in left in the middle of it all is me and swan, who are growing both in our own individual ways and together as well, i have watched swan really grow over this time we have been together, some may be new growth or just me seeing more of her true self. i try to help her in her journey of growth however i can, she is really becoming a woman, and there are still many steps for her to go in that journey or life and understanding it all and growing up, but she is progressing at a good pace as for myself, well i dont know, hard to reflect on yourself, lol, but i am probably not doing so bad, lol, i just hope i make the right choices n the future, adn for some good wisdom, for wisdom is probably one the the most important things to have, next to love that is, which i am happy to say i already have