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oomg. dream. alex, liking me? doubt in the dream seems sort of obvious. shower with him, i finally deny the role of first but what was that?? in the dream it was all him, and it didn't hold any sexual poweress?

Daniel Martinez: 9 AP Classes, a four on each test, at least. 34 ACT, 2300 SAT. Volunteer work, Scholastic Bowl, Math Team, Art Club. Excelling in Literature, Language, German, French, Spanish, Calculus, Chemistry, Physics, Biology, History, Arts, Music Theory. Plays violin. Wrote a discourse on the new generation. Hispanic, athletic, hansome. Respectful, freethinker, humanist. College must accept me. I must be good.

I think I have matured. Priorities are set, but I just need the means. I have rid myself of that hideous want of a signifigant other. Although I'm certain it will come up again. My mind's expanding. New ideas are mandatory for my brain. Read Read Read Write. 3x reading for one writing. 3 books for one essay. 3 anthologies for one novel. Of course for poetry, it's more like 20x. 20 poems for one. 3x short stories for one. My painting and drawing skills are better. I can better tolerate. but I know my limits. and I am willing to act on them if they are severe enough.

Oh what to do. I fucking hate almost everything you say or do. You complain. everyday. it's what you seem to do best. you never stop. and you even complain about people complaining. You try....too....far too hard to be funny. the hyperbole in your words are almost like a ham. they're not even funny. you don't know how to pull it off effectively. You are weak. Mentally. So weak minded and I hate that. Be fucking strong you jackass. I will not pity you, because you stand fearful of the unknown. But what I hate most. Is what you've been saying about Jessica who is your friend. You fucking backstabber. She hasn't talked ill of you. I won't tell her. But I won't forget it. She is my friend. I will defend her when she knows not.

fucking horrible days. i wish anyone would be there for me. aahh. i do have them i guess i want a relationship i want someone to hold and care to care for and everything such an idealist i'll be alone for the rest of my life

this weekend this week this month has been crap tonight made all the difference mike talking to me. we're friends. shelby doesn't hate me. it opens up possibilities

it's my birthday 5 minutes in 3 people say happy birthday already why do i feel so alone? and rejected?

wtfff, We do not get along. and we met in 5th grade. you didn't use the proper "too." gay pride is the dumbest thing ever. wanting a boyfriend is lame. subjecting your body to willingness is dumb. goodness there's so much i could say i don't like about you. whatever. why am i writing this? because i'm happy you don't hate me ^_^

1. It's my dream to find someone and be able to sing this song and have it all be true. 2. No clue. 3. My second romantic dream. The words are so poetic. I fucking love it. 4. It's a catchy bit. 5. My depression song. I fucking care for my friends, I don't care if I'm messed up. 6. The last line is the best line. of any song. ever. 7. The melody is perfect. The words are haunting and gorgeous. 8. It's really good for a bright day to bring your mood up. 9. With a thousand kisses.... The melody is quite catchy. 10. I don't like it anymore.