Best cover yet. So I have been going to a lot of parties recently, basically giving it my all for the last couple weeks of the summer. It's like a pregame for college haha. I need to start going to the gym more, and dieting. I will not be able to run the two miles on the first day. Literally every day I am going to run two miles, and try cutting my time down a little every couple of days. I need to. I can't wait to go to school. Me and Dan like don't talk anymore. Which sucks. Only because I really like talking to him! He would be a great friend, but clearly I am not what he is looking for anymore. I wish we could just be friends. I hate that we cant be. I'm probably going to hang out with Kenny tomorrow after work. He always asks because he wants to hook up with me really bad apparently. I may give in. Only because it's been such a long time. I don't know yet though. I've been fighting it this long, why not just stick it through? They say that love is forever, and your forever is all that I need.

I love sleeping with sirens. Just love them. They suit my mood perfectly today, thank god. I have to call URI to figure out my loan stuff, because at this point, I can't pay my school.

So much happened over the day of the concert. Ill explain later. On facebook, this guy is talking about how "disgusting it is when one girl hooks up with multiple guys in one group." WHAT THE FUCK. How could it possibly be one girls fault, when the blame should equally go to the girl, and ALL OF THE GOD DAMN GUYS. Get the fuck real. I know he is referring to me during this too, because I was talking to this guys phil, in March, and then I realized I didn't like him at all, and got along with his friend better, so we dated. Then after me and him dated their other friends started talking to me. HOW THE HELL IS THAT MY FAULT. The only reason that he cares is because he isn't involved in it. He wouldn't care if the girl was fucking him,

They told me its an alllergic reaction. I'm pretty sure that its from something on my bed, because I havent been sleeping on it, then all of a sudden it happens when I start to again. Either that or its ice cream, but ice cream always makes me sick inside, not outside lol. Well i was put on steroids to get rid of the rash and stopthe swelling. I'll spend all day sleeping today, so I wont itch.

Going to the doctors today. Woke up this morning with the rash all the way down to my chest, my face puffy and swollen and my eyes so swollen I can barely open them. What the hell is wrong with me :(

So I woke up today with a face swollen to three times its original size. I was pissed! I couldnt go to work and I had to stay inside all day. My mother gave my 9 teaspoons of meds, when I am supposed to take 4 tops. I was on the verge of puking all day, when I was awake. It was a struggle to try to keep up, but eventually I just crashed. Even after all day, my face has just gotten worse. There is a rash all over my cheeks, all puffy and red. At least my eyes can open, unlike this morning.

Working til 6 today, then hanging out with Becca for Day ! of Farewell week. She leaves for Georgia on the 10th, giving us 8 days. It's going to suck, but it's all okay. I will visit her eentually maybe lol. Or she will visit here, or URI when I am in school. Talked to Dan last night, he was reassuring me that he actually wants to hang out, he is just so busy this week because of the reunion that his family has for this Saturday. It also sucks because we were supposed to go to a show on Saturday, but he can't go now because of the reunion. It's whatever though, I'll see him either this week or next. I don't want to go to work at all today. But I only have until Thursday, then I am off for two days. And I will love that lol.

Getting ready to go to work, I started thinking how I would really like to see Dan this week. It's not about the sex anymore. I could do it, and I would love to, but I more so just want to hang out with him! I'm going to work until 6 then going out to dinner with Haley and Harry, which will be nice. Harry is a nice guy.

I am so exhausted. Been hanging out with Haley and Harry, he seems cool. I am so exhausted. Went clubbing tonight with them, and we lost Harry, which isn't good. But we found him in the end. I am so exhausted. I havent tallked to Dan in a couple days now, which bugs me cause he is my friend and I want to see him. Iam so exhausted. UGH.

The Proposal = so fucking funny. Things are much better today. I don't feel quite so upset about everything. I miss hanging out with Dan, but its all good. I will probably see him at some point this week. Going out with Haley and Harry tonight, and clubbing tomorrow :)