So I couldnt hang out with Dan tonight, but its all good. I am with becca and we went and hung out with this guy Andy that I met. He's pretty cool, I enjoyed it.

Getting ready for work, again. Thank God tomorrow is my last day. I am so tired of working. I really hope that Dan can hang out tonight. I want to see him before I leave. He is the only normal guy that I like to be around. He is so attractive too! And we always make out, which is great haha. We always talk about hooking up, but I get nervous, like really nervous. We made out, and he was fingering me, but it hasnt gotten to be more than that yet. I think if we hang out again it will, but I'm really not sure. He's just a really chill guy and I want to remain friends with him (:

i spill my heart for you. So I saw Jeremy, my neighbor, at Metal fest a few weeks ago. It was the first time I had seen him in a very long time. I didn't talk to him. I didnt think that he would remember me. But we are talking on facebook now, go figure! Hes kinda cute ;)

I hung out with Jason tonight. He just wants to fuck me. Go figure. I want to see Dan tomorrow, but I don't know for sure if I am going to be able to. He is going to dinner with his ex before she goes back to school. We will see I guess. Im sad. Becca really just doesn't seem like she cares that I am leaving in a couple weeks. I go away for like a week in total, and I have 7 days left to spend with my best friend? I just want her to care, I want somebody to.

It is 9:37am. I have no idea why I am awake yet. I went to bed around 2, and woke up at 8:30. That's not cool. I have to work again today, til 6. I don't want to at all, but I could definitely use the tips. I get paid on Friday, but the majority of that is going right to my credit card bill. I need to save some of it though, for the weekend. I won't need much, but I am going up to Vermont with Haley and my family. It is much needed. Today I am going ot hang out with Jason after work for a couple hours. Then tomorrow I have to work again til 6, then I am probably going to hang out with Dan (: I'm excited about that. He is just so chill. I wish I could find somebody like that to date when I go to school. I can't wait to leave. 18 days and I am finally gone from this place.

Working a 10 hour day today, got roped into staying til 10 tonight. I smell like coffee so bad. Jason keeps calling me, asking me to chill. I am thinking that I might tomorrow. I dont wana do anything with him though. Not interested like that. My mom is going away again. I am driving up to see her on friday, but tomorrow and thursday I have nothing to do. I have to work 12 to 6 both days, but its all good. I am just going to be bored. I'm kinda sad cause me and Becca hang out every day basically, and I have been asking her to hang out, but she keeps saying she has plans. It sucks cause she is my best friend and it doesnt seem like she really cares that I am leaving in less than 19 days. She said that she does care, its just that she is denying that I am actually leaving her behind. But i dont know. I feel like if she really cared a whole lot, she would try to hang out with me.

Today I need to go to work til 6 but hopefully I will be going to the mall to get a new phone :) I hope that it wont be too expensive.

lindsey + party + loads of alcohol + cops only catching me and becca and 5 other kids = one awesome fucking night!

Was drinking tonight, with Becca, Haley, Pat, Derek and Mike. Of course everyone could handle themselves except for Becca. She stumbles into my house, smeeling like alcohol and puke. Of course my mom flips out. She isnt allowed over here again. Currently she is passed out on my floor. God I can't do this with her anymore. She acted like a fool all tonight. It was embarassing.

Baby what if I can't forget you. So, weird. Last night after I posted last, Dan texted me. He misses me. Says that girls suck, but not all, and especially not me :) That made me happy of course. Maybe we will end up hanging out soon. I hope so. I have to work today, which I am annoyed about. But tomorrow is my day off, and I only work until next friday. Then I am finally finished! :)