I hate when parents think that they know everything, and in reality have no fucking clue about anything. I am changing my major, I am almost positive. The perk is that I can change my major yet still go to medical school if I so choose to. I wish that she would just realize that she isn't controlling my life anymore. She hasn't for years but I am going on 20 years old, I've been able to come up with the right path for myself so far, and I will continue to do so, with or without her approval.

Ronnie signed up for the National Guard without me! D: He told me at breakfast this morning :( He is starting basic training on Wednesday. We will still have PT together though, Monday, Wednesday and Friday morning. Bad ass Army group went with me to the gym (: Everyone just watched as we set the new standard of working out. Me, Ronnie and AJ. It was great. Tomorrow night we are going to run the two miles to practice for the PT test on Wednesday. I am excited. It will be so hard, but I will do this. Happy note, about boys. I always have some guy that either likes me, or I like them. Alex and I are finished, and I came to terms with that. Even though we aren't together anymore, he will always have a place in my heart as my first love. Paul and I are better as just friends I think. He and I are going two separate places with our lives in a very short time. Now, this guy Patrick, who I think I have mentioned before, admitted that he is interested in me. Patrick is a 23 year old pre-medical graduate student in the U.S. Army. He has light brown hair, bright blue eyes, and is so helpful. He has offered to help me with anything that I am studying in school, to help me get back on my feet with running after my knees blew out, to be my running partner and to push me til I am capable of doing the best all the time. He is really sweet. I received a text this afternoon when I woke up from my nap saying "Are you single?" It was very random, I mean we weren't having a convo before that, so I was surprised. I just said yes, and asked why he was asking. The response I got was "I'm curious. I am talking to you because I am really interested in you." Of course this made my day lol. We continued talking for a bit, and I explained to him why I was stalling hanging out with him. It's a self esteem issue that I have. I am not the skinniest girl in the world, no doubt about it. I am nowhere near skinny either. But I am working on it. That's why PT is so important to me. And what I got back was "I think you are beautiful, and I am not shallow." That's literally all that I needed to hear. He's picking a day to hang out this week before I go home for the weekend as I type. I figured why not give him a shot? What is the worst that can be done? I've got nothing to lose.

Back to running again (: Physical therapy has actually helped. Now I just need to see how well I do with the two mile run for the PT test Wednesday. I already know that I can do well with push ups, and I can definitely do better with the sit ups, because I found an easier way of doing it. I am really happy that I am finally getting back to it. PT was a success, classes til 2, home to study for my Psych test, and back to the gym for round 2 tonight with the boys (:

I think that I did a fairly okay job dying my hair. It'd orangey-red. Takes some getting used to, but if i lighten up the bottom on my hair, itll all match lol.

I tried to dye my hair red.... fail.

Why can't things work out my way for once. I still want Paul, but he dragged me out for a year and a half, and just dropped me suddenly. Even though Patrick has a thing for me, I can't give him a chance because I am so goddamn sick of guys dragging me out all the time :[ It hurts, you know.

Is it bad that I want Paul to be jealous when I tell him that somebody at school has a thing for me? Hmm.

Jonny Craig. He is the most gorgeous human being that I have ever set my eyes on. I would give anything to see him, I wish he was still in Emarosa. I am not a fan really of Dance Gavin Dance, but if given the opportunity, I would go see them for sure. He is so good looking. I love gingers.

Haven't thought about Paul since Friday. We spoke last night for a few minutes, but he has made it clear that he doesn't want what I do. I'll live. I get to see Dan next weekend! :D I am so excited.

Tomorrow morning at 6am I have a 4 mile march. I am so excited. I will actually really excited. My knees are still really fucked up but I think I will be able to do this. At least I hope so. I have physical therapy after PT too. It hurts a ton to stretch out my muscles but its worth it. I stopped taking my meds to see if the pain has somewhat gone away, and for the most part it has. Getting lots of sleep tonight.