stupidstupid thing!way to delete my entry >______< anyways effort, in writing this all again, so, basically, my life is a fairytale and jay is just, well i cant put it into words anymore todday, mainly spent with her, at the beach, up a tree, dinner with her dad whoo is a mad chiller btw ("no, dont look at that, i need to edit it" "oh, you havent been making porn have you?" (: ) yes, i need to see her again, i missed her the second she walked out the door, after the final,final kiss today >

life is so great at the moment, i dont understand hehe its never great for this long, whats happeneing?? anyway, bay tommorow with jay and josh and yeahhh (:

it feels like the beginning of the holidays again. just layign around home eating vegan noodles going through my saved pages, catching up on the blogs i read in random bursts of enthusiasm wathching tv show, after tv show today, its the L word, on loan from jay, blog of the day: http://teenagemisanthropy.blogspot.com/ ^ this guy, is great,, "The genius of the hole: no matter how long you spend climbing out, you can still fall back down in an instant. And that, in a nutshell, is the problem with depression."

i woke up this morning from a crappy dream, one of those dreams that your so sure are real that it takes awhile to work out their not its not like it was a dl,ewgrfee,gDSAIDUWEHL scary death dream just that id slept for a day and a half and missed half of my work >

i came home, and i could stil smell her on my skin. i got into bed, and it was so empty without her, my lips and breasts were caving her touch, my skin, tingling where she touched me, i want to go back to the tunnels, to fall asleep in them, lying like that, i miss her already

are shit. not only,,, is impossible to read the frikking timetable, everything clashes gRRRRRRRRR >_______________________________,

a perfect day. i swear, days like these only happen in dreams and movies. (: so, jay came over in th morrning, woke me like she said, in bed, with her, for hours, until, hahahaha i got up, and made myself make dots top, which didnt turn out perfect, but she loved and the nevershoutnever one for me worked pretty well the smell of spraypaint. (: and the picnic tehehehehehehhehe (: SO good, we need to make them a regular event, there were no kids around, hanging out in the tunnels ohgosh. her breasts, wow, so soft, so beautiful, i mean iv always known shes amazing, but today, fuucking hell, she looked so gorgeous, annndddd, i gave her my tartan skirt, and when she wears it, its like naomi and emily (: (: mm, argh! bec better be better to barney >< what a silly girl lol and yeah i am sosososoFUCKING happy (:

she confuses me smething chronic, and tempts me it's not fair... jamg pm sedec damn her and her ways she ahbh so tempting and evil, and she's not done apparently. OKAY this is strashles by the way, hacking the misses account ;) uhhhmmmmmmrrrr iunno I think she should say what she wants to say because I'm not so sure what's going through her mind... soooo okay, my mind{DNR}; :D strasha.lllesznafaj a yeah ok I'm obsessed with her magnicent breasts jesuuuuuuus. I can't stay away from them ;D and and and and yeah that's all. I don't have much to say except I should have brought a spare change of underwear. didn't think I'd need a spare but appppaaarently not. now the hassle of finding what to wear to the picnic because my stuff is mixed up wit her's -__- TO THE ROOM I SHALL VENTURE

its amazing how quickly the emotions change the anger fades to be replaced with apathy and blankness thirteen hours, until shes in my house shes fifteen minutes away nnow,watching skins even beeing this close to her, after having two states between us (:

we come full circle in a night >< bsdi;fewuf;wreg i should have quit while i was ahead anyway yeah .