Getting my hair done tomorrow. Its going to look good, i hope. I am going crazy here, Darling is with the one person who i want to rip apart. i am so angry it is unbearable, i cried. I dont know how to cope with it. He knows that I am upset but does he care? no. He is still going to the mall rather than comfort me. AWESOME. Darling picks that slut over his girlfriend. Think of you later in my empty room, where I will fall asleep alone.

I hope I make this right. one, two, three....go Lindsey :(

I am just really happy, I am not too sure what I am going to do with myself. I drove to the store to get lobsters for my family, and I felt so bad cause I am totally against killing animals. They were looking at me and they were all sad, I can't be near them when they are being cooked :/ I will cry, I am so emotional these days. Chasing the night to make our days better.

I was just looking through some prom pictures that Darlings friend put up of he and his girlfriend. I started crying. They looked so happy, which made me so incredibly happy. But then I started thinking, I wish I could be like that, be there to make Darling as happy as they made each other. Darling definitely makes me that happy, without a doubt. Only a little longer Linds, keep holding on. My old man was born to rock, he stood trying to beat the clock.

So life, life is just a game. You have to play the cards right to get ahead in life, even if it means pushing people down to get up. Anyways, nothing is too new. I am just trying to get by again. I am trying to support myself and so far, so good. Okay well I suppose it is alright, I will be back, eventually.

Tell me you miss me.

Ah, the year is coming to an end, finally. Not much is new, just hanging out with people and getting ready for summer. Me and Darling are doing perfect, its funny. I love him so much. I saw the sun for the first time, oh and it lied in the form of a beautiful girl, who would take me on the ride of my life.

You couldn't help but turn away a mask that hides a face and the saddest eyes i have killed to save. you're searching for those secrets why I hide myself from you.

It has been quite a few days since I have gotten the chance to write. Nothing new has been going on the be honest. I have been going to school, working and driving every where. Nothing is new either, I have just been doing the same old thing, with the same old people, the only thing that changes is the gosh darn day. I was talking to Coll, he makes me happy. He is fun to talk to. And Burke, I was talking to him too, he and I sing back and fourth to each other, completing the song. He is a funny guy, they both are. But not as great as my Darling. Oh how he mean the world to me, but he never will know just how much. when I look into your eyes I can always realize, that you and I could have been together for all the times.

Its a good day for a cry. dont you worry about a thing, I'll be here and I'll be waiting for you.

Ah, today was a pretty good day. School was good, then I was out for a while. I got home and only spoke a different language for a while, I am not entirely sure why, but I did. I am so comfortable right now, in my sweatpants, I never wear them because they make me look grubby. But I should start, they are amazing! maybe our shadows aren't that tall.