i said a while ago that i would copy some of my old writing into this. i think i only put one piece in here. so, here's another. i found it in my freshman english writing portfolio. it had to be about a particular season, and the format was modeled after a passage from to kill a mockingbird: summer was what we waited for every year. the idea of it was what kept us sane throughout the school year. it was the perfect exclamation point on a 180 day long sentence. summer was our best season: it was driving to the beach almost everyday to feel that familiar, fulfilling burn of the sun on our backs and the salty air caressing our sun-reddened cheeks. it was waking up early with every intention of beating the crowds to where ever it was we were going, but never succeeding. it was making ridiculous plans to run away to california, but having even more fun on the playground of the pool club with an iPod and a perfect view of everything going on. it was the permanent scent of chlorine and salt water embedded in our hair and clothes. it was long nights of manhunt, barbecuing, and blasting old songs from a boom box. it was lazing on the hammock out back in the cool early evening, watching the sky change colors and day dreaming about the future - whether the future was 10 years, 10 weeks, or 10 minutes away. it was acting like little children and playing outside during one of the many thunderstorms. it was wearing a bathing suit everywhere we went, knowing we would eventually end up in someone's pool. it was the little things, like never having to wear sneakers and letting our tans take the place of our makeup. it was feeling the need to go out every day and stay out late every night. it was living off icepops and lemonade for 3 months. it was the feeling that we owned the world, and nothing could hold us back. but, above all things, summer was about the memories.

this needs to stop. first song: friendship by the ambush second song: sundrenched world by joshua radin third song: fall apart by 1208 fourth song: challengers by the new pornographers fifth song: geek in the pink by jason mraz sixth song: high tide or no tide by evergreen terrace seventh song: runaway by cartel eighth song: delusional by saves the day ninth song: razorblades by story of the year tenth song: this wasn't in our plan by the early november who does song 1 remind you of? amber, more or less what part of your life does song 2 remind you of? last year if you could dedicate song 3 to anyone, who would it be? hm, no one right now really does song 4's lyrics mean anything to you personally? yeah, it reminds me a lot of nick, and how we came to be why do you like song 5? its adorable and quirky and funny and cute. typical jason mraz. when did you first start listening to the artist of song 6? a few years ago. maybe 2 or 3? how many albums do you have from the artist of song 7? just this one how are songs 8 and 9 similar? somewhat same genre? idk, they're really not that similar what's song 10's meaning? last chances and desperation which song out of the 10 is your favorite? this wasn't in our plan, sundrenched world, or high tide or no tide which song out of the 10 is your least favorite? runaway which song means the most to you? why? challengers, it reminds me of nick. or high tide or no tide and sundrenched world, it reminds me of everyone else. would you dedicate any of these to your love/crush? yes, challengers. would you dedicate any of theses to your enemy? maybe friendship. but that's not quite pissed off or biting enough. do these 10 songs more or less represent your music collection? yeah, basically space jam just came on tv i'm content

i have nothing of importance to say lately. sarah smokes too much now, and it makes me sad. and worried. me and nick are best friends. its adorable. i need summer, i'm slacking in school so much. i want to start writing again. i miss feeling talented. i feel the words inside me, i just don't know where to put them. i never sleep anymore. i can't. i'm back to feeling as though i'll miss something if i do. it frustrates me so much. i'm still very sad that ligeia broke up. god, i'm trying too hard to have something to say. i'm doing this survey for the 1200th time. song #1: the no seatbelt song by brand new your favorite lyric from this song: omg, the entire song

we said it to each other today, and i was shaking i realized i had never said it out loud to anyone and truly meant it but it felt nice to be looked in the eyes and it felt nice to have him whisper "i love you too, baby girl" song #1: bonus mosh pt II by taking back sunday your favorite lyric from this song: i wanted you for nothing more than hating you for what you were does this song have any bad memories attached? not really. i mean, it reminds me of someone, but tbs for the most part reminds me of middle school. easy times. what genre is this? alt-pop-punk? i hate genres. song #2: miss you love by maria mena what's the last line of this song? i miss you love have you ever seen this artist live? no, but i HAVE TO before i die who does this song make you think of? a few people. no one relevant anymore, though. song #3: decoy by paramore what's the first line of this song? close your eyes and make believe this is where you wanna be where did you first hear this song? i'm actually not sure how about the first time you heard the artist? holy jesus, so long ago. before all the RIOT! nonsense. song #4: walking by by something corporate which friend could this be a theme tune for and why? maybe choliee, maybe matty, maybe myself write down the chorus: and why do you leave these stories unfinished, my cheshire cat doorstop, with tears in your eyes? and why do you look when you've already found it [me]? and what did you find that would leave you walking by? why do you like this song? andrew mcmahon is a force to reckoned with. his voice is beautiful. his music is beautiful. his lyrics are beautiful. everything about something corporate is so amazing. every song tells its own pretty pretty story. song #5: people like you are why people like me exist by say anything what kind of film would you choose this as the theme for? a high school age good versus evil story who introduced you to this artist? fuse tv best part of this song: max bemis song #6: cobrastyle by robyn the fourth line reads: ten is for you so who gon' get the next dozen, fool how long is this song? 4:10 is it one of your favourites? no, but its so good. makes you wanna dance and smack a bitch all at the same time! song #7: breakdown by jack johnson how long have you been listening to this artist? quite a while what's the cover look like on the album this came from? its bright yellow, with the black shadow outline of a huge shady tree on a cliff over the water. on the corner, you can see the shadow outline of jack, with his acoustic guitar, reaching up to touch a branch. what's this song about? it's about taking a second to stop, slow down, and take a look around. otherwise, you might miss everything. has your favourite song come up? bonus mosh, miss you love, breakdown i should sleep, i really never do it

i'm fucking freaking out right now i think i'm in love with nick and i'm fucking terrified i've never been in love i've never fucking felt like this i'm going crazy it's overwhelming! i'm legitimately dizzy it all finally hit me tonight like a ton of bricks square in the fucking stomach holy shit, like i can't breathe i want to call him and tell him but i would rather see him in person i want him to hold me right now and smile in spite of himself because i've finally taken down my walls that was his goal all along to get me to allow myself to love him he wins i never want to be without him fucking a i am in love with nick barone what the fuck?!

1. Who did you last shoot a dirty look at? mommy 2. What kind of car do you drive? mom's sonata and dad's touring. BUT I MIGHT BE GETTING MY OWN SOON

i've never felt this way about any one person he's absolutely incredible in every sense of the word we're perfect, and i don't care what anyone else has to say its fucking beautiful, kids fucking. beautiful.

i like you so much better when you're naked - ida maria dig it i have something so fucking amazingly beautifully good right now that's all i need to say

means is a really good band and the cd 'something worth fighting for' from facedown records is a really good compilation so is 'AMP magazine's 21 young guns salute' so i feel like typing forever maybe i'll do just that i'm watching offside its about these iranian women who dress as men so they can get in to the soccer stadium to watch the game only they get arrested and have to sit outside with these soldiers in this little gated area its actually a pretty funny movie and one of the soldiers looks just like my friend he's quite attractive but its all in iranian, so its kinda hard to type and listen but its really good nonetheless hotboxed my friends shed the other day funniest shit ever then we went to dunkin donuts and ate 5 donuts each healthy, yeah? aw, this movie is so good! ugh fuck my dads home i love being home alone my parents are such assholes to me lately i don't even wanna get into it my ankle is so grossly bruised and swollen fucking lacrosssssssssssse boe i cant walk on it, good i added so much goddamn music to my ipod in the last two days its insane and i made new playlists i love playlists, no joke shit, what the fuck would i do if i wasn't allowed to watch sports? be a girl, i guess aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah fuck that! anyway back to the music 194 new songs yessssssssss sir and i'm gunna name them all right now HA JUST KIDDING I WILL ABSOLUTELY NOT NAME THEM ive been so fucking happy with my life lately i feel like im finally where i should be with the kids i should be with doing what i always wanted to do im finally fucking CAREFREE and HAPPY and having FUN with my life i dont give a shit about anything anymore nothing stresses me im perfectly alright with everything and i feel like i can and will do anything illegal or not me and my friends have just become huge adrenaline junkies doing anything crazy just to get off i wish i grew up in the 80s and early 90s in venice and/or huntington beach with christian hosoi and the street skaters minus the meth im on a documentary kick rising son endless summer 1&2 warren miller's playground dogtown and z-boys matty is probably going to UNLV next year downside: - las vegas is a five hour plane ride from me - i have never been that far away from matty ever - hes my best friend, and ill barely see him next year upside: - i get to party in fucking VEGAS with him - i get to party in fucking CALIFORNIA with him - and, he promised me a trip to seattle :) but still he'll be so far away :( i need to lost weight fuck, man my dog is so cute he has so much fun just rolling around on the carpet by himself i hate when people call flash drives 'thumb drives' i have no idea why last night i had a dream that one of the gym teachers in my school was working in my house as a like... maid. and i walked into my brothers room and saw him making the bed. and he told me that he could get in trouble for being in my house. i joked around and told him i was gunna tell everyone he was in my bedroom. he laughed and kept making the bed. then when i left, we gave each other a polite kiss on the cheek, and he told me he'd see me later. oh, mr. bruno you are so sexy my friend was on a plane to florida with her family once mr. bruno was on her plane there, and back home ahahaha i woulda sat with him he's so funny me and him are like BUDZ in gym, we talk like he's my age and my best friend i want chocolate covered pretzels i hate people who look down upon drug addicts i hate people that blame the addict addiction is a disease, they need help just like any other sick person they dont need you telling them how its their fault and they dont deserve help or money or support or sympathy fuck you, you judgmental assholes i think i'll drive to the beach tonight throw back a few drinks, run my fingers through the cool sand and kiss a stranger in the dark bye, all

i do this survey so fucking much first night of spring break, but i'm way too run down to even get out of bed whatevaaaaa! song #1: immigrant punk by gogol bordello your favorite lyric from this song: oh, so many to choose from... "hoptza! i see another immigrant punk!" "legalize me, realize me! PARTY!" "of course we immigrants wanna sing all night long dont you know the singing salves the troubled soul? so im relaxed, m just lurking around i got a method and you don't you got a dictionary kicking around? look up the immigrant, immigrant, immigrant punk!" does this song have any bad memories attached? def NOT! what genre is this? hahahaha gypsy punk song #2: the truth is, you should lie with me by say anything what's the last line of this song? the truth is you should lie with me have you ever seen this artist live? yes, it was a wonderful, lovely, amazing, crazy awesome fucking time. who does this song make you think of? myself, a bit. song #3: ten days by missy higgins what's the first line of this song? so we've put an end to it this time. where did you first hear this song? this past winter my field hockey team signed up for an indoor league. during the games, the sports complex played music. in the midst of all the upbeat music meant to pump us up, this song came on. how about the first time you heard the artist? i know the first song i ever heard by her was the special two, but i don't really remember where i heard it. it might have been on so you think you can dance. song #4: shut me up by msi which friend could this be a theme tune for and why? hahahahaha andrew and dan, for sure. write down the chorus: i cant wait for you to shut me up and make me hip like badass! i cant wait for you to shut me up shut! it! up! why do you like this song? BECAUSE IT IS MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE. song #5: let the drummer kick by citizen cope what kind of film would you choose this as the theme for? something like 8-mile or step up, with some troubled youth wandering the rough streets of some urban area in the US with his hood up and headphones on. who introduced you to this artist? so you think you can dance best part of this song: the straight forward lyrics matched with the subtle piano. plus, the chill vibe of the whole song. you almost NEED to close your eyes slightly nod your head to the beat. song #6: what do i have to do? by stabbing westward the fourth line reads: i can feel your heartbeat through my skin how long is this song? 4:09 is it one of your favourites? its really fucking good, but its not necessarily a favorite. its one of those songs you forget you have on your ipod, and then it comes up on your shuffle and you just kinda smile and go, "oh fuck yeah" song #7: i want to save you by something corporate how long have you been listening to this artist? since forever what's the cover look like on the album this came from? leaving through the window