Wake up at one in the afternoon, eat a [slightly stale] chocolate chip muffin, shower, watch videos on YouTube to waste time, talk to a friend on the phone about plans, sit in a car for an hour, sit in the same car for twenty more minutes trying to figure out whether we have to fill the parking meter or not, sell two tickets [to scalpers] for $20 [basically losing $60], find the friends at the venue, wander around the city looking for a bathroom, get lost in a hotel and freak out the staff while looking for their bathroom, return to the venue, get in trouble for loitering in the wrong place, wait in line, enter the venue, buy a bag of Fritos and two bottles of water, push our way for Phantom Planet, wait, watch The Hush Sound, try to find them after the set and almost kill a random boy by sliding in gravel, return to the friends by shoving, watch Motion City Soundtrack while complaining about the insanely TALL people in front of us with another girl, meet them after their set and have them sign shoes/take pictures, return to the stage by "looking for our friend James" AKA lying to a crowd of people, talk to a random man about one of the friend's glasses, watch Panic[!] at the Disco while screaming, look for Panic[!] after their set, buy a The Hush Sound shirt for a different friend, talk to random people in line for The Hush Sound, have The Hush Sound sign said shirt and shoes, take a picture with The Hush Sound, meet with ride/friends and leave the venue, wait outside the Honda tour bus for fifteen-twenty minutes, lie to a guy that worked for the tour about it being my birthday, search for Panic[!]'s actual tour bus, talk to various Panic[!] crew members, high-five a bunch of random people, get annoyed by some guy with ugly sunglasses and designer jeans who moves his hand behind his back to avoid the high-five, talk to twelve year olds about how it's gross to give their phone number to Panic[!] with some crew member, tell crew member to tell Panic[!] they should have played Build God, Then We'll Talk, return to ride/friends and wait for the other friends' ride, annoy people while waiting, return to the car, pick up Whataburger, sit in the car for another fifty minutes, drop off one of the ride's friends, return home, chat with Mom about the concert, throw away Whataburger meal remains, change into pajamas, pee, brush teeth, open laptop, type random entry. Gah, today was awesome. Even if I was hungry and thirsty for about 7 hours. =)

I've been in a bad mood like all week. [I blame the sickness and the 96 straight hours with one person I can barely spend 45 minutes with.] I complain about a bunch of stuff, but I've been thinking about him for like thirty minutes now. Jesus. I've been building this effing wall for five years, man. Five years. And I've never even TALKED to him. Sure, I've known him for like... ten years or some crap like that? I don't talk to those people. Or socialize much with them. At all. So, WTF?! I hate being a teenager. Honestly, man. I don't even LIKE teenagers. I like adults and little kids. Kids my age, not so much. [Maybe that's because they don't like me?] I've been working on this whole "not feeling" deal for five to seven years. And I randomly decide that I like him, and the whole thing just flies out the window? ...!? I didn't even realize that I've been blocking/ignoring emotions for years until this year. I didn't feel bad - I didn't really feel ANYTHING. Well, last year was awesome. Very possibly the best years of my life. But whatever. This year sucks, and I want to go back to the whole filtered feelings deal. Sorry. I think I just see emotions as a weakness.

Sometimes I hate myself. I think people think I feel superior to them, but I really don't. I admire quite a few people I attend school with. I'd be more than happy to be friends with a good portion of them. I blame my friend for that though. [Ha, look, scapegoats.] She won't let me talk to anyone without giving them this "we're better than you" look. So I like the kids that know all the words to the Pokemon theme song or the kids playing duck-duck-goose. So I thought the guy that almost agreed to sing Bingo was cool. Why can't I make friends when you're around?! Actually, why can't I ever make friends? I need to make a non-showering Pokemon-theme-song-lyrics-knowing guy friend. Or something. =P [Don't ask about the non-showering part. ...I don't have a problem.] In conclusion: private school kids suck.

I miss the way things were before we all "grew up." When did my friend[s] get so snobby? I think maturity might be overrated. I just want one person to dance on park benches with, man.

I've been seeing these for forever, so I figured I may as well finally steal one. Don't remember whose journal I copied it from, but whatever... No school for me tomorrow [gah, I haven't been to school since last Wednesday and tomorrow's Tuesday] and I'm half-happy, half-annoyed about that. ANYWAY. Song #1: Dirty Laundry by You, Me, And Everyone We Know Your favorite lyric from this song: A lie because your tan's been overcooked / But I've been burned and burned Does this song have any bad memories attached? Nope! Haven't listened to it that much. What genre is this? Indie, apparently? Song #2: I'm Not Okay by My Chemical Romance What's the last line of this song? I'm not okay. Have you ever seen this artist live? Hell yeah. First concert, man. Who does this song make you think of? The friend I've known since I was 3. She decided it was our theme song a few months ago. Number 3: Put Your Records On by Corinne Bailey Rae What's the first line of this song? Three little birds, sat on my window Where did you first hear this song? My friend sent me a link to the music video on YouTube. How about the first time you heard the artist? See above. xD Song #4: Fallen Leaves by Billy Talent Which friend could this be a theme tune for and why? I have no idea. Maybe my brother. Write down the chorus: In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found / Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground / Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down / Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves… on the ground Why do you like this song? It's just pure awesomeness. My foot like involuntarily taps and I love it. Song #5: Lions Roar by The Hush Sound What kind of film would you choose this as the theme for? Uhm. I have no idea. Suspense? xD It really depends. I don't watch enough movies to answer this question. Who introduced you to this artist? Uhm. YouTube? Best part of this song: When it starts getting kinda frantic and ends up with Bob [assuming it's Bob] screaming "Everybody stop!". Hah. Song #6: You've Got Yourself to Blame by Abagnale The fourth line reads: Screaming out in all your silence How long is this song? 3:38. Is it one of your favourites? Nope. I like it quite a bit though. Song #7: Grenade Jumper by Fall Out Boy How long have you been listening to this artist? Jesus. Um. A year and four months? Since December 2006. [Yeah, that's not long considering how long the band has been around, but it's long for me, since I like didn't listen to anything but country until December 2006.] What's the cover look like on the album this came from? It's blue-tinted-ish and the boys [Pete, Andy, Patrick, Joe] are all sitting on a couch. And none of 'em look particularly happy. Yuppers. What's this song about? Uh. I guess it's about their friend Chris who supported them or something? I think it's about how they won't forget him. [Assuming. Not entirely sure.] Has your favourite song come up? Nope!

Well, I'm back from the art festival [was fun for the most part] and I feel oh-so-horrible. I didn't finish ANY of my homework last night, and I ended up going to bed at 12:50-ish. And I woke up today at 3:40 PM. I woke up off and on to pee or tell my mom I really didn't want to go to school, but I didn't actually get out of bed and stay awake till 3:40. So. I still feel awful. Somebody on the 13 hour bus ride got me sick on Wednesday, and I've felt like crap ever since. Can't wait for it to be over. Thing is, I REALLY needed to go to school today. I had 2 tests and test corrections to turn in. So I'm pretty much screwed over now. I have four math assignments, and I can't do any of them, because I don't know how. Dang you, linear programming. I MET A GUY THAT WAS CRAZY AWESOME AND AGREED TO SCREAM BINGO FOR ME. And then he was all "I don't have any recording equipment" and I was all "It doesn't have to be good quality or anything. It can be like a phone recording." But he said he didn't think he could do it, and his bus was leaving, so... Ah well. He was nice, and so was the other guy I asked. Gah. I can't teach myself linear programming.

*shall shut up* I'm going to this art festival with my school tomorrow. [Have to wake up at effing 4:15 AM to be at school at effing 5 AM for an effing fifteen hour bus ride.] Should be good though. Plus we get to miss three days of school. [Wednesday, Thursday, Friday.] The Cat Empire makes me happier everytime I listen to them. I miss my friends that I never see. I think about certain people too much. I don't think I can handle a [ultimately] 30 hour bus ride with 50 indifferent kids that won't shuddup. Especially not at 5 AM. I need to go to bed at like 9 tonight, and it's already 7:20, and I haven't packed yet. Gaah. I should go do that now.

Dude, Gone with the Wind is so effing depressing. I mean, seriously. First Bonnie dies, then Melanie dies, and then Rhett leaves? Like, all within a week?And the ending was really pretty stupid. AND I HATED ALL OF THE CHARACTERS, MAN! Except maybe Rhett, but he was also kind of an asshole. And Bonnie was cute, but she was such a brat. Okay, I liked Beau. But that's just 'cause he was cute and not in any of the scenes. I liked the POV the movie was from though. [Like, the Confederates are the good guys.] It was interesting to see the Civil War like that, because [obviously] when you learn about it in school, you side with the North [because they were right...]. I also liked the part where Ashley and Scarlett are talking about using prisoners for labor and treating them badly, and she says "You weren't so particular on owning slaves" or something and he's like "It's not the same thing. We didn't treat them like this." And I was like "BOOYAH I TOTALLY TALKED TO MY FRIEND ABOUT THAT." Lemme explain: Slavery = very bad. [Obviously.] And obviously, most slaves were treated really horribly. But to assume that ALL slave owners were bad to their slaves is an assumption, a generalization, and a logical fallacy. [I've heard that the Washingtons were actually pretty good to their slaves.] Ah, whatever. And when Scarlett kills the horse when she gets to Tara, why don't they just eat it...? Everyone's all "WE HAVE NO FOOD!" but the horse is just sitting there dead in the front yard. Sure, that might be gross, but if you're starving... I wanted to cry at the end, when Bonnie died, but that was mostly because it's an effing little girl DYING. Other than that, I was just annoyed by the characters. I don't know. I liked it and didn't at the same time. Wouldn't watch it again [dear LORD. Four freaking hours?!] or recommend it to anyone. But it wasn't horrible.

Dude, I really want Frosted Cheerios right now. Dry Frosted Cheerios. There's a box upstairs, but I've already had so much junk food tonight... Plus, it's 3:30 AM. =) Today, I finished Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk and started Journey to the Center of the Earth by Jules Verne. I have like four other books to read after I finish this one, so I'm pretty happy. I started reading the Princeton Review Guide for my AP World History class today. I just need to get a 2 on that exam, and I can take AP U.S. History... xD My mom, sister, and I watched the first 90 minutes of Gone With The Wind today. Gah, that movie's so freaking long. I mean, it's an okay movie, but Jesus. 4 freaking hours? I think I shall go get those Frosted Cheerios. On second thought, maybe I should just go to bed... [But I'm not tired!] I won't do anything with my friends this weekend, which sucks, but whatever.

Holy shit. I love when I'm reading a book, and something happens that just like completely surprises me. I just sit there like "WTF!?" and it's all awesome. It doesn't happen often, 'cause most books are pretty easy to predict. I'm reading Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk right now, 'cause a BUNCH of people were like "so good! *reference!* so good!" It took FOREVER to find... [Thanks, Barnes and Nobles in Chicago!] Maybe I shoulda been able to tell who she was. Ah well. Still way shocked. =) In an awesome good way.