It doesn't surprise me that the two finalists on American Idol sound like EVERYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD. And the guy that lost actually has a nicer voice. This, my friends, is why I don't care about that show. So they can sing. So what? Do they write their own music? No. Do they write their own lyrics? No. Do they have to work very hard to get noticed? No. Do they sound like the rest of the people on the radio? Yes. Impressive? Not at all. I hate British Literature with a passion.

Pretty. Odd. is oh-so-unremarkable. I haven't listened to it since before I saw Panic! in concert. I was only listening to it then so I could sing along. [Still didn't happen.] It just bores the hell out of me. Sounds like everything else. I so should have gone to see PlayRadioPlay! the other night. I need something to look forward to. Or to rave about. Oh well. =/ Facebook's weird and sort of creepy. I mean, I found some kid I haven't talked to in a billion years on there, as well as the guy I buy CDs from. ... He's gonna be freaked out. Ah well!

I don't see why everyone wants to be smart. Or be with someone smart. All I want is someone with a sense of humor and good taste in music. I mean, as long as they're not like "EXPLAIN ANAL SEX TO ME" stupid [the people you find on YouTube...], I'm cool. Grades and IQ level don't matter to me... Gah. I just don't understand my generation. I like most of the kids I know, but I still don't understand how they think. :D Maybe it's because I didn't/don't watch a lot of TV or movies, and I'm not really exposed to the media as much? Ah well, I dunno. I've been listening to a lot of My Chemical Romance recently and I don't know why. Lead singers are oh-so-overrated. I mean, yeah, I love some of them, but why does everyone think it's so awesome when a guy can sing? I honestly don't understand that. I live in a world of homophobes. It pisses me off. Actually, it's like everyone either makes fun of/hates gays or they think it's cool to randomly be gay on certain days and not be gay on others. Grow up, people. Then again, most of the kids that are homophobes/gays-on-certain-days are middle schoolers. Thank God I'm almost a junior. xD

My tummy's been hurting me all day, my back hurts, I'm tired, and I really don't want to shower or pack. Tomorrow's my last real day of school, and I'm leaving early, so whoo. After tomorrow, I have my chem exam on Tuesday and then my English and math exams on Wednesday. So. That should be good. It's almost over. I'm worried about my chem exam and my algebra exam, but I think my English exam will be okay. Chem's standardized, 80 multiple choice questions, and 90 minutes long. Algebra 2's over like A BILLION subjects and it's like 50 multiple choice, a few free response, and some vocabulary. Gah. I need to study like crazy this weekend, and it's not going to be fun. Especially since I won't have internet.

It took me forever to finally fall in love with You, Me, and Everyone We Know. Like, I downloaded their EP for free on absolutepunk.net in January, and just kind of skimmed over it. But now I totally adore Livin' Th' Dream and The Press War, and I just really like the whole thing. They're coming to my city, but I have exams the next morning - wait, no I don't... I don't have a morning exam that day... Gah, I'm so totally making my friend go to that with me. =)

My AP world history exam is tomorrow, and I'm FREAKING OUT. I feel like I don't know anything, which is terrifying. I just want a 2 or a 3 though, and I THINK I can manage that, so I'm hoping...

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? Nope. Does a kiss make you feel better? Dunno. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? Nope! Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? Before. What did you do today? Got a haircut and went shopping for Mother's Day. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower? Yes! Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time? Um, no. xD Have you ever thought about your death? Yeah, quite a lot. Ever been in love? Nope. Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field? Permanent, I think. Unless I'm miserable or something. What is your favorite sport? To watch: football. To play: ... horseback riding? xD What color is your shower curtain? At my mom's, I don't have a shower curtain. But at my dad's, I THINK it's brown. I don't remember. xD Have you ever had stitches? Yup. I put my right hand through a window. Got stitches in my pinky. =) Did you believe that boys/girls had cooties? Well. We didn't actually believe it, but we used to say that the boys were like insects. Does that count? Do you know how to use chop sticks? Ha, barely. I've used 'em before, but I SUCK at it. Lyrics stuck in your head? None, actually. Do you like the Red Sox or Yankeess? Neither. =) What are you doing tomorrow? Spending the day with my mom/step-dad, grandparents, step-grandparents, and siblings. And then studying like crazy for AP test when I get the chance. I'm excited. =/ Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of? The guy I like. Unfortunately. Have you ever given money to a homeless person? Nope. We give them Slim Jims. xD Have you ever run over an animal? Nope. What is your favorite cereal? Uh, I dunno. Wild Animal Crunch or Raisin Bran or Golden Grahams. =) Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter? Yup! Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? Uh, I didn't know it made a difference. Where's your favorite place to be? Don't have one. What's your favorite song? At the moment, Livin' The Dream by You, Me, and Everyone We Know. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker? Neither. Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire? Nope... Have you ever been arrested? No. =D Do you dream in black and white? Don't think I ever have. Do you talk in your sleep? I don't think so... Do you snore? I don't think so... Are you a redneck? I don't THINK so... xD Funniest thing you heard all day? Nothing, actually. Fun. =/ What are you afraid of? Being alone. What would you say to God if you met him in Heaven? I'm sorry. Yeah, I'm bored. =) And I should be doing my algebra 2 homework and my chemistry homework and working on my English presentation and studying for my tests. Poop.

Bands I Want To See: - The Used - You, Me, And Everyone We Know [and they're coming to my town, but I have exams the next day... >( I hate school.] - The Higher (again) - Jack's Mannequin - Cute Is What We Aim For - The Hush Sound (again) - Motion City Soundtrack (again) - This Providence (again) - Forever The Sickest Kids - The Cat Empire - My Chemical Romance (again) Ha, I suck. But that's okay. =) I want my CD that I've already paid for... I need to go pick it up, but I can't get anyone to go with me and I don't wanna go alone. This would be different if I could drive. But I can't. Not alone, at least.

I honestly don't understand why it's such a good thing to be smart. I don't understand why everyone wants to be smart or why people like learning or any of that crap. I HATE being smart. I HATE it. I don't understand the appeal of California either. I hate California. xD

My puppies are whining, and I don't want to revise my essay anymore. I had a nightmare last night. I didn't wake up in the middle of it or anything though; I actually slept through my alarm. When I woke up though, I was really freaked out. Not sweating-can't-fall-back-asleep terrified, but scared to the point that I couldn't stay by myself anymore. I was honestly scared to be alone in my room. Why? My dream was about ghosts/spirits [which used to scare the shit out of me as a kid] and some scheme where a hotel sold deformed and possessed illegal immigrants to people as pets. The ghosts/spirits were all about killing the people staying in the hotel, too. But not outright killing them, more like messing with their heads and slowly torturing them until they commited suicide. I can remember certain parts of it really well. For example, the hotel was out away from everything in a kind of Grand Canyon type area. Lots of dust and cliffs like that, with sort of Mexican style ruins [like of churches/houses] around. I was with a few other people staying in the hotel walking around and we knew we were in danger for some reason [I don't remember the part leading up to the part I remember. xD], so we went and hid in a church ruin. There was a wall and then a big dusty iron gate. The ghosts/spirits couldn't get through it unless one of us opened it for them. One of the ghosts had possessed a woman staying in the hotel and tried to get through the gate, but we wouldn't let her in. And then this sort of ugly kid with almost-emo hair and a band T-shirt on ran up, looking terrified, and screamed that something was after him. So we let him in. And he came in and sat down with a few of us. Eventually, we found out that he was also possessed by one of the ghosts and he killed one of the people hiding with us before we all ran. Another part I remember realy well was when we [my mom, sister, and me] finally went home from the hotel, something went wrong in the house and we had to go back and stay there. And I remember REALLY not wanting to go back. I felt this sense of foreboding at the hotel. When we got back to our room, I remember thinking that we shouldn't have come back and being afraid to be alone in the room. I also remember having to shower there, but there were two connected showers, [but you couldn't really see into the other one] and my sister was using one so I used the other. I HATE showering in hotels as it is, but I felt a little better since I wasn't alone. But apparently one of the ghosts/spirits was in there while I was showering but I didn't figure that out till later, when I was already dressed/out, etc. That's about when I woke up, and I was FREAKED OUT. Honestly, I've NEVER been that scared after a dream. Heh, sorry.