I have friends, yet I feel like a loner. I need my friends sometimes to get through classes, but I feel like nobody knows me. I'm loyal as hell, but I don't know why. Maybe I'm getting defensive and loyal mixed up.

I stole this from plasticskies because I REALLY don't wanna work on my English essay... 1. Who did you last shoot a dirty look at? My sister, I think? 2. What kind of car do you drive? I don't drive yet. 3. Have you ever had a garage sale? No. 4. What color is your iPod? Black. 5. What kind of dog do you have? A Golden Retriever, a Pembroke Welsh Corgi, and a mix/rescue dog. 6. What's for dinner tonight? Microwaved ham and cheese sandwich. 7. What is the last drink you drank? Diet Coke. 8. Last time you were sick? Um, like two weeks ago. 9. How long is your hair? A little past shoulder length, I guess. 10. Are you happy right now? Not particularly. 11. What did you say last? Good night. 12. Who came over last? Uh. I have no idea. 13. Do you drink beer? Nope. 14. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted? Nah. I told my sister that though... 15. What is your favorite key chain on your keys? No keys. 16. What is in your pocket? No pockets. 17. Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend? No boyfriend. 18. Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with? My step-dad. 19. What DVD is in your DVD player? No DVD player. 20. What's something fun you did today? Picked up a new CD and went to the pet store. 21. What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"? The kitty in the pet store. xD 22. What are you listening to right now? My computer making noise. 23. What have you had to drink so far today? Milk, water, Diet Coke. 24. When is your birthday? May 13th. 25. What's the area code for your cell phone? Pssh, I don't even know my cell phone number. 26. Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now? My mom bought it at a parade last Saturday. 27. Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror? No rear view mirror. But my mom has a lei on hers and my step-dad has fuzzy dice. 28. How many states in the U.S. have you been to? Sixteen. California, Nevada, Idaho, Texas, Oklahoma, Kansas, Illinois, Minnesota, Wisconsin, Georgia, Florida, Virginia, Maryland, Pennsylvania, New York, Hawaii. 29. What are you going to do after this? I'm going to shower and write my essays. =) 30. What is something you need to go shopping for? Fancy clothes/clothes to wear in Italy. 31. Do you like pickles? Yeah. 32. How about olives? Gross. xD 33. What is your favorite kind of gum? Orbit Wintergreen. 34. Do you have any tan lines? Yeah, where my watch is and where my socks end. 35. Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher? Mrs. Lynn. 36. Who was the last person to call you baby? My dad. 37. When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout? Occasionally. 38. Has anyone ever sang to you? My mom and my uncles. 39. Has anyone ever given you roses? Yeah. 40. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? If it was only for like three days or something. 41. What is your favorite color? Blue. 42. What color are your eyes? Brown. 43. What is a compliment you receive way too often? You're so smart. [That's a lie, by the way...] 44. How tall are you? 5'5", I think. 45. Who was the last person to say they loved you and when? My mom when she was going to dinner. 46. Do you like your parents? Yes. All four of them. xD 47. Why did your last relationship end? Never really been in one. 48. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone? My dad. 49. Where is the furthest place you've traveled? Hawaii. 50. Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep? Sleep. 51. Do you look more like your mom or your dad? I have my dad's coloring and my mom's facial structure, so I dunno. 52. How long does it take you to shower? 15 minutes. 53. Can you do splits? Nope. 54. Can you use the grill? Uhm, no. =) 55. Are you flexible? Not particularly. 56. What movie do you want to see? Fight Club. 57. What did you on New Years Eve 2007? I don't remember... That was forever ago. 58. Was your mom a cheerleader? Eh, she was like a spirit squad kid or something, but not technically a cheerleader. 59. What is the last letter of your middle name? G. 60. How many hours of sleep did you get last night? Uh. Six. 61. Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Yup. 62. Are you scared of flying? Only when we're taking off/landing. 63. What do you sleep in? Random T-shirts and pajama pants 64. Do you have any tattoos? Nope. 65. Have you ever been to Los Angeles? Yeah, and I HATED it. 66. What jewelry do you wear all the time? I don't wear jewelry. Does my watch count? 67. What is your favorite song at the moment? A Spill, A Slip, A Hospital Trip by A Farewell Rescue. 68. What song do you HATE? A large portion of the songs on the radio. 69. Do you like chocolate? Yup! 70. Are you easy to get along with? I think so... 71. Any up coming events you're excited about? Nope. Not at all.

I have to write an essay about a play and study for my AP exam, but I'm updating this instead. Why? Because I get bored and distracted way too easily. I need more music, but I don't have time to check out bands right now. I already have 3 CDs I want... Dressed Up Like Dreams by Backseat Goodbye, Living Well is the Best Revenge by Midtown, and the soundtrack for Dan In Real Life. =) And Never Meet Your Heroes by A Farewell Rescue, but I've already ordered/paid for that one, so it doesn't count. *dances*

I talked to one of my not-so-close friends today for like an hour, and she asked me things that I didn't want to answer and I told her things she didn't want to hear. Overall, I think she doesn't understand me. But whatever. I don't get why so many kids think they're misunderstood. Someone should explain that to me. Also. I need to make that screamo-friend relatively soon, because it's been bothering me for over a year. I feel kinda bad for making friends with somebody just so they'll sing for me though. Gaaah. It would be way useful to have a friend that could drive and lived near me too. Actually, just having friends that lived near me would be brilliant. The kids in my neighborhood are just gross or don't exist. And I saw some of my classmates at Smoothie King on Friday and I was all "NOT YOU PEOPLE." At least one of the kids had to have recognized me, because we made eye contact and I'm in his advisory. So. And one of the other kids was just like looking at me funny. Like "you look familiar; WTF are you?" funny. Yup. Not my favorite thing ever. My sister and I watched like 6 hours of America's Next Top Model today. That show gets so old so fast. I stopped paying attention after like the first two episodes... Gah. We also watched Dan In Real Life. I liked it, but I've seen better movies. Whatever. I rented Anastasia and I really wanna watch that now. =) I won't have time tomorrow or the next day or the next or the next or the next [etc.] so that sucks. A lot. It's really quite pleasant except for the smell. I should go to bed instead of surfing the internet, considering it's 4:30 AM. I liked this three day weekend, but it went by way too quickly.

People that smash guitars are douchebags. I love photography for some reason. Especially black and white. I just find a lot of it really beautiful and fascinating. I mean, I appreciate art, and I find a lot of pieces really pretty also, but I just like photography so much more. And I've been in a photography mood recently. I want to be in the darkroom. I want to be out taking pictures. Gaaah. Well, I'm planning on going to get ice cream with my friend and my sister, and I'm taking my Canon, so we'll see. [First, I need to find some b&w film...]

Today, I went to the music store and ordered Never Meet Your Heroes by A Farewell Rescue. When I told the guy that runs the store what the title of the CD was, he laughed and said, "Yeah, you never want to meet your heroes. They usually end up being jerks." I didn't know how to reply to that, mostly because I don't have heroes. But it reminded me of meeting bands. I respect those guys quite a lot, and when they suck, it's hard for me to listen to their music. It almost makes me want to NOT meet them. Like, avoid them. Gah, I don't know. Talking to the guy that works at the music store was really awkward today, and it almost never is. Huh.

I'm just so so tired. In multiple ways. Like, physically and emotionally and mentally. I don't want to deal with any of it anymore. Gah. Do people blog for attention? I honestly don't think I do. I dunno why I do it. Maybe I subconciously do it for attention? Gaaah.

I saw my old horseback riding teacher today, and I honestly almost started crying. I was having a really hard time talking because of it. I miss it so much... I miss a lot of things from last year, actually. Like, miss to the point of crying over it. I saw my English teacher from last year for the first time in almost a year [she retired], and she asked if I was having a good year. I lied and said yes, like I'm expected to. You can't say no to that question, especially not to teachers. Even if they're ex-teachers. I started randomly singing today, and my friend's like "Why are you singing Nickleback?" and I'm like "Wha...? I was just singing random things." Ha.

I hate matrices. So fucking much. It's not that they're difficult per se, but they take SO LONG. My sister made Kool-Aid, and I drank some with dinner like 3 hours ago... And I can still taste it. x( [AND I BRUSHED MY TEETH! WTF!?] It's like vanilla yogurt except sweeter and persistant, and it's gross. The Hush Sound is my newest obsession. I've seen 'em twice now, met 'em once, and listened to their new CD about a billion times. I love how lost Darren was when they were all signing stuff and taking pictures. He's like looking around like "WTF TOO MANY KIDS" and Bob had to keep saying "DARREN, WE'RE TAKING A PICTURE." So then he'd turn around, lean in, and smile, and then proceed to look lost again. Haha. I found that hilarious. He even sounded lost when I was talking to him. He was just like "What's going on...?" And I'd be like "You're supposed to be taking a picture, man." Okay, sorry, I'm done. I could go on forever about bands and concerts and the boys in bands and the bands' crew members, but I won't. =) I have SO much homework. SOMUCH. I'm really easily distracted, but that's not ADD. That's just me not caring. It's warm, and I have to go do my matrices math homework and my DBQ practice worksheet. I update this too often, but I think it may be because I absolutely adore this font. Don't ask me why.

Me: Which Anthony? ---: From Smosh? Me: Oh. Me: Yeah, his hair's cool. Me: He can pull off the long[er] hair. ---: I think he uses a body double. Me: ... WTF? ---: There's an Anthony with short hair. Me: Uh, yeah... He cut it... Me: And it's growing back... Honestly, kid. Do you not understand that hair GROWS? ---: I wonder how he grows his hair so fast. Me: It's been like four months. Me: If you get it trimmed, it grows more... ---: Does he use some hair product that makes his hair grow longer? Me: Why would you randomly think that...? Me: They don't put videos out very often. WTF!? This is why I hate YouTube, man. People are just STUPID.