"The people here don't ever like to sing in their cars/ They just turn their radios up to drown out their thoughts." I love Backseat Goodbye. I've had a continuous headache for like four days. [Not kidding.]

I'm having the worst summer of my life, and I'm taking it out on my best friends. I hate this summer and myself and my family and the school work I have to do.

I bought a $50 iTunes gift card today, because I've been dying to buy more songs... Having over 150 songs on my 'songs to buy list' makes me sad. It got so big I had to move it from Notepad to Word because of the numbering. Search The City seems really brilliant. I should probably look into (a) CD(s) by them. I recently fell back in love with The Academy Is... I'm excited for their new CD, especially if they tour. [I couldn't go to Warped, which STUNK, and I'm so jealous of the kids that went/are going.] Yesterday, my step-dad called right as we were sitting down to dinner to tell me that I got a 4 on my AP exam. I was SO excited. I kind of responded with an "Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, are you serious?! Oh my gosh!" which is not entirely in character. :D It literally made my day though. I'm really hungry. I don't know why my journal entries have recently gotten longer. :D It's weird. I hate when people are all "I like ALL music." I'm gonna have to agree with Chuck Klosterman and say that those people really don't like ANY music. I'm running out of money for my CDs, but I guess I have my debit card from my grandmother... The guy at Radioshack was all "WTF CASH?" when I paid for the iTunes card and I was like :). Yeaaah. Random much? Sorry. I'm reluctant to buy that Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger song by Daft Punk, but I kinda want it... I'm not crazy about Daft Punk, and the song sometimes annoys me, but sometimes I'm like in love with it. I dunno. I hate when this happens. Joel Osteen is creepy. =)

I'm sleepy. :) I'm watching movies and being bored while my cousins are swimming. My feet are cold. I was asking my friend for a project to do, and she recommended surveying people. I'd do it, but I'm not outgoing at ALL. I'd be WAY too nervous to like walk up to people. xD I bought 2 CDs and an EP from Hot Topic the other day [there's like nothing else (worth buying) in there...], and I imported them all but haven't gotten around to listening to them yet. I bought Coming To Terms by Carolina Liar, Cute Is What We Aim For's new CD, and The Morning Light's EP, The Sounds of Love. I need to find Cobra Starship CDs somewhere... I need a project and a life and something to do, that's not homework. :D I'm kind of freaking out about a bunch of stuff. [Washington D.C. and summer reading and this camping trip with the neighbors [who I've met ONCE]. My neck and back hurt. That's pretty normal though. Aw, I think I just scared my cousin away. Or bored the heck out of her. Sorry, Maddy! ... I don't know if that's how you spell her name, but that's okay. I have to pee, and I'm insanely bored. Facebook is obnoxious. I don't WANT to invite my friends to add this. Or anything relatively close to that. Gah. I'm tired and I miss my family and my friends and I should be reading but I'm not. And I just kind of am miserable. Okay, I'm done. :)

It is terribly selfish to want to see my family? I keep wanting to cry, but I can't because my sister's sleeping in my room. I'm not a "let's cry in front of people" person. I just - I just want this summer to be over.

Not so sure about the biking thing at this point. I miss everything more than I thought possible. I want to go home this weekend, just for a day. Warped Tour... I need my face stuff and my driving permit and my friends and my CD store and my life. And I'm so jealous of these people. Let me fucking see my family [who I haven't seen since the funeral and used to see every summer] for more than 3 days. You don't understand. You haven't been cut off from everyone on a side of your family because your step-sister hates your aunt. Let me have what you have. I'm just feeling a little more miserable than I should be. I'm just feeling a little more lonely than I should be. I'm just feeling a little more empty than I should be.

Gah, that "too much traffic" thing is pretty much the answer to the library thing. Which sucks, because I have nothing to do now. All summer. I'm already bored, and it's the second day. I need to go let the dogs out, but I'm laaaazy. Ugh.

So. I'm wearing pink socks, a bra I'm so not used to, and the same clothes I wore yesterday. They've been washed, but it's still weird. And I'm supposed to be packing, but I'm not. =) Uhm. I'm tired, too [went to bed at 4:30, woke up at 10:45]. And keep switching between playing music on YouTube and my iPod. Gaaah. And now that I've finished the Coke I was drinking, I don't know what to do with the glass bottle. I've found a library 1.64 miles away from my dad's house, and I'm pretty sure it'd be really easy to bike there. I'm going to ask about it at some point, but I'm kind of afraid they'll be like "too much traffic!" Gaaah. I have to go, I think. :D

1. Name a quote from the song you're listening to: "Everyone gets in the way of everything." 2. When were you born? May 13. 3. Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? Nope. 4. What are you seriously wearing? Pre-ripped jeans [ugh] from Target, a shirt that says "If you are reading this shirt, then step one of my evil plan is complete" from Hot Topic, socks with green and orange circles on them with spiders in the circles. 5. When is the last time you saw the person you like/liked? Uhm. Wednesday. 6. Ever kissed anyone on your top friends? I don't have top friends. xD 7. Describe the last time you were injured? Well, like five minutes ago, I dropped a book sized object on my foot. 8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? No way. Not even 7. xD 9. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back? I have 0 exes. 10. On your "lazy days" what would you be doing? Playing video games or wasting time on the internet or listening to music or a combination of the three. 11. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? The friend I made like... last year, but have known forever. 12. Most recent movie you have watched in theatres? The fourth Indiana Jones. 13. Who was the last person to slap your butt? Nobody. 14. Favorite toy as a child? My stuffed Bucky Badger. 15. Do you own a pair of Converse? I have two pairs. One has signatures on it from a billion people, the emo kid song lyrics ["if you were nonconforming too you'd look just like me"], and orange laces. The other is pretty new, has green laces, and has a faded drawing of Godzilla on the right shoe. 17. Do you eat cookie dough? I ADORE cookie dough. 18. Have you ever kicked a vending machine? Yup. It kind of hurt. 19. When's the last time you had gummy bears? Uh. Forever ago. But last weekend I had gummy worms... 20. What color are your bedsheets? Yellow. :) 21. Do people consider you smart? Yeah, and I don't know why. 22. What temperature is it outside right now? Uh, really hot. 23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? YES. 24. Could you live without a computer? I would like EXPLODE. 25. Do you have an iPod? Yeah. 26. What movie do you know every line to? El Dorado? xD 27. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Like Tuesday. 28. Last person you hugged? Uhm. My sister. 29. Had a long distance relationship? Nope. Well. If you count family relationships... 30. Who was the last person you held hands with? I have no idea. 31. At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender? Um. I "dated" a kid in preschool, but I didn't actually like a guy until fifth grade. 32. Do you know someone who likes you? Not that I'm aware of? 33. How do you handle a rainy day? I love rainy days. 34. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? No. 35. Are you cold? Nope. 36. Do you have a lot to learn? Of course. 37. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? Yeah, multiple times. 39. Are you a patient person? Never. 40. Are you an impatient person? Very. 41. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? I like them both. Mostly because I don't really know the difference at the moment. Like, I know they're different companies whatever, but I don't know what's Disney and what's Warner Brothers. 42. When do you feel your life energy is the strongest? ...What? 43. Are you with someone right now? Nope. 44. Next time you'll take a shower? I should shower before I go the movies with my friend, but I'm oh-so-lazy. :) 45. Is anyone on your bad side now? Nope. 46. What jewelry are you wearing? I have a watch on... I wish I had my duct tape bracelets... 47. Who's your favorite singers/band? Uhm. That's insanely difficult. It changes ALL the time. At the moment, probably, You, Me, and Everyone We Know. =D 48. Next kiss? Because I know that. =/ 49. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? Nope, and I never will. 50. How do people spell your name? Uh. Incorrectly. 51. Would you wear your boyfriends/girlfriends clothes? Uh. What kind of a question is that? xD 52. Hows your life going as of right now? Boring and mostly empty. 53. Do you think you're ugly? Sometimes. 54. How's your heart? Heavy. 55. Last line of a song you heard? "I'm still not dead. Don't bury me yet." 56. What are you doing tomorrow? Uh. I have no idea. :D I'd love to go to the zoo. 57.Can you honestly say your happy with who you are? Nope. 58. Is it cute when a boy calls you babe? Most of the time, no. 60. Will you keep your last name when you get married? No. 61. Would you rather be drunk or high? Neither. If I had to choose, drunk. 62. When is the last time you left your house? This morning for breakfast at Sonic. 63. Look through the 2 nearest windows what do you see? I only have one window and the blinds are down. 64. Who is someone you have drifted from? Two of my really good friends that I haven't talked to in forever, 'cause they go to a different school. Texting isn't the same. 65. Whose the last person you felt stalked by? Uh. This junior [now senior...] that shows up EVERYWHERE. 66. Do you like anyone? Yeah, unfortunately. 67. Do they know? Uh. No. Nobody does. I hope. 69. Do you have a dishwasher? Yeah. 70. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? I don't think so. 71. Would you survive in prison? I - probably not. 72. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you? YES! I adore road trips. :) 73. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? Uh. I've eaten paper off ice cream cones. When I was little, I ate dog food and napkins to get more fiber. Thanks, Mom, for telling me paper had fiber in it. 74. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? NO. 75. Who is number 1 on your top friends? I don't have that. 76. What can you not wait to do? Nothing. 77. Do you know anyone with the same name as you? Nope. At least not spelled the same. My name's weird. 78. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Um. 2 pairs of Converse, 2 pairs of Vans, 2 pairs of flip flops, 2 pairs of school shoes, 1 pair of nice shoes, 2 pairs of tennis shoes. So. 11? 79. Whats the last thing you ate & why? Kettle corn. Because I had a bad taste in my mouth and I was kind of hungry. 80. Are you a friendly person? I try to be. 82. Have you kissed anyone with a name that starts with an "A"? Nope. 83. What's the worst thing someone can do to you? I don't know. Betray me, probably. 84. What's your middle name? Kellogg. Don't ask. 85. Where is your cell phone? On my dresser, like two feet away from me. 86. How are you sitting? I'm not sitting. :D I'm lying on my bed on my stomach. 87. What brand is your shirt right now? Uh. It's from Hot Topic. 88. Ever been to Georgia? Yes. 89. Do you flirt a lot? I - I don't know. I can never tell when I'm flirting. So. 90. What do you call your parents? Mom, Steve, Dad [sometimes Daddy...], Cindy. 91. What irritates you most on the internet? The stupid really immature kids on YouTube. 93. What are your plans for the future? I don't have any. 94. Do you fall for boys very easy? Not at all. But once I like somebody, I like them for like six months. 95. Do you think your a good girlfriend/boyfriend? I don't know. You used the wrong you're, by the way... 96. What are you listening too right now? I Can't Deny by 33 Miles. It's kind of gross. I stole this from Schlechter Penguin, 'cause I'm seriously bored and surveythings entertain me. Uh. Yeah.

Country is the only genre that can make me cry with sad songs. I need a hobby. Badly. I got sick of all the hobbies I've had. Drawing, writing, photo, guitar, video... Everything. I don't like Brad Paisley. He's a jerk. =(