im just sitting in my room with a needle in my arm, not really but i love that song well............. my life is pretty boring at the moment but i only have 2 exams left maths n indo and 4 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! holidays r soon i love holidays i feel pretty good at the moment, do favours for friends, like letting them cheat off my entire exam, hmmm, i hope shaun does do well, all that sneaky effort GO SHAUN!! i would never be that talented but my stalker is annoying me yet again today in sose i was asleep and when i woke up n his hand was up my skirt geez, talk about taking advantage BUT i can now hold a civil converation with him with out wanting 2 rip his head off, i shall just plot his murder in cold blood but good things. happy thoughts: im seeing kieran this wkeend YAY shld b fun but my mum doesnt no so ill have to be careful she hates me lying to her but then again she wouldnt let me go aout with him so but alls fair in love and war plus i got for blood and empire, dont u love best friends little bros that are computer nerds?? edees awesome, now a ultimate frsibee state champ yeah thats right ultimate frisbee how uncool argghhhhhhhh my feet stink stupid volleyball and 38 degree days ;( oh welll last games tomorrow n iv got heaps better same with netball but i think i broke some girls jaw last night. it was an accident, she was shorter than me (amaazing that) n she was trying to knock the ball out from behind me and i moved my shoulder and wacked her in the jaw the crunch that happened wasnt good but theres a crazy storm on at the moment lighting thunder lots of wind but no rain stupid global warming i blame john howards eyebrows n the fact he wouldnt sign kyoto well that was really much ado about nothing (i love the version with emma thompson???) sayonara sweethearts take care i will always love you no matter what n soz for the shit spelling

as you can tell im lsitening to yellowcard WHOOO they are awesome hmph, songmeanings wouldnt let me post that whole thing soo heres the rest: arrgh m6y computer is screwing up hang on ill try n add it again: it isnt working ok ill just write it u know my stalker, hes on to me agin this time $45 for a blow job and $125 for a screw i dont think i will but the moneys tempting....... im so pov that i will even consider it but then again im not a slut and even me has standards It looks like i get to see keiran on the weekend, yay cant wait maybe he'll even talk to me!!!!! i would be lucky hes got the msn but sucks at actually convos, i may have to teach him for i am cerewet sekali, for all you indo studiers i love indo arggh computer wont copy n paste ;( oh well if you can understand this i really admire you but get your ass off the komputer its a lovely day vampire is only sexy too some (Like me, but im crazy) anywhooo i love you really hope your doing well

Yay!!!!!!! Pagent was on Friday. Awesomely beautiful fireworks, we were lying on the grass and they were sooooo pretty. I got my knife bak!!! Major yay!!! Haven’t used it though. 22 days till Christmas YAY people can get together to be bitter n twisted n hate each other n get crap pressies that no one likes, especially me(not get bitter, getting crap pressies). Anyway pagent I got a chance to meet keiran!!!! Hes really hot But doesn’t talk;( Sweet though and right height, not usually my type blond withj blue eyes but Hey, hes hot I’m not asking another guy out though He can do it I know he likes me Plus cant b screwed “I lie, not to conceal the truth but to avoid the explanation.” Awesome quote From English exam Which I think I failed but it was a cool comprehension. Holidays soon Only 6 days left of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holidays YAY victor harbor n lots of fudge Plus kireans going to middleton woot Beach n guys, sounds like fun I tripped I fell I lost everything My hope My faith In what the future brings What the hell?????????? Is that song??? Its by ra isn’t it? Is it obstructed view???? Im not gonna b at victor when kireans there Oh well we’ll go ice skating??? I know that he wants to but I doubt my nazi mum will let me go, oh well maybe some other time. English is def. The most boring subject in the world. Plus we have revision for all our subjects at the moment, arghhhh, stupid exams. I don’t have any today though. YAY It weird coz its summer but its really cold, lik 20 degress, whoich is weird coz summer hear is supposed to be really hot. Stupid global warming, I blame john howard. I think im crazy, I keep on hearing people saying my name but they aren’t really there, oh dear. Maybe I’m just paranoid? I feel like fudge, yummy caramel or mint fudge. My boredom is so extreme that im going to keep on writing this. The poet Michael luenig is a genius, Let it go. Let it out. Let it all unravel. Let it free and it can be A path on which to travel. Isn’t that cool??? Only ten minutes until lunch, but time will drag on forever as always ;( Who saved the queen???? Was it god or the sex pistols? Will we ever know, indeed has the queen even been saved? Yeah, my awesome attempt at being philosophical. No wonder I don’t do it at school.

yay ive felt god for so long its the pagent tonght!!!! i really think im better this time plus i got my knife back!!! love you all whover you are wherever you are

today was the best bludge day. 5 lessons of martial arts, food and japanese film clips yeah it was a language day BLUDGE!!!! then i had sose n art, does anyone ever do work in those subjects???? but on a slightly sour note my stalker stole my knife and he put me on a 'good behavoiur bond' i mean Fuck, thats stupid i have to not beg for knife not cry not be unfriendly like him cant change the stupid motherfuking bond cant slap cant cut cant hit cant hit him cant kick him no cutting him no stabbing him no swearing, SHIT, thats impossible no blasphemy (and im the christian????) no suicide attempts. what was he thinking, trying to make my life hell or wat, plus stupid stalker has a flick knife in his bag fucking hypocrite but my friend gave me a new one, she said i shouldnt listen to him (she doesnt no i cut) and then i was playing nervous with some dickhead (stupid game that) and now he thinks theres something it was just a game is it my fault i dont get nervous????? but its sterling pageant on Fri yay!!!! hot guys!!! were getting a rebound guy for my friend(dont know if ive already said that), YAY will be fun tolly do have a nice day thanks TriggerHappyJim for your interesting argument, tho it wasnt to argumentative coz i agree hmmm anyway back to schoolwork, as if id do that when i could be writing random carp on here good bye god luck let the sun shine

oh, god im so bored i had the wierdest dream last night, something about my church being the new auschwitz and my creepy stalker ex being hitler, it was wierd. i remember piles of fur coats and big wooly jumpers to and cotton dresses for little girls. i said it was weird. i hate the fact that actually im good at writing but on here, it comes out bad, no where near as eloquently as in my head, jsut whiny and spoilt. its silly. i think im past the point of feeling, i have achieved numbness a feeing of nothing but existence god, 3 entries in one day i must be bored someone send me interesting philosophical arguments, thetoothfairyismyuncle@hotmail.com i hate boredom, i love smashing pumkins, crazy music crazy love love you

'although we have no obligation to stay alive on broken backs we beg for mercy we will survive' behind closed doors and if u dont no who its by im worried , lol its so true, its not that i wanna die some of the time i do but more often than not is just that i want to cease to exist to stop being myself to be a completely different person its stupid coz the only way i can think to do that is to kill myself but then id only be in heaven or wherever we go, id still be me so i just hang on, grasping onto life and looking for beauty i found some this morning, in church, there were only about 20 of us but the sound of the singing was beautiful, so bare and passionate and you could tell everyone belieed it good old fashioned hyms, not stupid hillsong stuff(sorry if u like it, but no reads these so wat does it matter) it was so beautiful n i count help thinking this is why i stick around

ladies and gentlemen australia has voted and howard is out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! need i say more???? go greens!!!!! YAY!!!!! no more crazy eyebrows

I THINK I HAVE BIPOLAR :) :(

go darren hanlon!!!! i love that song ive just had the mst awesome day in like forever..... it was soooo good i got 100% in my indonesian oral exam WOOT im soo pleased about it plus i didnt cut n there was some other reason but i cant remember it and im inlove!!!!! lets call him HABIB (not his real name but, it sounds cool he is soo hot, well i think so he has really nice olive skin, black hair and is cuddly, (i love squishy guys!!!) but the best thing is he has this wicked smile that lights up his whole face n hes really nice i was freezing at school (ok it was 25c) but i thought it was cold n he just comes up an puts his arm around me to warm me up. hes also a gun at volley ball YAY!!! i love volleyball but really sad my friend left to go to darwin today :( its only for a year but im gonna miss him soooo much n hes having a party tonight but mum wont let me go (sobs) oh well the beatles got it right LOVE IS ALL YOU NEED