yea today i went to the store and got a dress, pants, make up, 2 pairs of shoes and i think thats it. i was on the phone with tiff for like EVER today, that was fun. she just told me that R likes me...ummm yea not so good cuz i dont like him soo poop. tomorrow me and tiff are goin swimmin/tannnin and then to see that new nancy drew movie, lol my secret obsession (i have all the computer games shhhh dont tell ;) ) anyways im supppperrrr excited for tomorrow but imma gooo =] peace love NANCY DREW

yea so i got back today and we drove to my cuzins (a) house cuz he graduated and hes goin to college. that makes every single one of my cuzins on my dads side graduated and in college or out of it. wow. depressing. my favorite part of my family gone, just like that. all i could think about driving home tonight was where did the time go? why didnt i cherish more? as cliche as that sounds. i feel like someone died. it hurts soo bad to know that its over. i remember the times when i would go over to their (a, b, t's) house and we'd go swimming, jump on the trampoline, have genuine fun. i remember when a would cry cuz t would attack him. now their all grown up, all have girlfriends, all have lives. while im here depressed on all the time lost and time ill never have with them again. i barely saw them when they were in high school. now that their all in college, one of which is going to a state far far away not this year but next for school. i cant explain the feeling. it hurts on a lighter note....i reallly wanna live up the summer and just let go and lose it all. *fingers crossed* peace love BROKEN.HEARTED

alright so heres the deal Cartel--Chroma Say Anything Else Honestly Runaway Matter of Time (ending links into... Burn This City (piano solo at end links into... Save Us Luckie St Settle Down If I Fail (drum beats at end link into... Minstrel's Prayer (guitar solo at end links into... Q (little ending party leads into... A (sums up whole cd ALSO, say anything starts with a record being started like yea, and A ends up with the same sound, most likely, taking the record off) WOW im super excited about this find (although people prolly figured it out way b4 me lol ) AND ANOTHER ONE Cartel--Ransom EP i think it tells a story of a relationship Luckie St, having fun, meeting a girl Write This Down, telling a girl you care for her Hey Don't Stop, loving a girl, getting to know City Never Sleeps, being on top of the world, so to say, with this girl Last Chance, the girl is starting to screw things up and not being who he thought she was initially The Ransom, getting over by retalliating(sp?) because the girl most likely cheated on him All The Way, over the breakup now, letting the girl know that she was a disappointment i love how cartel can tell stories as intricate as these with their music what a fucking awesome band.

yesterday i layed out for three hourse cuz we had ahhhmazing weather. i got my first tanline, except my back got screwed up cuz of the sunscreen and the spots i missed....ooops lol. im laying out today too cuz the weathers a lil cooler but still as sunny as yesterday. im leaving for vacation tomorrow after my last day of school (yea one more day but no exams or tests or anything so im not counting it) im a lil bummedd cuz im missing this huge ass party (it will prolly be lame tho cuz this persons mom is kinda psycho and theres always too many parents watching us and all that...im just like uhh huuullllooooo were a little bit older than this dont ya think?) but w.e also i dont have a tv where im going, or a computer, only my pod and yeaa thats it. band in a bubble =[ im missing the last day of that too. i give them so much props you guys for going in there, their all so stressed and sick of everything but yet their sticking it out. way to go, my love goes out to them. i cant wait till i come back from vacation to hang out with my friends and officially start summer ohhh seven =] i cant wait cuz this summer im seeing p!atd, gym class heroes, and academy is, and then im goin to warped tour. im gonna die but fuck it, im so over caring what other ppl think, so for those of you who have a problem with it fuck. all. of. you. mhm thanks =] so i hope all of you have a great summer as i know i will make sure i do, please go online and watch band in a bubble for me =[ cuz i will be isolated for 5 days far away from here, ill be like living in the stone ages. k well have fun everyone =] peace love TAN

i can not believe i am finally done with school. its like blowing my mind right now. i had fun yesterday =] i went over to tiffys house and we went to her neighbors and then to the store to get frosting and chocolate. it was good. then i ate dinner there and then i left later. now im home COMPLETELY alone, no siblings or nothing for 2 hrs and 25 min, im SOOOOO very happy right this second. im leaving for vacation on monday night so i wont be posting till next saturday night or sunday not sure. im still debating whether i should go to school monday tho...im kinda thinkin i should just to say goodbye to this really cool teacher who's leaving our school to go to school for himself. so i prolly will. im in search of new music!! i like cartel, boys like girls, cute is what we aim for, all time low, amber pacific, academy is, NOO scream tho. please if you all can, contact me in some way with new music, im completely desperate peace love NEW SOUND

yea one day down one to go. nervous as hell but eff it soo i think mr r might be coming over??? idk but i cant tell if he was serious or not and well i kinda dont want him here cuz ill just be an idiot but yeaa idk idk today was pretty alright...i dunno y but outside for choir today i had my pod in and i was just running around singing, im never like that lol. i have no clue anyways thats about it for today peace love RANSOM

suppppeeeerrr great. i hung out with this kid, his name will be m, and hes like super cool, i really like him....maybe too much? havent decided yet. and then on the bus ride home i really bonded with some cool guys and we wer like talking about like sweet stuff idk i just didnt want the ride to end cuz it was soo fun. i really like them a lot and im sad for summer to come, hard to believe peace love RELATIONSHIPS

my bestie came over today to help me pick out a swimsuit and clothes for sixflags tomorrow =] yipee. i picked the brown polka dot one. so yea should be super fun tomorrow. all my girls n i are goin to starbucks and mcdonalds in the morning. double plus. so ive been studying for exams a lot lately and its getting really stressful trying to sit down and focus when i know i cant. but im getting through it piece by piece. theres a really important matter that i would like to express my opinion towards. it seems a few of my friends are planning ahead and making horrible decisions for what their future will be. please, whatver you do, have standards for yoursel, have morals. selfrespect, seriously, selfrespect, is all it comes down to. how do you want to treat you and your body? do you want to be respected by others? start by respecting yourself. dont give into things other people are doing. please please please be your own person. dont follow other people. it scares me to know that i maybe one of few who feels strongly about this matter but its just getting too ridiculous and i cant take it anymore, i need to speak out, if only here. i have many standards and morals that i follow and they are so important and precious to me. i wish the same for all of you. one of my favorite quotes is:: "if you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything" it is so true in the sense that if you don't set limits, boundaries, morals, standards, you tend to take after other people. respect youself, please. i guess thats all i really have to say peace love SELFRESPECT

so last night i went to my friends bday party, just like a bonfire and wut not. super fun...we watched hannibal rising, kinda weird i thought. ne ways i had fun. i have a confirmation party to go to today only for like 1 hr n 30 min tho cuz i have to study for exams MY LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL..can yall believe it?? so all i have to do is get through 3 exams, 2 tests and im done...HELL YEA tuesday im goin to six flags with my school thats gonna be SOOO amazingly funn....whuddup hott guys?!?!? yea i think so so after sschool gets out im leaving for a vacation up north for like a week with my dad and brother, then im driving back and that night im going to my cuzin a's grad party AHHHHHH with my other cuzin lll im sooooo pumped cuz yea all his friends plus me and miss l....theres bound to be some trouble.. hell yea ne ways ill have to do is kick into overdrive for this next week... lots of sleepless nights, long ass days, killer tests. this week seems longer than this whole school year. but imm gonna do it and im gonna finish it well. peace love SUMMER OHHH SEVEN

yeaa the formal was pretty amazing... i won 10 dollars, danced a lot, chilled with friends (no guy; tear) but the dj was completey dumb, he was like effing yelling at us. w.e that guy was booed out of there haha lol. ne ways the dance was fun i had a cute dress, hair, shoes, everything. i went to a party after, pretty lame if u ask me, n then i opted out of another one after...just because, i guess i like being alone, getting time to think, catching up with my music, being on the computer =] wow i ttly didnt notice its after 12 lol. so yeaaa, tonight, i really wished i could fall upon love, just for once. id like to be the girl that gets the attention that i crave. just once. wishful thinking peace love PASSION