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  • i started looking for a warning sign.

    by cellardoor08 on July 08, 2008
    Wanna have kids before you're 30? possibly. Last item you bought for yourself: taco bell. Four things you did today? showered. took out the garbage. ate at taco bell. took a walk. Do you have anything hanging from your rearview mirror? no. What color are your toenails? normal color. Last person you talked to on the phone? um. no idea. Traveled to Europe? nope. What song is stuck in your head? warning sign- coldplay. Did anybody ever call you beautiful?: yes. What’s the last thing you said to someone & to whom? these blueberries kinda suck, oh well. to my mom. Name something you have to do tomorrow? probably clean. ouch. What CD is currently in your CD player? none. What did you do yesterday? woke up. went to bucks. went to britt's grandmas, went to my house, watched road trip, went to marq, then home. Where was the last place you went out to eat? taco bell. What is more essential - a pretty face or a great body? a pretty face. What is the value of all the jewelry on you? i don't wear jewelry. Where did your last hug take place? um. becky gave me one earlier. in lindsays car. Who was the last person you had in your room? hmmm. lindsay. Who was the last band you saw live? eh, idk. How many songs are on your iTunes? too many. When was the last time you purchased something over $500? HAHA. i don't know. Any historical figures that you envy? yesss, i envy them for their courage to know when they needed a change. today, we're a lot quieter. Describe what you're wearing in detail? gray skirt, blue undies, black bra, gray tank-top. What brand of digital camera do you own? sony. Who was the last person to sleep over at your house? hmm. probably britt. How often do you tan, if you do at all? i lay out in the sun. i don't do tanning beds. What was the last CD you purchased? um. long time ago, the almost. Who was the last person you rode in a car with? lindsay. If you have any pets, were they adopted from the humane society? my cat. Do you like home design, like picking out paint colors and furniture? eh, not really. i'm not picky at all. Do you have any stains on your shirt currently? eh, probably. Have you ever said "Fergalicious", but changed it to your name instead?um. no. Do you have a pool in your back yard? haha. in the big backyard what is mine, no. Do you wear mascara? sometimes, not often though. Ever been in a movie? no. Do you drink alcohol on New Year's Eve? i didn't last new years. but i think it would've been better if i would've been drunk. i hated new years. Do you wear rings? no. Do you wear baseball caps? nope.
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  • life is too short and you're almost dead.

    by cellardoor08 on July 08, 2008
    How did you feel when you woke up today? exhausted. i reallyyy wanted to go back to sleep. kiss on the first date? it happens. i might. would you ever donate blood? yes, i would. have you ever driven without a license? haha. always. have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? i doo. do you want someone dead? kinda. Do you wish someone was with you right now? no. Where did you buy the shirt you are wearing? target. Is someone on your mind right now? nah. Have you ever been alone in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex? yes. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? no. What are you listening to? hands down-dashboard confessional. When was the last time you cried? awhile ago. Do you believe in love? i try. Do you miss anyone? kinda,yeah. Do you curse alot? yeap. Where is the person you have feelings for right now? work. Have you ever drank with your number one? like, once. Are you too forgiving? no. i hardly forgive. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex? yepp. Are you closer to your mother or father? mother. Who would you like to spend your nights with? britt. mom. or renee. or myself. If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you? no, i wouldn't. i'm extremelyyyy happy. Do you want someone you can't have? nope. When did you last talk to your brother or sister? longggg time ago. idc. What was the first thing you thought this morning? i wanna go back to sleep damn. How is your heart lately? feeling fine. Do you need to say anything to someone? kinda, yeah. What were you doing at 7:00am? sleeping, duhh. Have you ever cried while in the shower? yes. Do you drink iced tea? yes, yes, yes. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste? of course. What are you doing tonight? probably with britt. Where do you store your money? wallet. What are or were you doing at 4:00 this afternoon? i don't know. home.
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  • just talk to me baby.

    by cellardoor08 on July 08, 2008
    - If you were at a reasonable age, would you prefer a baby girl or boy? a baby boy, for sure. a baby jack. - Are you guilty of giving someone the finger while driving? haha, yeah. - Do you like Redbull? nah, not really. i'll drink it though if it's there. - Do you drink regular or diet sodas? i prefer diet, actually. but i'm not picky. - Would you rather eat pizza cold or hot? hot. - What are you doing tomorrow? uh. no idea. - Would you ever be in a "Girls Gone Wild" tape? haha. no. - Would you rather date someone with a British accent or an Irish accent? OH, that is so tough, but british, i don't really understand irish accents. - Where is the biggest scar on your body? appendix. - Are you trying to avoid something by filling surveys out? kinda. - Have you ever had fake nails? haha. no. -What are you doing on Friday? probably with britt. - How many times have you been sent to the principal's office this year? zero. - Last person that called you? um. missy, maybe. - Last person to IM you? renee:] - Does everyone deserve a second chance? not everyone. - Do you plan on going to college? yessir. - Last time you had pizza? hmm yesterday. - When is the last time you wore a dress? hm. for graduation. - Do you have any friends from other states? yes. - Have you ever dressed like a whore to get a guy's attention? haha. no. - How many belts do you own? a few. i never use them though. - Do you blow dry your hair? no. that damages my hair SO bad. - What color is the carpet in the room you're in? cranberry. - Last restaurant you went to? bucks. - Do you like school? kinda. - Where is the next vacation you are going on? idk. - Do you believe in karma? yes. - How many days until your next birthday? i don't count. i don't like my birthday. - Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace? lindsey howe. - Whose bed did you sleep in last night? my own. - What was the last thing you ate? um. candy. i think. - Ever go camping? of course. - Ever kissed anyone 20 or older? yes. - What are you listening to? 'till we ain't strangers anymore. - Is there any places you'd like to visit? of course. - have you held hands with anyone today? nope. - Do you like winter? i hate it. - Do you like summer? love it. - Do you regret anything? no. - Do you like to cuddle? love, love, love it. - Where is your number one person on your friends list? at home, of course. - Honestly, what's on your mind right now? my throat hurts. - Do you want to see someone this very minute? nah. - Who do you not get along with? some people. idc. - Do you think you're approachable? yes. - Last movie you watched? balls of fury. - What are your plans for the weekend? harry potter scene it! :] - How late did you stay up last night? not late. like, midnight. - Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you and meant it? yesss. - Something interesting happen lately? of course. - Have you ever injected a drug? not myself. - When was the last time you saw your father? may 30. - What do you think of your number 3 on your top friends? i LOVE LOVE LOVE her. - What is bothering you right now? my messy place. and my messy self. - Where is the last place you went? marq. - Where is your boyfriend? at work.
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  • time to walk before i run.

    by cellardoor08 on July 05, 2008
    Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear? of course. duh. Honestly, what color is the shirt you're wearing now? blue. Honestly, what's on your mind? my plans for later. Honestly, what made you last cry? myself. for making everything so freaking complicated. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time? music. and these surveys help me clear my mind. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? kinda. no. Honestly, do you have deep secrets? yeah. Honestly do you like someone? yes=) Honestly, what do you want right now? to see my friends. i miss them. Honestly, have you ever made anyone cry? yes. Honestly, who was the last person you imed? ray. Honestly, what is your greatest fear? losing my mom. Honestly, if you could go back 3 months and change something would you? maybe. but no, because things wouldn't be the same. i needed to make that mistake. Honestly, is there anyone who doesn't like you? haha. probably. idc. Honestly, are you happier single or in a relationship? i'm happy either way. probably single though. but i'm really happy now. Honestly, what were you doing at midnight last night? at jeremeys. Honestly, how late did you stay up last night and why? like 2ish. it's fourth of july. duh. Honestly, have you ever flirted with a friends crush? yes. Honestly, when was the last time you ate a homegrown tomato? i do not like tomatos. so never. Honestly, have you ever ordered from an infomercial? nope. Honestly, do you hate the last girl you were talking to? no. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? no. Honestly when was the last time you took a nap? longg time ago. Honestly, who was the last person you talked to on the phone? renee or jane, i think. Honestly, would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris? paris, by far. Are you listening to music right now? yes. Ever kissed a blonde haired blue eyed person? yeah. Apple juice or Hollister gift card? apple juice, haha. i'm not a fan of hollister. What’s the worst way to say i love you back? when a person doesn't mean it and you can tell. Are you afraid of roller coasters? yes. Honestly, have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J? yeah. Where is your mom right now? living room. What do you currently hear right now? music and tv in the living room. What is your current annoyance? my legs. Look outside, how's the weather? getting beautiful. What are you wearing right now? shorts and HUGE shirt. perfect. Did you talk to anybody random yesterday? yupp. How long is your hair? shoulderlength. When was the last time you laughed really hard? With who? yesterday. lots of ppl. What are you looking forward to in the next month? MOVING. Who was the last person to call you while you sat and watched it ring? uh. dana. Any plans for today? yepp=]
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  • feeling like i have no release.

    by cellardoor08 on July 05, 2008
    1) How do you think your last ex deserves to die? he doesn't deserve to die. :] he's a nice guy. 2) List three words to describe your mother. amazing. caring. considerate. 3) When & how did you meet your best friend? seventh grade. i went to talk to her. she's shy. 4) Would you date someone you "met" on MySpace? HAHA. no. that's dumb. meet someone in real life, people. 5) What do you think of internet dating? dumb. 6) What was the last mistake you made? um. i don't really know. 7) What actor/actress would you go gay/lesbian for and why? angelina jolie. no explanation needed. 8) Have you ever thought you were crazy? always. 9) Have you ever seen a therapist? no. tried. doesn't work. 10) How do you feel about antidepressants? if it works for people, use it. just be careful. 11) When was the last time you saw your dad? may 30. 12) Would you rather have loved and lost, or never have loved at all? never loved at all. i'm better at forgetting. 13) What advice would you give to your ex's new love interest? don't be shy. tell him straightfoward. or he'll never do anything. 14) What make, model, and color was your first car? i never had a first car. 15) Is the sun shining? YES=) i want to leave my house now. 16) What are your plans for later? food fest. then later, probably britts. 17) Have you ever tried to make yourself pass out? i believe not. but i might've, just because i thought it'd make things better. 18) Did you have any dreams last night? maybe. i don't remember. 19) Do you drink coffee on a regular basis? no. 20) Are you easily amused? sometimes. 21) When is the last time you got hit on? HAHA. 22) The last person to hold my hand was: britt, obviously:] 23) Have you ever played real golf? mmm. no. 24) Have you ever had a crush on someone much younger/older than you? duh. 25) Do you have any odd deformities? yes. 26) What was your biggest dating age gap? like 10 years or so. 27) Have you ever had sex in a moving vehicle? haha. no. 28) What is the best meal you know how to cook? probablyyyy eggs. i make an awesome breakfast. 29) What is the blanket you sleep with like? lots of holes and tears. but i love it. it's still super comfortable. 30) Whens the last time you ate a cupcake? week ago, maybe. 31) What are you excited for? to see my friends today, of course. 32) Have you had to battle for your man? i shouldn't have to. 33) If you could do something and know you'd never get caught or punished, what would it be? steal money from the bank. 34) What brand of shampoo is in your shower? bath and body works. dove. suave. herbal essences, yeah, i have a lot. 35) Next person to lay in your bed? probably britt, i'm thinking. 36) What are you listening to? korn. 37) Last photo you took? longgg time ago. 38) How would you describe your significant other? he stresses out lots. i wish he would relax. 39) Do your dreams haunt you? sometimes. 40) Have you ever had an anxiety attack? yes. 41) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you slept in a bed with? britt.
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  • i'm sorry it took me so long.

    by cellardoor08 on July 03, 2008
    1) Are you really ready for 100 questions? possbily. 2) Was your last real relationship a mistake? not a mistake. just realized what i wanted in a relationship more. he's a great guy. he's a great friend, just not a good boyfriend. 3) Do you believe in God? i don't really know. i'm leaning to more of a yes. 4) Who did you last say i love you to? my mother. 5) Do you regret it? no way. 6) Have you ever been depressed? pffttt, yeah. 7) Have a best friend? of course. 8) Are you a boy or girl? i'm a woman. 9) What is your relationship status? in a relationship
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  • i'm holding on to something, and i don't know why.

    by cellardoor08 on July 03, 2008
    Have you made out with anyone in the last 2 weeks? yupp. Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? yes. it'd be pretty gross if i didn't. Has a boy ever called you babe/baby? yes, and i don't like it. say my name. Are your toe nails painted pink? no. Are you in love with a boy? yes=) Do you have more than 1 best friend? yes. Has someone ever called you beautiful? yes. Will you be in a relationship in 4 months? maybe. i don't really know. i'm more of a day-to-day person. Are you wearing short shorts? haha, no. Is your bra pink? nope. Ever had a boy best friend? i dooo. Are you tan? kinda. Do you enjoy wearing dresses? sometimes. Are you a slut? NO. and who would admit to that? Do you straighten your hair often? no. Is your best friend the funniest person you know? my best friend is the best person i know. Have you ever kissed the same sex? hah. Are you waiting for someone? no. Last MySpace message you received? from vanessa. whatever. Does anyone hate you? idk. idc. What are you up to this weekend? i don't really know. Are you happy with life? kinda. Who did you spend most of your time with last night? myself. i wanted to be alone. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? not everyone. Did you cry today? yes. gaaaaaaah. Are you a jealous person? nope. Do you like to make the first move? no, i do not. Do you miss anyone? kinda. Are you smart? i think so. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? no. Kiss with eyes open or closed? closed, always. What's most stressing right now? AH. parents. Do you swallow gum when you're done with it? yes. Do you like messages or comments better? comments. What are you drinking? water. What would you do if you had a time machine? not use it. but be extremely tempted. Whose car did you last drive in? missys. Last non relative you hugged? britt.
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  • but i give in to the cold caress of 2am.

    by cellardoor08 on July 03, 2008
    1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? yes, yes, yes. 2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress? short party dress, for sure. i hate big poofy dresses. 3. What would you do if you received a long love letter? i would read it over and over again. laugh, cry, every emotion. 4. Group dates or single dates? either. doesn't really matter to me. both are fun. 5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends? YES. 6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend? haha. nope. 7. Is your hair up or down today? down. i'll probably put it up later though. the humidity lately is making my hair poofy. ick. 8. Do you straighten your hair? not anymore. it's too hot to straighten my hair. ugh. 9. Favorite mascara? lash exact. that stuff is amazing. 10. Do you get your nails done? hellll. no. i bite my nails. gross, but whatever. 11. Small or large purses? i would love to have a small purse. but i carry to much shit around. 12. In your purse, what are your must haves? chapstick.wallet.key. 13. Jeans or sweats? sweats. always. 14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable? jeans are uncomfortable. and shoes are uncomfortable fora reason. 15. Do you text message a lot? i don't at all. 16. What would you do if you got pregnant? cry and probably get an abortion. 17. What’s your favorite color? blue. 18. Heels or flats? well, i think i look sucky in flats, so heels. 19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? i cry during every kind of movie. i cried during 1408. haha. 20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on? i do all the time. 21. Walmart or Target? target. for sure. 22. Do you wear collared shirts? hellz, no. 23. Do you like preppy boys? no, i really don't. 24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!? no. i think chapstick is the best! 25. Do you own any big sunglasses? i believe not. 26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? about ten minutes. 27. Do you like to wear band-aids? no. i really don't. 28. Do you like skater boys? no. 29. Do you often wish there was something you could change? YES. i stive to have control. but i know i cannot control everything. i need to let go. 30. Gold or silver? well. gold. but i think silver looks better. 31. Do you like to receive flowers? i just did =) and i loved it. 32. Do you like surfer boys? well, sometimes. 33. Do you dress up for the holidays? haha, no. 34. Do you like to wear dresses? sometimes. 35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you? like a 357039852 36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy? yepp. 37. Would you date a guy shorter than you? no. 38. Do you like to hold hands? yes. 39. What is the youngest you would date? um. about 18 or 19. i really couldn't date someone younger than me. 40. What is the oldest you would date? prettyyy old. like 30, probably. kinda gross, but true. 41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy? their eyes, usually. 42. Is it hott when guys sweat? not really, no. 43. What is the best feature in a guy? their sense of humor. if a guy can make me laugh, i'm in. 44. Do you like making eye contact? it's awkward sometimes. but i love it. it means they care. 46. Would you kill for chocolate? haha. no. 47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? haha. no. hellz, no. 48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping? like, a 2. i get pissed off easily when stuff doesn't fit right. 49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? if i missed lost, then yeah! sayyyyyyyyyid. 50. Do you yell a lot? yes, i tend to. 51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work? if i can, then yeah. 52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? um. no. it's not worth it. be yourself. 53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? haha. NO. 54. What makeup could you not live w/ out? i don't really wear makeup. but i couldn't live w/o chapstick. 55. Do you fall in love easily? no. 56. Do you have cramps? not now, no. but on my period, i get the WORST cramps ever. 57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever? yes, i really think i do. i have the best friends ever.
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  • if only i'd been thinking at all.

    by cellardoor08 on July 03, 2008
    How do you think your latest ex feels about you? haha. sometimes, he really hates me. but othertimes, he can't. we use to be best friends. he doesn't talk to me much anymore. it use to bother me a lot, but it's his choice, not mine. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor? yes. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with J, who? when i was a little. Who's car were you last in? missy's new car. it's nice. What were you doing at midnight last night? watching waitress. Ever told someone you loved them and meant it? i think so. What was the first thing you did this morning? i heard the damn phone ring. don't call before noon. What are you looking forward to? tomorrow. Do you miss someone in this moment? kinda,yeah. Have you ever been skinny dipping? yes. Who was the last person who held your hand? i think my mom did. i was feeling pretty shitty last night. Do you like someone? i love someone. Have any obsessions? with silky blankets, yes. Have you ever had a surprise birthday party? no, but i gave one. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong? sometimes, yeah. What's your favorite season? summer. or spring/fall. What is the name of your sibling's best friend? i don't know her name. i don't care. Have you had the best night of your life? possibly. i'm still waiting. Can you handle the truth? i try to. it's hard, but i get over it. Last person you were in the car with besides your family? missy, renee, becky, kelsey. How did you get your scars? i fell on ice, appendix, someone scratched me, etc. i have a lot of scars. Have you ever been around someone who was high/drunk? of course. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for? yes. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them to their face? yes. If you're being extremely quiet, what's it mean? that someone is bothering me and i have no idea what it is. or i just don't feel like talking. please, don't bother me. Have you ever kissed someone and never seen them again? no. Does the future make you more nervous or excited? lately, more nervous. there are times when i think i'll be fine, but lately, no. Something you hate more than anything? him. Last alcoholic beverage you had? vodka. ack. Hello my name is: stephanie and i suck at life. Okay, who was the last person you held hands with? my mother. she held my hand. i love her. If you could change your eye color what would it be? BLUE. i really hate my eye color. Who was the last person that made you laugh? mm. i don't really know. Where did you last go out to eat? pizza hut. How did you get your last bruise? well, i walked up a trail and hit my leg. How often do you go to Starbucks? never. If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do? well, i wouldn't care, but i would wonder why they couldn't find their own person. do they really want my second helpings? no, i think not. How many piercings do you have? zero. Do you see yourself as a "good" person? yes, i do. Name 1 person (not family) that you can tell ANYTHING to: renee. HONESTLY have you ever wanted to watch a scary movie with someone just to have an excuse to be close to them? no, never. it wouldn't work for me anyway. i love, love, love scary movies. Is your family the.. "eat dinner at the table" type.. or the.. "get your food and eat wherever you want" ? haha. it's me and my mom. eat wherever you want. Do you drink more water or juice? water. Are you there for your friends? i try to be. How different are you from three years ago? very different. Have you ever cried and didn't know why? all the time. i'm so frustrated. Your view on drugs? i don't do them. anyone else, go for it. i could care less anymore. Do you hate being alone? no. i actually love it. it gives me time to think. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? i try to tell him everything. Have you ever been called a bad influence? yeah. whatever. What was the last conversation you had with your best friend about? about her mother. Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart? i couldn't do that. maybe after like 10 years, hah. Were you happy when you woke up today? no. How about now? no. i'm even more disapointed. Are you mad about anything? yes. What's something that really grosses you out? corn. What's wrong with girls these days? they are super giggly. Is there anybody really disappointed in you right now? i don't know. Are you a really understanding person? i try to be. but i suck.
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  • you look pretty low.

    by cellardoor08 on July 02, 2008
    ---------------LAST PERSON WHO-------------- Slept in your bed: me. Saw you cry: myself. Made you cry: myself. i suckk. You shared a drink with: probably britt. You went to the movies: steve.abby.britt.renee.lindsay. You went to the mall with: i believe britt. Yelled at you: eh, probably my mom or dad. Sent you an email: email? whoa. idk. -----------------HAVE YOU EVER--------------- Have you ever liked someone who hadn't like you?: like, in elementary school. haha. since then, sadly no. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: yes. Gotten in a fight with your pet: i yell at my cat, haa. Been to California: nope. Been to Hawaii: no:[ Been to Mexico: no. Been to China: no. Been to Canada: no. i go nowhere, shit. Do you have a crush on someone: not a crush, a love
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