1. Would you get back with your last ex if you could?no. i know it wouldn't work. 2. What color shirt are you wearing? yellow-ish. 3. Would you kiss anyone on your friends list? i dooo. just not today:X i am so aggravated. wth am i suppose to do with you guys? watch you play halo, then help clean the studio with you? fuck that. 4. Do you have a 'thing' for someone on your friends list? yeahhh. 5. How many people on your top friends list do you know in real life? all. 6. How many kids do you want to have? FOUR. but it won't happen. 7. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yeah. 8. What name would you want besides the one you have? i would want a waaay shorter name, like amy. 9. Would you ever make out with someone of the same sex? haha. not full-on makeout no. gross. 10. What did you do for your last birthday? i played on a playground, haha. and i told a guy i had feelings for him. 11. What's your main ringtone on your phone? stupid one. 12. What time did you wake up today? around noon. gross, once again. 13. What were you doing two nights ago? party. 14. Do you like having your hair pulled? nooo. 15. Name something you can't wait to do. i cannot wait to get the hell out of here and start my life. 16. Last time you saw your mom? couple minutos ago. 17. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? i wish i was less emotional. 18. If you had $250,000, what would you do with it? i would buy a new house, a car...i wouldn't go to college, hell! haha. 19. how long have you worked at your current job? no job. 20. Have you ever talked to Tom? no. 21. Describe the underwear you have on? polka dots. 22. Last thing you ate? orange. 23. What's your favorite month? i love julyyy. but this july kinda sucks. 24. Your least favorite month? i really hate march. it goes by the slowest. 25. What's the last piece of clothing someone borrowed from you? pants. 26. Who is getting on your nerves right now? MYSELF. 27. Most visited webpage? myspace, facebook,songmeanings. 28. Last person you text messaged? i don't text. 29. Last person to make you sad? myself. 30. Would you take a bullet for your best friend? yeah. 31. Favorite kind of drink? water. 32. Favorite food? chips. 33. Favorite dessert? ice cream. cake. yummmmm. 34. Have you been to Europe? nope. 35. If someone you hated died, what would you do? i would still be sad, of course.

1. What is more difficult: looking into someones eyes when telling how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they tell you how they feel? looking into someones eyes when they tell me how they feel. i have a hard time believing people. 2. Think of the last time you were angry. Why were you angry? friends seem to just not be good friends anymore. cheaters and liars seem to be more widely accepted than ever. and i'm a horrible person. 3. You will die in three minutes. Last call? i would call my dad if he was still in wyoming, i suppose. 4. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be? i would be able to cook. i suck. 5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love. i would have to choose TRUST. 6. You are walking to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss told you if you are late one more time you're fired. Do you save the dog? YES. i would feel horrible if i didn't. 7. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone? i couldn't do that. 8. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Do you do it? yes, i would. i don't know if it would be worth it to them, but it would mean everything to me. 9. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? probably not, no. i'm just so tired of myself lately. 10. Does sex=love? HELL NO. 11. Are you old fashioned? in some ways, yeah. i like to have the door opened for me as dumb as it sounds. 12. Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex? yes, i would. 13. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back? to tell someone i love them. i somehow have an easier time dealing with the fact that i don't love someone, than if i do. probably because i avoid it. 14. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? my mother. 15. Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? yesterday. 16. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to, even if you have "no regrets" what would you change? i wouldn't meet ray. 17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you? MOTHER. 18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? well, i would look around first to see if someone else might do it, haha. but, i'm certified and i would have to say, yeah, i'd do it, haha. 19. You are holding onto your grandmother's dying hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be? the logical thing would be the newborn, the grandmother already had a chance at life, the newborn needs that chance. 20, When and how was the last time you told someone how you REALLY feel? AH. i have such a difficult time with that. If You had three months to live: 21. Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die? no, i wouldn't. 22. What do you do with your remaining days? walk, read, the normal stuff. 23. Would you be afraid? of course, if i wasn't, i wouldn't be human would i?

Ever spin around in circles until you got so dizzy you fell? when i was little, i did that all the time. i use to fall on the floor and spin in circles and pretend i was flying to the moon. i just wanted to be out of what i was. What's the most comfortable thing you own? probably my blue blanket to cuddle with, even though it has about a billion holes. Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? well, most of my hoods are attached, so i really have no choice. How long does it take for you to take a shower? 5-10 minutes. depends. Have you ever stolen a sign from a street? nope. What was the last thing you were thinking about? how i really don't have an opinion on what me and my friends do anymore. i just go with whatever. sometimes, i'm okay with that, othertimes, i just wanna know why I don't get an opinion, ever. If you could change your MIDDLE name, what would it be? i wouldn't change my middle name. Is the moon out right now? no. it's the middle of the day, silly. What's the heaviest thing you own, besides a car? myself. Do you live on your own? no. Whose car were you in last? um. boyfriends. What's your relationship status? i'm in one. Who was the last person to ever kiss you? boyfriend. When was the last time you held hands with someone? eh, couple days ago i suppose. Do you have a crush/like someone right now? yeah. obviously. look above. Have you ever wished upon a star for a certain someone? yeah. gay. What was the weirdest moment with you and your bf/gf? hahha. when he says i love you, and i go i know. i'm not very romantic, haha. Is love even real to you? i don't really know. Warm up near a fire or cuddle under the stars? warm up near a fire. i love, love, love fires. Who is the person you regret being/doing something with the most? i regret ray. Most romantic: flowers or chocolate? flowers. chocolate just makes me feel fat. If single... are you lookin around? --- If taken... are you happy? yeah, i suppose. Do you like being around a large group of friends, or two best friends? two best friends. i hate huge groups of people, i always feel awkward. What's one of your weird quirks that nobody really understands? i need the closet door shut, always. How many people have you kissed in 2008? eh, seven. opps. Ever thought about why grass is green? haha. yeah. Can you build a detailed sand castle? nooo. Ever bit someone else's tongue? yeah. Have you ever tackled someone to the ground? yeah. What's one of your favorite possessions? um. my stuffed animal, polly. haha. Do you like to sleep? of courseee. i love it. Is your bed comfortable? yeahhh. What's the most awkward thing that happened to you in public this month? i am an awkward person always. my whole life is an awkward moment, really. Who's the last person that freaked you out? eh, ray probably. with his boob fedish. Who was the last person to compliment you? well, ray tried, haha. What's in your purse/backpack/other(pockets, wallet...)? wallet. chapstick. key. um. pen. Do you feel like life will be easier when you're older, or harder? easier. How come macaroni and cheese is so good? you know, i asked myself that the other day, hah. Is pink the new black? nooo. What thought made you cry last? liars. cheaters. agh. What is the most amount of money you would spend on a pillow? like, thirty-fourty dollars. it's a pillow, i would use it ALL the time. About how many white lies do you tell per day? haha. actually, plenty. Last book you read for pleasure? me and mr. darcy. If you google your name, what comes up? a book author, yes i have googled my own name. i was curious. Whose birthday is coming up? mine. Will you teach your own children abstinence or about birth control? both, obviously. i'm going to let my kids make up their own mind. How many days after you develop a cold until you go to the doctors office? if a cold lasts more than seven days. Who was the best kisser you've ever kissed? shittt. haha. that is a tough one to admit. it should be my boyfriend. should. Do you want a relationship? i have one. Whats your favorite color? blue, blue, blue. Best compliment you've ever gotten? i am compassionate. A compliment you always get? about my hair. or boobs. haha. If you were to hook up with anyone who would it be? johnny depp, the obvious choice. Last text? i don't text. When was the last time you cried? saturday. Favorite all time movie? i love love love pride and prejudice. What is your favorite thing to do in spare time? i love to read. and sleep. Who is your favorite ex? haha. argelis is a great guy. he's my favorite. he has a place in my heart, really. Can you be friends with someone of the opposite sex? obviously. Last person to lay in your bed beside you? boyfriend. Hottest person you know? hm. i know plenty, hhaa. What was the last thing you drank? water. or milk? Who is your best friend? renee.boyfriend.mom.lindsay. When was the last time you talked to them? i talked to renee and lindsay last night. boyfriend today. mom yesterday. Where is your cell phone? i share one. it's in my mom's car. where it should be. Do you like texts or calls better? i don't text. i like calls. just not a massive amount. Who do you love most? my mother. Are you mean? yes, i can be. Last thing you ate? cereal. Got anything to say to your ex? nah. he knows.

how old is your brother? 24, i think. where is your favorite place to eat? ehh, i don't know. What is your current problem? eh, boy. What color are your toenails? um. pinkish? i don't paint my nails. What movie did you last watch? um. parts of movies. Are there any songs that make you sad? yeah. If so, why? the voice and lyrics. i have a heart. What are you doing tomorrow? SLEEPING. forever. to make up. How do you like your coffee? black. Where were you twenty minutes ago? here. Did you have a fun night? tonight? kinda lame. but i enjoyed myself. i love being alone. Who was the last person to text you? i don't text. Do you want a boob job? haha. no. What size shoe do you wear? seven. Where do you work? nowhere. Are you happy right now? no. What was the last thing you said to someone? idk. Where did you get your pants from? i'm wearing shorts. How is your hair right now? messy. gross. down. What is the nearest picture of? my cousin. What do you want right now? SLEEP. fuck people. Do you have facebook? yeah. What was your first concert? maybe john berry? idk. Are you out of school? yes. Do you collect anything? nah. Do you know all the words to the national anthem? maybe, i don't really know. Are you wearing clothing that you borrowed from someone? nope. Do you eat meat? yes. Who is your favorite band? i love saosin. Do you have a good memory? no. When was the last time you hung out with the first person you fell for? hahahaa. What's that to your left? book. Whats something that bothers you about girls? they judge so much. Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning? ugh. What was the first thing you thought this morning? i need to get up and get some water. What are you listening to? thunder-boyslikegirls.

How many people do you have a thing for right now? just one. Does the last person you held hands with, mean a lot? i think so. Do you regret dating anyone you dated? no. Could you go a day without eating? not unless i was really, super occupied. Are you close with your mom? very, very close. What’s your favorite color to wear? blue. Who was the last person in your bedroom? boyfriend. Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone? eh, dad, i think. Were you happy when you woke up today? NO. Are you missing someone? sure. Why is your myspace song what it is? i love her voice. What color shirt are you wearing? black. When was the last time you talked to your number 2? today. Do think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? i really hope so. Do you need to say anything to anyone? YES. but whatever. fucking prick. Are you ticklish? extremely. sucks. Are you typically a jealous person? no. Do you know anyone that smokes pot? duh. Do you still talk to the person you last dated? every now and then, yeah. i miss him, he's a good guy. Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed? usually open if i can. Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawer or just thrown in? thrown in. who takes time to fold them? Sleep on your back or stomach? stomach. Are you a cuddler? yes. just not when it's super hot outside. yuck. Something that happened today that made you angry? headache. What were you doing before this survey? watching tv. What will you do after the survey? SLEEP. more. Do you sing? lots. First thing you do when you wake up? pee. try to go back to sleep, hah. What's on your bedroom floor right now? clothes. What do you currently hear? music. Was your last kiss a mistake? no. Does your last ex have a job? yes. Do you still talk to the first person you kissed? no. Ever talked to someone that was drunk? duh. Did you have a dream last night? no. i just clunked out. Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning? last night? steves grandmas. Do you trust people easily? no. i hardly trust. i don't get disappointed often. Are you wearing socks? no. i dislike socks. How many pillows on your bed? about four or five. Have you ever made out in a car? yes. Do you think the last person you kissed is nice? sure. when he's not being a dick. Crushing on anyone new? no. just the boyfriend. Would you take any of your exes back? no. When is the last time you cried and why? saturday. just, not a good day. married boyfriend for my mom is not splendid. What are your plans for this weekend? eh, nothing. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? no. i want to hear my name. What's irritating you right now? myself. headache. Is cheating ever okay? i have to say, yeah. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? sometimes yeah. but mostly no. Do you get distracted easily? sometimes. not really though. Is this year the best year of your life? kinda. it feels the same as any other. Do you have a best friend? yes. Who was the last person you cried in front of? boyfriend. Anyone upset you lately? just disappoint i suppose. Last thing you drank? water. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? yeah, but that thought goes just as fast as it comes. Would you marry for money? i couldn't. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights switched on or off? off. Do you get along with your parents? yeah. Have you ever had a birthday party? yeah. How do you feel about your life right now? exhausting. What woke you up this morning? myself. Is there a person of the opposite sex on your mind? no. kinda, yeah. idk. How's this week been? it just started.

Who's the last hot guy/girl you saw? on tv. that would be, someone on hot 90's people on vh1. What's more important to you, good grades or having fun? to me? good grades, honestly. if that makes me a loser, so be it. but i think you can do both at once. just don't overload yourself. Has anyone ever called you a bad influence? eh, probably. Do you shop at Wet Seal? no. Where do you get your hair cut? eh, anywhere. i'm not picky. i don't do anything different with my hair anyway. Who's the last person you drank with? cool people. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, do you remember the day you fell for them? no. Do you regret your last relationship? no. i live, i learn. he's not a mistake, far from it. Is smoking one of your turn offs? eh, i don't care really. What meat do you eat the most of? um. hamburger. Would you ever consider having an online relationship? haha. no way. What does your favorite purse/wallet look like? cute. Do you like the song 'I Kissed A Girl' by Katy Perry? haha. it's going to get old fast. Who's the last person you wrestled with? boyfriend. Do you listen to your friend's advice when they give it to you? i listen, i just don't do. What's the last kind of soup you ate? chicken noodle. Does it gross you out when girls don't shave their legs/armpits? yes, it does actually. well, not legs so much. armpits. Have you ever been spit on? yeahhh. gross. What's so great about the Jonas Brothers? little girls love them. i hate them. annoying punks. Are there any cobwebs in your room? nope. i cleaned my room:] yeaaah. What kind of dog do you want? i don't want a dog, really. i want cats. Do you currently have a sunburn? no. If you have Facebook, what's your status set to? idk. Who have you lost respect for? myself. really. Could you eat nothing but grilled cheese for a week straight? hmm. maybe. grilled cheese still reminds me of lost. When's the best time of the day to have sex? mornings. Do you like the perfume 'Love Spell' from Victoria's Secret? i have never smelled it. What's the last piercing you got? zero. Have you ever acted like a whore? haha. yeah. Who's your favorite country singer? wellll. i do love brooks and dunn. Did you like the 'High School Musical' movies? i only saw the first. and i didn't care for it. Are your parents over the age of 40? yes. Is it hard for you to get a hold of alcohol? no. Do you like the band 'Danity Kane'? no. Have your parents ever told you that you couldn't hang out with a certain person? yeah. What do you wash first in the shower? hair. Who's the last person you saw naked? hahaa. Which is better, Chinese or Mexican food? depends what my mood is, usually mexican. Would you rather shave your head or dye your hair bright orange? dye my hair bright orange. Could you last a hour without talking? yeah. What's your favorite song by 'Good Charlotte'? eh, i don't have one. Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with? no. Have you ever drank Slimfast? yeah. What's the longest amount of time you've been hospitalized? overnight. Would you ever go out with your best friend's ex? no. i don't want my friends sloppy seconds. How many people have you kissed in 2008 that actually meant something? haha. one. Were you happy when you woke up today? nooo. Do you hate the last person you kissed? nope:] What are you listening to right now? dixie chicks. What are you wearing? clothes. Do you like anyone right now? yeaah. Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again? no. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? yeah. Who was the last person who called? uh. idk. probably britt. Would your parents be mad if you got pregnant? no. What did you eat last? chips. Has anyone told you they missed you lately? eh, yeah.

You're trapped in a room for 3 days with your worst enemy what do you do? eh, i'd just smoke a lot. to be less aggravated, haha. You weigh 700 pounds, do you get liposuction or lose the weight manually? lose weight manually. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? if i like him, go for it. if i MIGHT like him, even might, it's a mistake. friends+friends just don't work. Have you ever liked someone on your top? i do. Your boyfriend/girlfriend finds out they have AIDS, do you get yourself tested? duh. well, i'd kick my boyfriends ass first. If you ever wanna live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine, do you do it? yes. If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive? hell, nooo. i'm weak. You have to dye your hair a different color for the rest of your life, what color do you choose? a darker brown. Someone asks you on a date, where do you wanna go? beach/lake. beautiful. You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get? nose. You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get? peace sign on ankle. When's the last time you were in a photobooth taking pictures with friends? years ago. Are you mad about anything? kinda frustrated, but whatever. Your good friend is getting beat up real bad in a fight, do you help out? i help out by calling the cops, yeah. more physical violence won't solve anything. Are you listening to music? yes, yes, yes. When's the last time you had a birthday party? sixth grade, just about. Are you planning on/going to college? yes. Do you smoke weed everyday? HAH. hellz, no. Is the moon out? not that i can see. Could you go a month without cursing? haha, no. Have you ever ridden a horse? i suppose, yeah. What's the funniest movie you've ever seen? i love dumb and dumber. haha. Would you strip for a million dollars? yeaaahhh, man. Are you scared of sharks? kinda, yeah. You can take one friend on vacation with you (no boyfriends/girlfriends!), who? i take renee. Your friend has bulimia, what do you do? talk to her. get her help. You take someone's boyfriend/girlfriend and they start cutting themselves, do you feel bad? i feel horrible. and help them get help. Who's the last person you had a sleepover with? boyfriend. and a shitloads of people. You get arrested, what for? eh. probably driving w/o a liscense. What are you wearing? clothes. Have you ever been called 'scene'? nope. Abortion; yes or no? yes. Next president? democratttt! obama! Gay marriage; yes or no? defintely. What were the first words you said today? uh. GET UP. Who do you look up to the most? my mother. you wanna know why? she makes mistakes. admits them. she is amazing and strong. Where are your siblings? sibling, in wyoming. Were you happy when you woke up today? i was hungover. so not happy. Honestly, do you like anybody? i love someone. duh. What time did you get up today? eleven. mistake. What shirt are you wearing now? roxy. Last night you felt...? intoxicated. If your being extremely quiet whats it mean? i'm tired. or thinking. Have you ever stripped for money? haha. no. Do you still have clothes that belong to your ex? no. Do you have a date this weekend? possibly. Can you live without the computer? possibly. Are Chuck Norris Joke's funny? nah. Do you get along with guys or girls better? GUYS. they are way more relaxed. If you could bring back anyone that has passed who would it be? my grandpa. my dad would be thrilled. Do you hide your emotions? i tend to, yeah. i 'omit' things. Who have you texted today? i don't text. Who was the last person you had an argument with? probably renee/lindsay. Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning? morning. or night. both are nice. When was the last time you had pizza? friday. or saturday. What is the last movie you saw in a theater? friday. i saw dark knight! What do you wish you had right now at this moment? some aspirin perhaps. When was the last time you got really anxious? all the time. i'm never relaxed. Has someone ever made you a Build-A-Bear? no:[ Worst relationship mistake you wish you could take back? i went out with my best friend. i would take that completely back. Who are you more like your mother or your father? mother. When you see new people, do you critique how they look or act? yeah, sometimes. i won't lie. Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone? joella? What is something you need to go shopping for? body wash. How many states in the US have you been to? a shitload. i won't even start to count. it's more than 7. How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? late twenties. What's your favorite restaurant? i love taco bell. and arbys. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life? yes. When/what was the last reason you cried? i was frustrated with liars. Do you tend to make relationships complicated? yeah. Have you ever been or talked about getting engaged? ick, no. Coach purse or NFL tickets? nfl tickets all the way. wtf am i going to do with a coach purse? i don't know what that is. What do you think of people who have their name tattooed on them? dumb. What are you currently thinking about? me being stupid. When's the perfect time to have a boyfriend/girlfriend? there is no perfect time, just do it. If you could either float on the moon, or snorkel the ocean, which would you? i would be able to snorkel the ocean. What song are you currently listening to? three days grace-let it die. What are the last spoken words you heard? eh, i don't know. What is one of your favorite options on your phone? eh, idk. What song that is currently out do you just love? i love daughtrys, now. Do you ever just take random pictures of yourself when you are bored? no, i don't. Do you think you'll be married in 5 years? no. Who was the last person that called you? dad. What is Flyleaf? band. Where were you on July 4th, 2007? al quall. Do you plan on moving in the next year? yes.

How many people do you know with your name? a few. What are all of your plans for today and tonight? today...i layed around and cleaned and sweated profusely. and talked to dana, and she is amazing to talk to. and tonight, DARK KNIGHTTTT. yay. How old do you think you will be when you have kids? late twenties, i'm thinking. that is one thing i want in life, kids. and extreme cooking skills, haha. Would you rather watch football or baseball? well, football. it's more exciting. i like to see people get hurt, haha. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? warm weather. not really hot weather, 'cause then i don't wanna do anything. What's something you really want right now, be honest! i want PIZZA, haha. and i kinda want my boyfriend here, i want him here a lot. Do you plan out your day before it begins? hellll. no. i don't care what i do, really. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? i have to shower and clean. but i don't feel like it right now. america's next top model seems nice to watch, haha. How's your heart lately? it's pretty great, really. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste? yupp. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? hmm. last night, probably. Did someone make you mad today? today? technically, yeah. What are you doing tomorrow? partay. When was the last time you had Starbucks? haha. Where were you at 2:00 this morning? my bed. Ever kissed someone who smokes? i always do. i don't mind at all. 'cause i smoke a little too:X Do you wear glasses? nope. i have good vision. Where did you get the underwear you are wearing right now? walmart, i believe. When is your birthday? 9/5. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? sleepingggg. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? i was on the phone. Last place you took a plane to? i don't like planes. i just don't do planes. but in a way, i want to go on one. How do you feel about the person who texted you last? i don't text. Have you ever been around someone who was high? yes, yes, yes. duh. Have you ever drank with your number one? yeah. once only. or twice, haha. Are you a jealous person? no, not really. Are you tired right now? nah. i'm good. it's too hot to sleep. Do you chew on your straws? yeah. What's your favorite room in your house? living room. Last inbox message from? hmm. idk. How many children do you plan on having? i want four, but i'll probably only end up with one. Is your hair curly? wavy. Who was at your house last? amber, lindsay, lindsey. Are you able to climb a chain link fence? i try. Who's car were you in last? dana's. Last movie you went to see? i'm going to see dark knight tonight. i saw hancock last. Are you ashamed of your past? sometimes, yeah. Where does your grandma live? dollar bay.bootjack. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again? yes i will. todayyyy:] Are you texting right now? i don't text. Do you trust people? no. Have you ever cried from being so mad? always. Have you ever played a Wii? yes, yes, yes. What woke you up this morning? myself. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? yes. Where are your siblings right now? sibling. in wyoming. Do you wear a name tag at work? i don't work. Do you have any tattoos? nope. i kindaaa want one though. Last place you ordered food from? hm. beef-a-roo. maybe? What high school did/do you attend? westwood. What are you excited for? to see dark knight. What did you do last night? matrix. Last song you sang? stupid girl. If you could change your eye color what would it be? blue. defintely. i hate my brown eyes. What color are your eyes? brown. Whats the longest you have talked on the phone to someone? hmmm four-six hours. yepp. How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you right now? zero. Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more? i suppose. Do you know how to drive a stick shift? no. sucks. Anything hurt on your body right now? my back. ugh. When was the last time you laughed? while ago. Have you ever been stalked? haha. probably. What was the last thing you cried about? ugh. i got so frustrated. i might cry right now. it seems like my friend, my best friend doesn't want to hang out with me much. What are you drinking? was drinking water. What do you wear to bed? not much, haha. Is your shirt new? HAH. no. Do you read often? i tend to, yeah. The last person you fought with? i'm mad at renee right now. it's like, i can't have a boyfriend and a friend. she makes it hard. i try to make it easy. Name something that's on your mind right now? ugh. life. When was the last time you sang out loud? nowwww. haha. Who do you really want to see right now? boyfriend. or mom. cause she has pizza, haha. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats? sweats. Do you swear a lot? YES. i do. Who was the last person you shared a bed with? boyfriend. Where was your default MySpace picture taken? breakwall. What are you currently listening to? here to stay-korn. Have the cops ever came to your house? i believe so, yeah. Who's your last missed call? ugh. idk. Where do you want to go? outside. it's beautiful. Do you always wear your seat belt? yessss. What's a happy time you've had in the past week? when i was with boyfriend and at matrix. and when i was alone. Who did you last shoot a dirty look at? ha. guy at matrix. What kind of dog do you have? i have no dog. Do you drink beer? i like beer. haha. Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now? jcpenny. What is something you need to go shopping for? probably clothes, whatever. Do you have any tan lines? yepp. Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher? ugh, no. she was amazing though. When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout? no. Has anyone ever sang to you? hahaa. sure have. Has anyone ever given you roses? a peony, haha. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? probably not. Honestly, what color is your underwear? multi-colored. Have you done something bad today? nah. What was the last thing you ate? chocolate. When was the last time you really cried your heart out? awhile ago. i have a feeling it will be soon though. When was the last time you hugged someone and who was it? hm boyfriend. last night. Are you normally a happy person? i tend to be. How many months are there until your birthday? two. Do you own any kind of yellow clothing? yes. How many piercings do you have? none. Any siblings? one. Are you single? nope. What makes your bedroom unique? it's mine. What's your favorite season of the year? spring/fall. Do you like cheese? yes. How old is the first person on your top? seventeen. What is your current mood? annoyed. What are you looking forward to in the next three months? MOVING. The "If you HAD to" section: If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you want it? maybe ankle. If you HAD to dye your hair a color what color would it be? darker brown. nothing extreme. If you HAD to get a piercing (not ears) what would you get? probably belly button. If you HAD to go on a reality tv show, what one would you go on? hm. that's a toughie, really. maybe...i hate reality shows. maybe the real world. The "WOULD YOU?" section: Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships? love one person. Would you move anywhere else if you could? YES. If you were given the chance to go to South Africa, would you go? yessss. If you were given 10 million dollars to keep, what would you do with it? buy stuff. obviously. The "CURRENT YEAR" section: Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of the year? no. Anything exciting happen this year? i suppose. Have you been involved with the police this year? yeah. Are your best friends still your best friends? well, one isn't. Got any tattoos or piercings this year? no. Been kicked out of a public place this year? i believe not.

[one] are you bi? noooo. [two] where is your default picture taken? breakwall. [three] what is your middle name? nicole. [four] do you have a crush? yeah. i really hate the word crush. ugh. [five] does the crush like you back? uh, he loves me back. [six] what is your current mood? content. i'm kinda tired though. [eight] what makes you happy? music. and a reallyyy good book. [nine] look at a poster in your room, who's on it? i have no posters. [eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be? i would be my cat. [Twelve] have you ever had a near death experience? i suppose, yeahhh. [fourteen] the song stuck in your head? stupid girl

so i read most of my other entires and i am severely crazy. i am always dizzy and super shaky. today, i couldn't even get my ipod on the right playlist because my hands kept shaking. i cannot be completely healthy. i don't feel like myself anymore. i feel claustophobic. i don't know why, but no matter how much space is around me, i still feel like i'm closed in. like everything is closing in around me, and i can't do anything about it. if i'm in a tent or if i'm outside with about a million miles around me, i still feel like i have nowhere to go, like i'm stuck in one place. and that is a horrible feeling. i'm scared of being in love. i'm scared of hurting my boyfriend. i told him, that no matter what, he is going to get hurt. i came up with four different scenios that are true. he keeps asking if i want to meet someone out there, but honestly i don't want to. i'm going out there for myself to be by myself, i'm not going out there to find someone. i'm going there for myself. and i wish more people would understand that. and i keep wondering more and more now why guys cheat. what makes a guy cheat? well, girls cheat also. so what makes anyone cheat? what makes someone think that there is someone better than what they have? and why don't they just have the courage to break things off with the person they are with to go with the other person? i hope they don't think they are making things easier for that other person. it just hurts even more. sneaking around, late night phone calls, one hour visits, it's all just too much. and not being able to go out in public. cheating is just something i cannot understand. there are so many excuses someone can come up with, but in the end, they are just excuses. and excuses aren't logical, clear explanations, so they don't mean shit. if someone is missing something from their life, why don't they just tell their partner and they can work on it together? it's always going to be harder than people think, but if people are really in love, won't they want to try? i have a hard time understanding this. this summer is not what i imagined it at all. i thought i'd be with lindsay, jane, and renee completely our list of completely outrageous and boring things, but i have only seen them about a total of 10 times, maybe. jane is at upward bound and at a WI camp, lindsay is just a homebody, and renee can't go anywhere anyway. so i am with my boyfriend and his friends all the time. and his family. which is not bad at all. i love being with his friends and family. they are way more relaxed and they don't judge. it's like being around my family. i hate when i'm around lindsay and the way she looks at me, it's like, am i doing something wrong with my body language or something? what did i do wrong this time? i hate that look. just fucking tell me, i won't kill you. i might be angry, but just tell me. i just want to know what i do wrong. i want to know what i can fix. i always think i'm changing, but i always have the same problems with myself. and it's pretty lame. i want to think i'm going outside of my comfort zone and discovering more of myself. but i'm not comfortable with myself or with other people. i compare myself to other people. i assume that is because i am a girl, and most girls do that. they want to always be one step ahead of everyone else. to stand out. but i honeslty just want to blend in and get everything done with so i can just start my life and be happy with myself. life is moving at lightning speed and i don't think i am able to catch up. i think i'm going to be stuck inside myself until i know what is missing in my life.