Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
Up on the bus, cash in your hand
His voice in your head
"You can 'til you can't"
Your every step leaned like ladder at the edge of the earth
You broke a border, killed a promise, took apart all the work
You held him high and tight
He brushed your breath aside
He ate your hope alive
You dreamt of your love
His mouth and his eyes
His hair and his hands
Complex and alive
Said, "I'm a loaner, I'm a rental, I'm a breeze in the heat
You can have me for a second but I'm no one's to keep"
You held him high and tight
He brushed your breath aside
And ate your hope alive
It can't be a curse, it can't be a lie
It's simpler than that
A hole in your life
You could canvas every corner, you could leave her a map
But if no one's missing, no one's hiding, then no one's coming back
She held you high and tight
You brushed her breath aside
And ate her hope alive
His voice in your head
"You can 'til you can't"
Your every step leaned like ladder at the edge of the earth
You broke a border, killed a promise, took apart all the work
You held him high and tight
He brushed your breath aside
He ate your hope alive
You dreamt of your love
His mouth and his eyes
His hair and his hands
Complex and alive
Said, "I'm a loaner, I'm a rental, I'm a breeze in the heat
You can have me for a second but I'm no one's to keep"
You held him high and tight
He brushed your breath aside
And ate your hope alive
It can't be a curse, it can't be a lie
It's simpler than that
A hole in your life
You could canvas every corner, you could leave her a map
But if no one's missing, no one's hiding, then no one's coming back
She held you high and tight
You brushed her breath aside
And ate her hope alive
Lyrics submitted by abenites1985, edited by dustonthedash
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