This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
(Now I'm pushing, I'm pushing)
(Now I'm pushing through)
(I'm pushing through face)
I'm pushing through face-down
I'm pushing through face - down
I'm pacing inside this empty room
Told to wait til my life's withdrawn
Uneasy, I'm waiting here anxiously
It's a waste and I won't wait another Eon
Endless night
Long for light
My head against this tomb
And pushing through
I'm pushing through
Face-down and pushing through
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I can't feel anything
Erasing my final memories
They won't stop til my whole life's gone
Uneasy, I wait for normality
It's a waste and I won't wait another Eon
Endless night
Long for light
My head against this tomb
And pushing through
I'm pushing through
Face-down and pushing through
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I can't feel anything
When life is gone without a trace
And hope is lost in time's embrace
I won't wait or hesitate
'Cause I'm pushing through face-down
I won't wait or hesitate
'Cause I'm pushing through
If time's a song, I won't wait for its reprise
I am done wishing farewells and goodbyes
I won't let this place overshadow my birthright
I won't wait another Eon
Impatiently, I'm cutting through the earth in front of me
Bone on stone, blood and sweat married
Can't hear the voice that whispers fears when my heart is pounding in my ears
All I see in my mind is not what I've left behind
But all the things I've been missing in that lost Eon
Endless night
Long for light
My head against this tomb
And pushing through
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I am lost inside this dream
When I can't speak and I can't scream
And I can't feel anything
Face-down and pushing through
(Now I'm pushing through)
(I'm pushing through face)
I'm pushing through face-down
I'm pushing through face - down
I'm pacing inside this empty room
Told to wait til my life's withdrawn
Uneasy, I'm waiting here anxiously
It's a waste and I won't wait another Eon
Endless night
Long for light
My head against this tomb
And pushing through
I'm pushing through
Face-down and pushing through
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I can't feel anything
Erasing my final memories
They won't stop til my whole life's gone
Uneasy, I wait for normality
It's a waste and I won't wait another Eon
Endless night
Long for light
My head against this tomb
And pushing through
I'm pushing through
Face-down and pushing through
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I can't feel anything
When life is gone without a trace
And hope is lost in time's embrace
I won't wait or hesitate
'Cause I'm pushing through face-down
I won't wait or hesitate
'Cause I'm pushing through
If time's a song, I won't wait for its reprise
I am done wishing farewells and goodbyes
I won't let this place overshadow my birthright
I won't wait another Eon
Impatiently, I'm cutting through the earth in front of me
Bone on stone, blood and sweat married
Can't hear the voice that whispers fears when my heart is pounding in my ears
All I see in my mind is not what I've left behind
But all the things I've been missing in that lost Eon
Endless night
Long for light
My head against this tomb
And pushing through
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I am lost inside this dream
When I can't speak and I can't scream
And I can't feel anything
Face-down and pushing through
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