This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
The sun is coming up over the hill
Or maybe it's not, I can't even tell
But there's a warmth on my face that isn't the blood
And my tears are turning the snow into mud
And I can't feel my left leg but I think it's still there
Did I kill anybody? Hell, I never fight fair
What state am I in, am I still on the run?
Has it really been so long since I've seen the sun?
My instincts are telling me to pick up and go
But I can't feel my fingers, and I can't move my toes
There's a drained bourbon bottle laying next to my head
And the piss and vomit are the sheets on my bed
Is it you?
Could it be you?
Don't want it to
I went out all night drinking, so I took the bait
And I jumped off the interstate to Highway 8
To the bars full of girls who all know me by name
They all drink the same drinks and they all fuck the same
So now my eyes are turning red in this hotel bar
And she's breathing out smoke as she motions towards the door
The kindness of a stranger or a trick of the trade?
God knows I'm not the first mistake that she's made
Is it you?
Could it be you?
Don't want it to
Is it you?
Could it be you?
Don't want it to
I been down and out, I been spit on for so long
I stored my shame in my belly until I needed to be strong
In my last guilty moment, stole a map and a truck
It's pure chance that I haven't already been picked up
But from here on the slate's clean, I'm heading way south
Always heard the girls were pretty there, I got to find out
Look Ma, your son's a travelin' man
I don't know what I did, now I'll do all the good that I can
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Or maybe it's not, I can't even tell
But there's a warmth on my face that isn't the blood
And my tears are turning the snow into mud
And I can't feel my left leg but I think it's still there
Did I kill anybody? Hell, I never fight fair
What state am I in, am I still on the run?
Has it really been so long since I've seen the sun?
My instincts are telling me to pick up and go
But I can't feel my fingers, and I can't move my toes
There's a drained bourbon bottle laying next to my head
And the piss and vomit are the sheets on my bed
Is it you?
Could it be you?
Don't want it to
I went out all night drinking, so I took the bait
And I jumped off the interstate to Highway 8
To the bars full of girls who all know me by name
They all drink the same drinks and they all fuck the same
So now my eyes are turning red in this hotel bar
And she's breathing out smoke as she motions towards the door
The kindness of a stranger or a trick of the trade?
God knows I'm not the first mistake that she's made
Is it you?
Could it be you?
Don't want it to
Is it you?
Could it be you?
Don't want it to
I been down and out, I been spit on for so long
I stored my shame in my belly until I needed to be strong
In my last guilty moment, stole a map and a truck
It's pure chance that I haven't already been picked up
But from here on the slate's clean, I'm heading way south
Always heard the girls were pretty there, I got to find out
Look Ma, your son's a travelin' man
I don't know what I did, now I'll do all the good that I can
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Could it be you?
Lyrics submitted by AtlDynasty25, edited by Mellow_Harsher, Magnifico
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Everything about this song is beautiful.
its definetly haunting and beautiful but in a different way then they had been i hope mbd doesnt become a rock ballad band it just makes me appreciate like the exorcist, but more breakdancing deffinetly my fav album or theirs
all of these songs are good on the new album but i always hold mbd a bit higher than any other music. after 3 or 4 listens this album is just...on par with what they are capable with. nothing amazing for them. good stuff, i just expect so much more from them.
also, i wonder how much vagrant had to do with the influence on this album.
additionally, anyone notice how the guitar at the end of the song has a similar melody to the piano in Devil In Mexico off of Who will survive. follows the vocals i guess a bit better.
hopefully i this will grow on me like In Bocca Al Lupo did. at first i was kinda iffy about it but after a few weeks i loved it almost as much as their first to full length records.
all of these songs are good on the new album but i always hold mbd a bit higher than any other music. after 3 or 4 listens this album is just...on par with what they are capable with. nothing amazing for them. good stuff, i just expect so much more from them.
also, i wonder how much vagrant had to do with the influence on this album.
additionally, anyone notice how the guitar at the end of the song has a similar melody to the piano in Devil In Mexico off of Who will survive. follows the vocals i guess a bit better.
hopefully i this will grow on me like In Bocca Al Lupo did. at first i was kinda iffy about it but after a few weeks i loved it almost as much as their first to full length records.
adam said in an interview ( in A.P. ???) that this album is the prequel to who will survive, and the guitar riff at the end of this is the lead in to that album. it gives this album much more meaning to know it's the same man chasing the devil. purely awesome!
holy shit where can i find this interview
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Me and my friend love MBD and we we're having debates about the album ever since it came out. After I listened to it a couple times, I thought that it had to be a prequel.
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I'm with AlexKuykendall, I want to find the interview to hear what Adam says. The guy is a genuis.
This last kid's got it right. The Blackheart is heading back to the town to face down the devil. Listen.
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