This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
'The pure love song sung in the month of April,
smelling sweetly of the Spring breeze...'
introverted, I'm a shut-in, my reserve is my only redeeming quality.
but I'm not lonely, not at all, so don't concern yourself.
my poor tatse in peeping at the opposite sex, so much fun,
I can hardly contain myself.
incomprehensible strange abusive voices,
I'm living life to the fullest everyday!
I tire of infantilism, farewell my artificial child bride
I mean, if you're real after all, what's the point?
looking through the scope by the window,
how many hours has it been?
you're everything I could want.
but I was too late in realizing you were the one...
Why? I don't even know you, but it pains me so.
I don't understand but I love you,
it hurts, 'the brain' I look at you with.
I don't even know you're name,
my girl through the lens,
you don't hear me, and I'll never touch you
because if you look this way, I'll take cover
it's such a pity, you're right there...
if you day you notice me, I'm sure you'll get scared
probably run away, and go mad worrying.
my feelings getting out of hand, never known
I understand, but I can't stop this love.
the day you notice me never comes.
I understand, I give up.
that clear early morning, as always looking at you through my lens
I can't speak to you, I can't touch you. Isn't that right?
'Cause it's all in my mind... '
smelling sweetly of the Spring breeze...'
introverted, I'm a shut-in, my reserve is my only redeeming quality.
but I'm not lonely, not at all, so don't concern yourself.
my poor tatse in peeping at the opposite sex, so much fun,
I can hardly contain myself.
incomprehensible strange abusive voices,
I'm living life to the fullest everyday!
I tire of infantilism, farewell my artificial child bride
I mean, if you're real after all, what's the point?
looking through the scope by the window,
how many hours has it been?
you're everything I could want.
but I was too late in realizing you were the one...
Why? I don't even know you, but it pains me so.
I don't understand but I love you,
it hurts, 'the brain' I look at you with.
I don't even know you're name,
my girl through the lens,
you don't hear me, and I'll never touch you
because if you look this way, I'll take cover
it's such a pity, you're right there...
if you day you notice me, I'm sure you'll get scared
probably run away, and go mad worrying.
my feelings getting out of hand, never known
I understand, but I can't stop this love.
the day you notice me never comes.
I understand, I give up.
that clear early morning, as always looking at you through my lens
I can't speak to you, I can't touch you. Isn't that right?
'Cause it's all in my mind... '
Lyrics submitted by bloody kitten
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Yeah, that's REALLY obvious, because everyone lives in Japan and knows that term.
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