A wintry sky and the broken streetlight cold wind.
Unknown shadow the footprint of desertion.
Freedom was taken.

If it wakes up a gloomy ceiling.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum it is soiled.
And violence rapes me.

An understanding is impossible.
Why was I chosen? Someone should answer...

dou ka hidoi yume da to kotaete hoshii
dore dake sakebi modae kurushimeba ii
dou ka hidoi yume da to oshiete hoshii
chigiresou na koe de nando mo sakenda

There is no hand of preparing of the disordered hair.
A laughing voice sinks in the eardrum a faint temperature is mixed in the midwinter.

koe wo koroshite karesou na jibun ni ii kikaseteita
ikiru koto wo miushinawanu you
koe wo koroshite furueta yoru wa itami ni oboreteiku
togiresou na iki wo yurushite...

dou ka hidoi yume da to kotaete hoshii
dore dake sakebi modae kurushimeba ii
dou ka hidoi yume da to oshiete hoshii
saigo ni mou ichido dake waratte mitai


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    Wow....I had an idea of what happened to this girl but I never knew it was that terrible. I looked up the case on WikiPedia and started crying. Man, it takes a certain kind of psycho to do something that terrible to someone...

    Amazing song. I'm completely speachless....

    GazettExFannon October 07, 2008   Link
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    Oh I love this song. It just makes me melt, for a weird reason. "And violence rapes me." Favourite line.

    Violence, to take control.. to feast off the body and other emotions.

    Seytonon October 16, 2006   Link
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    Every time I hear the lives to this song, it makes me cry. It's such a horribly painful song.. but at the same time so beautiful.

    His screaming in the lives, though, is mingled between beauty and severe pain, I think.

    Kudos to Ruki on creating the lyrics to this beautiful song.

    invertedxmessiah___on June 16, 2007   Link
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    This song has many parts that are painful, and seem to be hurtful to recall, yet some lines are very blunt and get their point across. The song itself is very very beautiful, and I find myself listening to it over and over... one of those songs you never get sick of.

    Valentine Svetlanaon July 31, 2007   Link
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    This song is hauntingly beautiful. It made me cry the first time I heard the lyrics and understood them properly. The singing, especially the live version... It sends shivvers down my spine. It sounds so dispairing and pained.

    The song is about a murder case that happened in Japan in the late 1980's. Ruki-san wrote it as a tribute to the girl who was killed.

    There is a Wikipedia page about the case - if you have the stomach - it truly was a horrific murder. Just type 'Concrete-Encased High School Girl Murder' into Wikipedia... Yes, it is as bad as it sounds.

    This song is both terrible and beautiful... Brutally violent and delicate in the description and emotion portrayed. Gazette truly are artists, to come up with something like this.

    kazenoyounion April 30, 2008   Link
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    I think that the title for the murder case is just scratching the surface of barely stomach-able. It makes me cry whenever I read it. I can understand why the guys get so emotional about the song when playing it live.

    And they were around five when this happened. I think it's amazing that they wrote a song about somebody they never knew.. The screams add to the song. Its such a perfect touch, you don't even have to understand the lyrics, but you feel the pain that they all must be feeling whenever they sing this..

    One of my favourites.

    Its hauntingly beautiful,

    ryo.chenon July 23, 2008   Link
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    Is there anybody know the lyric in the screaming part? I check for many site and found nothing.

    The only thing I heard in that part is 'I want the series (Wish for seek the ray)'

    Any other? Cause it's very hard to hear...

    crimsonlunaron August 10, 2008   Link
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    jesus christ. gazette. I'm.. speechless. I searched the murder case on wikipedia... omg... and just when I didnt think the song could hold any more meaning. it is.. truly powerful. and so sorrowful. what makes it even more terrible is the way things like this happen SO very often today. It just hurts to think abt all those ppl suffering like this. why do ppl have to hurt each other like this?

    and crimson, I wish I knew what he was screaming too. that part is done so good.

    mordsithon September 27, 2008   Link
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    Oh. crimson, he is saying

    "An understand is impossible."

    abt 8 times. I get it now.

    mordsithon September 28, 2008   Link
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    gosh. i've read the article thing and its just much more horrible than words can express. really, how could anyone do that? its just too disturbing :I so yeah. with every single translated lyrics i read (i dont speak japanese), i love this band even more. apart from the fact that they make amazing music, their lyrics actually mean something, unlike most music nowadays.

    xletsmakememoriesxon October 17, 2008   Link

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