This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I'm going in
1,2,3 and go
Like a kamikaze
Like Geronimo
A leap of faith
And I finally feel alive
3,2,1 I'm going in
I don't know if it's just me
But it seems that things aren't changing
Every day is pretty much the same
With a little rearranging
If I do nothing I can't fail
No blistered hands, no broken nails
Killing time, I'm paralysed
With faded dreams and hollow eyes
I've been waiting for a revelation
For a moment of clarity
Conflicts and convolutions
Ricochet inside of me
There comes a time for throwing caution to the wind
I feel the pulse again
I'm going in
1,2,3 and go
Like a kamikaze
Like Geronimo
A leap of faith
And I finally feel alive
3,2,1 I'm going in
1,2,3 say when
Like a flaming arrow
Soaring in the wind
A leap of faith
And I finally feel alive
3,2,1 I'm going in
I am so slow to commit
I have wasted years on fences
Is it really true the shoes don't fit
Is it only my defenses?
What if I don't measure up,
Don't listen well, don't smile enough?
Alone and unknown up to now
Need to change direction somehow
I've been open to persuasion
Wanting someone to take the lead
It's a little disconcerting
Signing up for eternity
There comes a time for throwing caution to the wind
And so my life begins
I'm going in
1,2,3 and go
Like a kamikaze
Like Geronimo
A leap of faith
And I finally feel alive
3,2,1 I'm going in
I don't know if it's just me
But it seems that things aren't changing
Every day is pretty much the same
With a little rearranging
If I do nothing I can't fail
No blistered hands, no broken nails
Killing time, I'm paralysed
With faded dreams and hollow eyes
I've been waiting for a revelation
For a moment of clarity
Conflicts and convolutions
Ricochet inside of me
There comes a time for throwing caution to the wind
I feel the pulse again
I'm going in
1,2,3 and go
Like a kamikaze
Like Geronimo
A leap of faith
And I finally feel alive
3,2,1 I'm going in
1,2,3 say when
Like a flaming arrow
Soaring in the wind
A leap of faith
And I finally feel alive
3,2,1 I'm going in
I am so slow to commit
I have wasted years on fences
Is it really true the shoes don't fit
Is it only my defenses?
What if I don't measure up,
Don't listen well, don't smile enough?
Alone and unknown up to now
Need to change direction somehow
I've been open to persuasion
Wanting someone to take the lead
It's a little disconcerting
Signing up for eternity
There comes a time for throwing caution to the wind
And so my life begins
I'm going in
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