Okay so I was reading someone's journal today, and I saw taht this person wrote about what they thought about specific bands, I really enojyed reading it. SO I decided that since I have this site to write about my personal life, I decided to make a blog. This blog is about the music. I will give you the site name if you ever decide to check it out: http://readideas-s-jb123.blogspot.com/ Anyway, so school broke up today, and I'm so happy that it's holidays. I do ahve some work, but I hope I just get some rest as well. I have decided that even though I like J, I will try my best not to, because I really don't think that he likes me. We havn't had a proper conversation since the 19th when I was lying in bed and he starts speaking to me and he told me I'm not boring, and taht he think I'm pretty, and funny and cool. I just don't think he likes me though. I mean, if he goes to the barmi and speaks to me there, then I think i can see if I choose to liek him or not. I hope he was invited, a lot of people weren't. I think he was though. (sigh) I don't know, and honestly I really don't think I should care... but I do. I still haven't changed into my P-J's yet, I'm still in my school uniform.. Oh well. It's so cool, the guy I told you about added me on Facebook! His name is Jarret ( Well, taht's what it says) and we havn't been online at the same time yet, but I think that if we were... Well, we probably wouldn't speak. I spoke with Sam today, and he said that he likes my laugh, but I'm sure he was just playing me. If you know what I mean by that... I don't think I even know what I mean... Oh well... (sigh) I just... I dunno. I'm tired and I think I should go to sleep soon. I really hope I wake up at like... 10:00 tomorrow morning. I probably won't though. I don't have much to do and I don't want to get off the computer to take my contact lenses out because I know taht it's only the contacts taht are making me feel tired. (sigh) I just don't feel like doing anything. Well, actually I do feel like doing something, and I don't want to go and lie in bed or anything. I'm so bored of the computer. (sigh). My blog sucks so far.... I don't want to read The Catcher In The Rye again. I think I read it too much of a short time ago. I don't understand why teachers give us work for teh holidays. It's extremely stupid. I think I have lost my one sheet that I need for Hebrew. This sucks. I best be off now, I'm going to do nothing but lie in bed and... well, ya that's pretty much it.

Okay so let me start from the begining, from the morning that I went to Josh P. shul service. Okay so it was really a lot of fun, I mean, I had a great time. I spent most the my time with Isabel because we were mixing things like every drink there was, with bread, fish, cheesecake, oranges, mints, onions and salad.. You say childish I say pure fun :). I was talking to DB quite abit then as well. Anyway, so after that I went to Kayla with Isabel,a nd we got a life back with Nataly ie Sidne. Anyway, when we got to Kayla, we had a lot of fun. I showered, ate and just lazed around. I also had my hyper outbursts from time to time. It was very funny. Then we got ready and stuff, and we got fetched by Josh Sh. mom, which was cool. Then when we got there, everythin was normal, me being me at bar/batti's and that kind of stuff. You see, i had convinced myself taht I had no friends, so I made myself my very own friend out of sushi, liquorish and chips. I was sitting with the boys,a nd they kept ruining it, but it was okay. Anway, so the speeches had been said, and now Nogapsbetween were playing (live) and I was sitting there alone. So then comes the good part. J comes to sit next to me,a nd starts asking me why I was sad. I told him I wasn't. Then we somehow got to the fact that nobody wants to talk to me because I am boring. He then told be that I was definitely not boring. He then asked me if I liked the band that was playing. I said that they weren't bad, they just didn't play good music, and that it wasn't the kind of music I listen to. He said taht he also liked the same music as me. He then asked me if I knew Queen, and i said that I loved them. Then he asked me if I liked the Eagles, and i said that I loved them too. Then he asked me what my favourite song by QUeen was, and I told him Bohemian Rhapsody. He then got up and walked away. About a minute later he came back, and he said that he asked them to play it, but they didn't have it. I smiled because I was so flattered. I still can't believe I didn't manage to get the words "Thank You" out of my mouth. There was more conversation after that, it was amazing. Then I went upstairs to write in Josh's book, and while I was writing, he came up behind me and sort of gave me a fright. He then asked me if I was having fun, and I said yes. I really should have made more conversation with him. Anyway, after that, we hardly speak to each other again for teh rest of teh night. I was talking to Josh P., Josh Jerm., and some otehr guy that I had never met before, he was cool... and hot. We all had an amazing conversation, he was so nice. I don't know his name though, we didn't get to names. Sidne claims to have been flirting with him... She litterally didn't speak to him once. Anyway, he was reealllyy nice :) Josh was calling me emo, and I said I'm not an emo (I know he was joking) and then HE said that he thought emos were cute :) Then I said goodbye and stuff and we went home. I slept ver at Kayla and surprisingly I woke up quite early. I couldn't stop thinking about J, I actually think I like him, and I'm really hoping that he likes me. I doubt it though... (sigh) Oh well. I can't really tell if I like him, but I think I do. The conversation we had was so much better than the one I had with DB at those other battis. Anyway, I think that it was reealllyy amazing and I had the greatest time ever! You know what, Ithink taht was the conversation. The one I have been waitingf or, I think taht could have been it. :)

Okay so Max's shul service this morning was so much fun, nit it was nothing compared to his disco. I mean, when I was in the car and for almost all of the disco, but it was so worth it. Okay so I was upset, I'll admit that I started crying a bit, but luckily nobody noticed. Anyway, so I was sitting by myself, and many many times people come to sit next to me. The best conversations I had though was with David. He was being so sweet! He told me that I was pretty, and that I was amazing, and that he liked my legs, and things like that. It was just the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me! Then Jarryd Berm. came and spoke to me quite a few times which was cool. It was also nice how J came and spoke to me twice and he was being nice, and then he came another two times with Jif. Everyone had just cheered me up so much and they were being so nice to me. David is so nice though :) I found out that he actually doesn't like the modern music,a nd he likes some of teh sam things as me, which is cool. At the sort of ending of the barmi, Jordan Joff. came to talk to me, which is weird because I have never spoken to him in my entire life! He was easy to talk to though, and it's cool that he came up to me, I mean, not many boys do that. Anyway, Rob and DP came to talk to me as well, and so did Jaimie Aaron. and Deej and Jason Raw. and most of the girls as well. I think that that was just such an amazing night and at first I wasn't looking forward to it, but in the end I really had a lot of un. I think they all think I'm boring and depressed now though, which does suck, but I got a good time out of it. :)

This morning I was probably the most depressed person anyone has ever seen. I was so depressed, I just lay down in bed, in the afternoon, and didablsolutely nothing. I completely cleared my mind and just lay there and stared. But then I decided that I might as well play guitar and try to figure out the rest of Wish You Were Here tabs on my own, and that's exactly what I did. It did cheer me up a little bit, but didn't quite do the trick. How I Met our Mother didn't even make me happy. Then when my mom got home, I finally told her that I didn't want to do the hip hop show (this was at like 1:00 in the afternoon) and taht was when the weight lifted off me. I didn't feel depressed anymore, and it was all becuse of some stupid decision. Well, I wasn't THAT depressed anymore. I mean, I still have to go sleep over at The Horribl One (that's what I'm calling her from now on). I really really don't want to sleep over at her, but.. (sigh) I need to write a speech for Max. Well, hopefully it won't be too bad. I really realy don't want to get all hot and sweaty and red like I always do whenever I meet up with a friend or something. I hate it when that happens becaus eit makes me look uglier than I already am. Oh well,whatever. We will just have to wait and see what happens...

Okay, so it's the 9th and nothing unordianry has happened to me today. I knew it woul be like this. Oh well. Okay so we have school tomorrow, which I think is completely pointless. Oh well, what can ya do? (sigh) I don't have much to say because nothing much happened so... Well,i best be off, I mean, I have school tomorrow and it's pretty late. Good night.

Okay,s o today was pretty scary. I mean, nothing bad happened to me, but I watched this movie called "A Time To Kill" and it's just so sad, and horrible. It really gets me to notice things mroe clearly. I mean, these things actually happened, and still do happen. It just bothers me how someon can do such a thing as to rape children! I mean, what goes through these peoples minds? I just want all these people who rape children to.. I don't know, get hurt very badly or something. It's just so terrible and I hate it! I hate how the world thinks! And ... URGH! It is all just so disgusting! And I am just so ashamed to be lving in a world with all of these terrible people! (sigh) Well, other than watching that 2 1/2 hour movie, I did do some otehr things to pass time. I saw some charcoal and I remembered seeing Jude in Across the Universe draw with some, and it looked really cool. It didn't look as cool when I drew with it, but it was still cool. Well, according to Sidne, I'm doing a speech with her and Teaganf or Max. Hmm... I guess I don't mind. Wel, I don't really have much to do, I' pretty bored. It's okay though. I'll manage... I say that as if I would have a choice. Well, I best be off, I mean, I'm not tired at all, but I don't have much else to say.

Okay so oday, we ended school at 1:00. Surprisingly, I didn't have such a bad time at school, well, other than the fact that when I got home I realised how ugly I had been looking for the whole day, which sure did suck. Anyway, so when I got home I was going to watch Tommy. Well, I did start it, and it sure scared the crap out of me, but then Ruth started watching a bit, and obviously it scared the crap out of her too because she then went to tell mom. Mom told me to stop watching it, so I did. To tell the truth, I'm glad she told me to switch it off, I mean, I was getting pretty creeped out. Anyway, then I decided to instead watch Moulin Rouge, and I hadn't seen it in such a long time. It's just... Amazing! I sure do love it! Well, my sisters just watched it and then I started watchign it again with them, but I decided to stop becaase a lot of the more inetersting parts had been over, and i had just watched it a few hours before, so I got a little bored with it. DB started talking to me on Facebook, when I went on. He greeted me by saying "Hey what's up small feet?" and I thought that was pretty funny. ANyway, a minute or two later, I told him I had to go, because I had to go eat supper so... Whatever. Our first lesson at school was Art and culture ( so we had art for the first lesson), and at the end of the lesson, our teacher, Mrs. Renke, asked me if I had ever done formal art. This is how that conversation type thing went: Mrs Renke: "Sarah-jo, have you ever done formal art? Me: "No" Mrs Renke: "Oh,w ell you are very talented, I saw that by your sketches" Me: "Uh.. Thank you" Well, that's pretty much how it went. I think it's so nice of her to say that. I love art, it's so much fun, and it's so much better in Middle School because we actually do formal art and stuff, I just love it. Well, I'm just gonna go to bed now, I know it's not late and I really do want to wake up at like, 10:00 AM tomorrow morning, I'm just quite tired, and it won't do me any good to stay up extremely late. SO good night.

Okay, so I have this strange feeling that something special is going to happen on the 9th. I don't know why the 9th, but that's just the day. Don't ask me why, I really don't know, tehre is just something aobut that day, and I feel like something weird is going to happen on that day. I can't tell if it will be good or bad, but I know something. (sigh) I guess now that I'm expecting somehting weird to happen on that day, it's probably not going to happen. Oh well, we'll see. Anyway, so I was talking to Teagan today, adn her an Jif are just the cutest thing you ever did see. (sigh) I guess I will just be the last one to have something nice happehn to me, you know, to do with boys. I just really don't want to be the last one to have my first kiss, or my first boyfriend. It just sucks that hardly any of the boys are taller than me. It's so unfair! Teagan just has it all. Nothing is wrong with her life. It's so unfair! She is just the luckiest person ever. There is nothing bad that could ever happen to her. (sigh). I can understand why nobody likes me though. I'm not pretty, smart, funny or fun to talk to. I actually think I'm like, the hardest person ever to talk to! (sigh) I don't mean to be. I'm just not the outgoing type of person. Look at me, I say that, yet I'm willing to write down all of this for 10 000 000 000 people to read. I'm an idiot. I dont even know what's going on. I know that there is somethign going on, because I just always want to burst out in tears, but I don't know why. What is the matter with me??!!!! I'm just going to listen to Blondie. Debby Harris seems to know everything. (sigh). I should probably just stop thinking about things. I should stop caring abot things. From now on, I won't care about anything. It won't be easy, but I think I can manage it. Well, I'll just have to try my best. Well, I'm going off now. I need to because Emily wants to go on. I hate her, I'm telling you, she is the biggest bitch known to humanity. (sigh) But what do I care?

Okay so I just came back from Michaela's batti, (it's not like, 12:00) so I'm just referring yesterday as today. Okay, well, I had quite a few good small talks and conversations with some new people and some old ones. Okay well lets just say that Noam and I are pretty "tight" now, which is cool. I also spoke quite a biut with Jarryd B. DP is.. er.. well lets just say he surprises me.. I was also talking to Sam and Jif. Also Hayden, a bit of Jadon, Gal and David. Don't think I'm some sort of slut, I mean, I also spent a lot of my time with the girls. The one time, I wasn't dancing or anything, so Storme and Sidne run towards me and start dragging me to the dance floor. It was quite funny. But then Sidne took my shoe and threw it to Levi who I had to start chasing to get it back. I got it back eventually. I just think taht I was just being too... weird. Like, I was being really hyper, and I think that made them think was just like the rest of the girls.. Which sure does suck. Oh well, if they don't want to bother to get to knwo me, well then good for them. I just hate how I was acting. I feel like such an idiot. I just want to... got to sleep or something. Night!

Okay, so I have decided taht my hair is so old, and I need something new. So what I'm goign to do, is wear pigtails, and wear a cap facing backwards, just to make it look like I'm in a baseball game. I would even wear glasses with it. I think it would look very cool. I just need a hat... I'm sure my dad has one somewhere. Anyway, so today wasn't too bad, boy wise. I got a smile or two, some small talk, and a stare or so. It was pretty cool. But then I look at what Teagan has got. She likes Jif, who probably likes her back. He acts like he does anyway, and who wouldn't like Teagan? I mean, she's pretty, she's fun, she's smart, you just can't go wrong with her. I have a batti tomorrow night, and I don't think it will be too bad. I'm not sure though, anything I expect will just go the opposite way, so I might as well just not think about it at all. (sigh). I finally found out which band I'm going to do for my project. I will do Fleetwood Mac. There were many other choices, but it ended up to be them, I mean, I just love Stevie Nicks. You knwo what sucks? I lost two followers on twitter :P Oh well. We can't worry about these things can we :P Well, I'm just gonna think about my new look, and watch The Wall. Bye.