So today at school we started off the most boring assembly ever! Well, it wasn't boring, but we had to sit there for so long! My legs were so sore by the time we stood up again! Anyway, I was so nervous for the cycle-test we had to write, and hen I found out, we are alowed to use our dictionary! That like, gives us the whole test! Anyway, I found the test pretty easy, I mean, I know I got a bad mark for it because by the time there were like five minutes left, I had only then realized that I had made a huge mistake, but oh well, I'm sure I passes, and that's what I wanted. Do I wish I wouldn't have made that mistake? Of course! But tehre is no going back now. Anyway, after the test, everyone went to go get ready for the gala, which by the way was so boring! I couldn't stand it! I didn't get the conversation with the people I was hoping for, but I did get a pretty average conversation with Dylan, David and Aaron, Johnathan was there for like a second too, G-D I HATE HIM SO MUCH! I also did get small talk with David Hrr, Max and Gabbi Berm, and that was cool but that was pretty much it. I am so tired! OThe best thing about the gala was that fact that Samson won,which is pretty cool, we always come second and today, we finally won! After school we ended like 10 minutes earlier than Primary School and High School, so I was waiting on the bench outside of the Atrium and David Hend. came to sit with me, then a few minutes later Teagan came to sit with us. So after a few minutes of conversation Emily came, and we were still waiting for Ruth so just wnt to say hello to a teacher, and the Ruth came like 2 minutes later so we were walking down together. We then bumped into Max and Jarred Berm. and Max asked if they could use my phone because they were lost or something, so I lent my phone to him, Emily wasn't too happy about it though, in fact, she was pretty rude about it, I completely hate her! So Max was on the phone and Jarred swore, so Emily just had to go and completely embarrass me and say to him "Excuse me? Did you just swear?" as if she never does it! So I told her to shut up! WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO RUIN MY LIFE! IT's none of her business what the people in my grade say or not! If someone wants to swear, she has no right to say anything about it, she swears all the time! URGH! I HATE HER!!!! And in front of one of the three J's!!!! The good thing is, he didn't seem to care, but I mean really? What can you tell from the way people act and people look? (sigh) As if he didn't hate me enough. Well, at least I have somehting to look forward to, and that is Valentine's Day! It's in two days and I am so excited, not because I think I'm going to get Valentine's presents, which I proablby won't, but because it's just the cutest day ever and I like to see how happy people get when they recieve a present, and they will be selling roses, which I think is the cutest present you could give. We also get to wear civvies, either pink, red or white, which is also nice. Another thing I am looking forward to is my birthday! It's in 12 days and I am so excited! YAY! Anywho, I don't have much else to say, other than i am completely tires and it's so early, and I really hope to wake up after 9:00 tomorrow morning, so bye!

Well, today wasn't bad, I was really expecting it to be horrible after what had happened last night. It was so messed up last night, I was trying to watch my movie, "Gracie", and my mom flipped out and started shouting at everybody! I have noticed something, my nights with her are usually in this order * Mom get's angry about something, if it's not something it's because she drinks too much at times * She starts shouting at my dad * She starts shouting at us children * She shouts at my dad again * I go to sleep feeling like I want to punch her And that is usually how it works. Last night was crazy though, at this one part she had said to me "You don't like me do you?" so I didn't reply, but I was really saying in my head "Like you? I completely hate you!" and I do, I really really do hate her. Anywho, I remember waking up in the middle of the night last night by hearing my mom and my dad whispering. I heard my mom say "Why am I in this room?" and my dad said "Because you got angry again last night" so my mom says "Why?" and the she sighed. I really do hate her, she has to make my life so much harder. Anyway, school wasn't so bad either, we have a gala tomorrow and I kind of hope it will give me some time to have nice conversations with some of the Weizmann and Constantia boys, I would talk to the girls but I don't think they want anything to do with me. There is only Gen and then some of the Weizmann girls and Liat is also in my house but she will be too busy swimming. You see, we have this thing at school and we have these group type things that we call houses. The names are Samson (that's the house I'm in) and our colour is blue, then there is Maccabi and all the highlands girls except for Liat and I are in that house, thir colour is red, and then there is Gideon and there is I think only one Highlands girl in that house, their colour is green. Anyway, there are some really cool people that could keep me entertained for those few hours. The only thing tomorrow I am really really not looking forward to is our cycle-test tomorrow. It's on afrikaans! AND IT CREATIVE WRITING! How in the hell am I supposed to write creatively in afrikaans?! We don't know the topic yet, but what if I don't understand the topic? How am I supposed to write the 75 words on a topic I don't understand? URGH! I am seriously going to fail taht test! You know what? i don't care if I get a horribly bad mark, I just need to pass, if I pass, then I am compleetly okay with it. Anyway, today I got to stay home all by myself for like an hour today. I was very excited when I heard this because it could give me a chance to see whether I think I am good at singing or not. I'm not the best, but... Well let's just put it this way, I am not as bad as Ron (She is pretty bad, not that bad, but pretty bad). I love it, I love singing to the songs I like, it's an amazing feeling. (sigh) Oh well. There is one thing I completely hate about my Maths lessons, and it's the fact that I sit next to Kayla. I love Kayla, it's just she stares at me because she finishes like a few minutes before me, and she just makes me go so slow, I can't stand it! And then when I'm going slow because she stares at me, she keeps telling me the answer! I just hate how she is so annoying in Maths! It's like, LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY! The girls in my Highlands grade are so annougin! That's why I hang out with the boys. OMG it's so cool! Emma cut her hear so short, like up to her jaw, and it looks so awesome! It really suits her. i hate it when people forget! I keep telling Emma to bring this one photo that she took of me while I was in front of this wall that looked exactly like the wall on the front cover of The Wall (by Pink Floyd) and it was so cool, but she keeps forgetting to bring it and it's so annoying! (sigh) Well, what can I do? (I'm not actually asking you, it's just one of those questions like: Whatta ya gonna do?) Anyway, I am pretty bored now, so I'm gonna go do my homeowrk, tata!

Okay so you know how I said that the piece of paper Mev. Pearce was holding said tutorial? You know how I said I was pretty sure it said tutorial even though I had only caught a glimpse of it? Well, I was sadly mistaken. Today in afrikaans, she was holding it in the same position, but this time, it was facing me, and she stood still so it was completely easy for me to read, and you know what it said??? IT SAID "TOILET IF NEEDS"! UURRGGHHH! It's like everybody in the country knows about my... Lady problems. It really doesn't make me feel any less embarresed! I mean, what if someone were to see that! I think every teacher knows about it in the school! I HATE THEM! I had only found this out in lesson 6, so I didn't have much of school left to go, but it had made me feel sad and embarrassed for the rest of the day! When I read that, my heart completely dropped and I felt like I was going to burst in tears! Today just hasn't been my day. (sigh) I just hope tomorrow is much better. I havn't been having any luck with the three J's. I was just talking to Jared, and I had to say hello first! I think I was being irrutating because he usually says hello to me first, so he obviously didn't want to talk to me, and then he logged off with out even saying goodbye, but oh well, I guess I'm just back to the begining. Hmm, maybe I will get to have a nice conversation with someone at Dylans barmi... Yeah right! He's not having a disco so I highly doubt that is going to happen. I just want to have a nice, meaningful conversation that brings me closer to one of my friends, preferably with one of the three J's, but it doesn't need to be, it can be with anybody really, just a conversation that makes us better friends than we were before. I doubt it will happen, but there's no harm in hoping. So I watched this movie today called "The Rocker". I quite liked it, and it really reminded me of the offer to be in the band. I think they think that I don't want to be in it beccause I havn't said anything about it, but I don't know what to say, if they really wanted me to be in it then they would ask again! And if they would just ask again, I would say yes! I do want to be in their band, but I just don't want to go up to them and say it, I don't know why, but I don't want to. (sigh)! I even discussed it with my mom! MY MOM! And she said it was a good idea. (sigh) Oh well, if they want me to be in their band, then they better ask again, and I really really hope they do! :( URGH! Adam keeps trying to talk to me! I didn't ignore him the one time, I think it was ysterday actually, you know, becasue I didn't want him to think I was ignoring him, but he is just so annoying! The only good thing about today was the fact that Mrs. Cook didn't say my fringe was too long! (sigh) Well, I think I am just going to go now, so bye.

Well, when i woke up I was so tired! It wasn't funny how tired I was, I like, couldn't get my eyes to open, I hated it! Well, it didn't really matter. Anyway, I have really noticed something that you really try your best not to do in Middle School. It's not getting into trouble, it's not not fitting in, but it's farting.I can't even count how many times I have stopped myself from farting! Lol! It's weird how you have the need to fart in the weirdest times, anyway, yes that was pretty weird. So I got to school and yada yada yada. It just can't believe how much of an idiot I am! How stupid can somebody get??? So one of the J's were talking to me (Justin) and it was about the conversation we had last night with everyone, and he was talking to me, and I hardly said anything, he was like "Do you remember when...." and I said "Ya"!!!!! WHY AM I SUCH AN IDIOTTTTT??????! And you know what makes me even more of an idiot? He tried to talk to me about it again, and I did the complete same thing! I HAD ANOTHER CHANCE!!!! I completly blew it :( I can't believe I did that, I had 2 chances!! (sigh) I just can't believe I am that much of an idiot. Everything is ruined now, he will probably never speak to me ever again, he probably thinks that I completely hate him! Well, what's done is done, I have completely ruined it now forever. I just can't believe that I was that stupid. Anyway, the thing I am looking forward to is Valentine's Day. Even though I might not get anything from a boy, it won't matter because it is just the cutest day ever! And it brings me much closer to my birthday! Yay! Oh look... Justin is on... (sigh) I'm such an ididot. Well... (sigh) I had the netball thing today, and it wasn't so bad, it's just... I missed creative writing, URGH! The Weizmann girls are rreeeaally good! Our team needs them! Anywho, about the band thing, I think I am just going to leave it until they ask me again, hopefully they will think I have forgotten, I think I will say yes, and I won't say anything about the singing thing, I don't want to be too.. I dunno, I'm just not going to say anything. Well, I don't have much to say anymore, so tata!

Okay let me start off with yesterday. So I woke up and lay in bed for a few minutes, and my mom walks in and I pretend to be asleep (I don't know why I did that) anyway she "woke me up" and told me to get dressed for Ruth's party. I got dressed and all and we were off, on our way to Muzenburg. We got there, set everything up and I went straight to the waterslides. I had quite a lot of fun, and as I was having fun more and more of Ruthg's friends arrived. So I took a break and went to go eat something, and then Kayla arrived. So Kayla and I went on for like millions of times and we decided to have a break because we were getting a little bit bored. So Emily took us to the Mini Golf course which wa right next to us and we went to play Putt Putt. It was actually a lot of fun and it was so funny because I did the most stupid thing anyone could ever do. I was trying to hit the ball and it only touched it so it went like two cetimetres from where it was, and it was so funny. Anyway, Kayla won and I came second and Emily came last. i only came second by four points, I was pretty upset but I didn't show it. I know, it's stupid of me to get upset over stupid things like that. So after Putt Putt Kayla and I went on the waterslides again for like three times, and then, we decided to do the greatest thing ever! We were going to go... SURFING! I love surfing! It's like the coolest sport ever, well not really, but it's fun. It was only the second time I had ever been, I had been once before at Jarryd Hurwits' party and I was the first of teh girls to stand up. Anyway, we did get an instructer but I didn't really take any help from him, I needed it a little bit, but I didn't take it. So Kayla didn't stand up once, and I wasn't sure about Steven (He also went with us) but I didn't do so bad. In fact, I was pretty good, I stood up like millions of times, and I surfed to shore like millions of times, but I did fall off quite a lot. Anyway, it was so much fun! The only hard parts were getting the wetsuit on and off, otherwise it was all pretty easy. So I went home, and I had to get changed for Erin's barmi, I was pretty excited for that. So I got there and there wasn't much happening, and I Kayla called me to talk in private because there was this whole story at camp how she told Josh Sher that she didn't like him the same way he liked her, and he had flipped out. She was really upset, and then she showed me what he had said to her on BBM (bLack Berry Messanger) and it was so horrible! He was just being such a dick! And how can someone say that to somebody just because they said that they don't like you the same way you like them? I mean honestly! I found out that nobody really likes Kayla, I mean sure she flirts with every boy in sight, and she can sometimes be a little annoying, butr she's really not a bad person. I like her, and not just because she is my cousin. Anyway, it was weird because when I was dancing to the cool songs like Another Brick in the Wall Part 2, and Time Warp, and Greece lighting, and You're the one that I want, I was practically dancing like, with him, well, not with him, I was dancing with max and him, like it was the three of us in like a little huddle thing, and we were just singing our hearts out and it was so much fun. Anyway, after the fun and dancing, I was walking out and David Herr comes to me and says @You dance to that?@ and I'm like @yes, well that is actually music, what you guys dance to is crap@ Noe this wasn't fighting, like I was hyper and he was like smiling and joking about it, so then one of the other J's comes! Justin Marks, and he pokes me in the stomach and tells me I'm hyper, and I was being pretty funny, well I think I was, I mean, he was laughing, anyway we had like a small little conversation and it was pretty cool. Anyway so I went to sit down with the people who weren't dancing becasue all of the girls were dancing, so I just wnt to sit with aybody really. So it was a table of me, David \hendry, Jason Fine, Robbie Berman, Max Moss, Jarryd Hurwitz and I think that was all, and we had a really great conversation. I know you probably thing I'm a slut, hanging out with the boys all the time, but I'm not, I'm a tomboy so girls don't really have as much in common with me as the boys do. Anyway, I found out that Jason Fine also is like, obsessed with How I Met Your Mother so we were talking about that. I have decided to change one of the J's, I am moving Justin Meyerson to Jason Fine. So now the three J's that I want to be my good friends are: Jared Berman, Justin Marks and Jason Fine. Anyway, that really was an amazing night, I love barmis, they are always so much fun! So I keep forgetting to tell you this, and I'm really not sure what to do. So I got asked to join a band, a band with David Hendry and Dylan Kesler, and I really really want to, it's just they want me to play the guitar. Now I have nothing against playing guitar, it's just I always thought about how great it would be if I could sing the songs, and I will never get to do that.Oh well, I think I'll just go now, so bye

There were some things I left out yesterday (I know, surprising huh?) they weren't that important but still. So I was talking to Teagan on Facebook and we decided to have our 13th part together, and I'm fine with that it's just that I hate discussing it. We decided we are going to have a lunch but we can't decided whether to invite lots of people or just close friends. I seriously want to do only the very close friends that are girls because I don't want to leave out my very good friends that are boys and we both have different very good friends that are boys. So I just hope that we come to decide that it's only girls, but the thing is I already said yes to boys! URGGH! Now I will end up with my best guy friends hating me! I just can't believe it, if I had it my way I wouldn't be having a party at all, maybe just some people sleep over, not that I would be able to do that. (sigh). Anyway, I woke up so early today, adn I just hate that so much! I can't believe it! I just can't stand it, and it's all becaus eof the stupid habit of school hours, and then my parents question me about why I'm up so early and I just hate it! The only really really good things about my days is the fact that it brings me a step closer to Valentine's Day and my birthday (which by the way is in 18 days!!!) Then I had my breakfast and I got ready to go to Erin S.'s shul. I was kind of doubting that it would be fun but it was actually loads of fun. Storme was there, but she wasn't invited. She was only there because that was the shul that she goes to, when I first arrived I walked in with Isabel (because she was littlerally in the car behind us), and we didn't know where to go so we stood outside for like 10 inutes, and the Emma and Rachel came out to tell us that they were inside, so we went in. The shul part was boring but it gave me time to think, that's the only reason I like the shul part in barmi's or batti's. Anyway after that the brunch part was soooo much fun! We were all sitting at the table and then Max's sister, Alexa/Lexi, came and sat with us. She is so adorable! She is pretty smart for a five yar old. It was hilarious, she was making these funny noises that Kayla and Storme were trying to make, and then she did this funny yet inapropriate movement each time she made the noise, it was so funny. And then she started singing the rap part of these crappy songs, it was so funny, she knew like every word, and Isabel had given her this littletoy thing and she named it Sarah-jo, it was so hilarious! It was also really funny because Isabel had mixed these two drinks together, but she didn't tell me what they were and she told me to taste it, she said it tasted really good, so I tasted it. It was so gross!!! I spat it out in another cup, and then Isabel, knowing that she had made it really gross, tasted it (because she hadn't tasted it before) and she spat it out in the same cup as I had spat mine out in. So then we decided to mix these other drinks with it, and we added cheese-cake to it, so it looked like this vomit-green smoothy type thing, it had these cheese-cake bits that looked exactly, like seriously spot on, it looked exactly the same as bubbles, or like the foam that goes on top of those drinks. It looked so gross, but it looked like a real drink, so we asked Max to taste it, we told him with a complete straight face that it tasted to good, so he drank it and Isabel and I just burst out laughing. Anyway the rest of that shul went on with the making of disgusting drinks, yes, it was childish, but it was so much fun! So on the way back my dad told me that we were going to go Ten Pin bowling, and my mood completely lowered. I can't stand bowling!!! It's okay because I know tat Sidne is hating me and knowing that just makes everything better. So I got home to find Zoe at us, she is sleeping over, anyway I went to get dressed and we were on our way to Tygervalley to go bowling. I can't believe it, I lost by like 20 points! Everyone except for my dad and I were on the 40's. My dad got like on th 80's and mine was on the 20's! I seriously sucked today, I can't believe I did so horribly! Well after my sucking my dad and I went to go get Stears while Emily Ruth and Zoe went to go shopping. They didn't buy anything but they did get ice-cream. After that we went to the Video shop and then when we came back I watched the documentary I recorded, "The U.S vs John Lennon". It was such an amazing movie! It was so good it made me have small tears in my eyes, I didn't cry but the tears were definitely there! It didn't say anything about Yoko- Ono breaking up the band but it showed me who my favourite member of the Beatles was. John Lennon was just so... Amazing. He was funny, he was pretty hot, he was kind, he was in love and he was... Completely amazing. I love him and I loved that documentary. It was just so great! I love love love love love love love lvoe love lveo love love love love love love love love love olveo love lvoe love ittttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, I found out that Emily played my guitar, which really got me sad. I mean, people just take my stuff and give my stuff away and use my stuff without even asking me! Nan gave my Sprite away, somebody ate my lollipop, Ruth wore and swam in my shirt, and Emily played my guitar! All this in three days! I mean sure, I don't care about the shirt or the lollipop or the Sprite, but I mean seriously, my guitar? The on thing that is so completely important to me, why did she have to go and do that?! She is just so... I HATE HER SO MUCH! My guitar is one thing that I can turn to and she just uses it! It's so important to me, like, I seriously have tears in my eyes, and that's how important it is to me, I'm crying! I would never cry about something that wasn't worth crying about, she just made my day so horrible. I just can't even put how I'm feeling into words, I hate her so much! I can't explain. Nobody cares about how I would feel about it, to her it's just some guitar, but that's not what it is. I don't even care anymore, let them do what they want. They don't care what I think. I am just not even going to bother anymore. From now on I'm just going to lie in my bed when I wake up in the morning, until it's time my parent shave to come and wake me up. I just don't want to go to Ruth's party tomorrow, I know that sounds horrible, but I really don't want to go, well, I guess it won't be so nad because Kayla is going to be there, and we might go surfing afterwards. I'm not so sure I want to do that though. Well, oh well, I hsvn't spoken to anybody yet on facebook, but what does it matter. I'll just read my Beatles thing and get on with life. Shirley is coming and my mom and dad have to go to somebody, they are taking Ruth and Zoe wit them because they don't want them to be with Shirley. Anyway, we have found a solution to the picture problem. We are going to drop me off at Primary School so I will go into the art room and get my picture, and everything will be solved, I just seriously don't want to forget, Well, I don't have much else to say now, so... Tata.

Oh My G-D!!! Klitah was AMAZING!!! It's not even funny how great it was. i was really foubting that it would be fun, but I had an amazing time! Okay, so I got up and went to school, and everyone was in civvies and I went to put my bag down and stuff. Anyway on the bus, I had such a good time! Brendan, Dylan and I had such a great talk. We were talking about music, and then we were talking about how Brendan hates Emma now. He said that he only was her boyfriend because no other girl liked him, so he just settled for her, which is such an ass-face thing to do, but still, he's not bad when you have a conversation with him. Anyway, he was saying how I am nothing like the other girls. He said I am cool! Nobody has EVER said I'm cool! Anyway, he said that none of the otehr girls would randomly pop up with a comment about music, and nobody would laugh at the same stuff he does. Like Rudi J. was typing "Yo Mama raped an ape" on his calculater, and I just burst out laughing, it was so funny! And Brendan said that no other girl would have laughed at that. That may sound like he likes me, but believe me, he doesn't, just friends. It's exactly the same with Dylan and I, we always hang out together, and people say that he likes me, but he doesn't, we are just really good friends.He was a little annoying though, like, he was annoying at habonim camp as well, and it's just so annoying! Anyway, the bus ride there was ammaazziinngngggg!!!!!! It was so cool! In our free time, I can't believe what I did! I actually played and ELECTRIC GUITAR! I have never played one in my life and it was the greatest feeling ever! It was Josh P. guitar and it's so awesome! At first I was like "No I can't touch it! I'm going to ruin it!" and everyone else was like pushing me towards it because I wouldn't touch it, and then I did touch it and I started playing it, and it had just lifted my whole mood. Once I started, I never stopped, I think Dylan and David got a bit annoyed with me because I was hogging the guitar and I didn't let them have a turn, but I couldn't help it, there is something about an electric guitar that just lights me up. Every time I played that guitar, I was completely hyper, I was just so happy, and it was so amazingly cool! Of course Johnathan took over for the next two days because he had to practice for the talent show, so I hardly got any more turns, but when I did, it was great. I seriously don't like Johnathan, every other boy that I am very good friends with likes him, so I don't want to say anything about it to them, but at least I can talk about it to the girls, they don't like him either. Oh well, at least I got a chance, and it was sooooo worth it, I think everyone thought I was weird because I was acting so hyper. So supper that night was great, I conversed with Jarry B. (not that I care), because I had made a smiley face out of my food (I always do that when I'm not finishing my food). Anyway, it was the start to... Well, nothing really I guess. It was a great night though (sleeping wise). I was in a cabin where the only Highlands girls were Isabela nd Ashlee and it was so cool! We were all so awake and we were having so much fun. We had left the doors open because, well, it wa shot, and we were making so much noise. Fabbi and Liat ended up sleeping in our cabin. I managed to sleep for at least 2 hour in between before we went to sleep for real, and the second hour involved Storme sleeping on the same bed as me with her sleeping bag. I had gotten woken up by Gina who was making farting noises with her moutha and it was oretty funny. We also started telling scary stories which was when I was on Jessica M bed along with Gina and Gen, and I had gotten so creeped out by the window, you see, they were trying to open it but it just completely fell off onto the grass outside (I wasn't awake when this happened), but it was so creepy and I had said "Okay that window is really creeping me out" and then Gen (who was sitting next to me) said "I know and we both were like laughing/screaming as we both bundled up to the same side as Gina and Jessica. Anyway, it had felt like such a long night when the security gaurds came to tell us to be quiet. They cmae again in the next few hours to tell us to be quiet again, but we ended up having a little chat with them, when we had found ou that it was only 2:00 in the morning! It had felt like it was like 4 or something. Anyway, more hours passed and we had finally found out that it was like 4:55 and that's when we all started to get tired, so we eventually wne to bed at about 5:00. It was such a great night. The next morning I was hardly tired, I mean, sure I was pretty tired but hardly at all, I was a lot more energised than I thought I would be. So we had breakfast and we did the boring activities and I hung out with my friends which was great. So it was lunch and we were supposed to make our own hotdogs from scratch, well they gave us the dough, but we had to braai it and the sausage and stuff, I didn't do it because I don't like braais, but it was fun because I sat with Isabel, Dylan, Max and Deej and they were being to funny. They were acting out this made up talk show where Oprah Whinfrey was the guest star (Deej) and he was being so funny! He walked on the "stage" and he straight away said "You get a car, and you get a car and you get a car, and look under your seats people, you all get cars! And you get an extra one" and he just spoke in the funniest way! It was so hilarius! Max was the host, it waas like Murv something, but it was funny. That was fun. Before the braai (the boys and girls did it seperately, the boys went forst while the girls were in the cabins and then the girls went when the boys were done) I had gone to the cabin next to us with the Highlands girls, and the two cabin maddis came in and we had this talk, well, they mostly had a conversation with each other because they were talking about the matric dance. Anyway, that part wasn't so bad either. So anyway, it had been raining that evening, and I went to ask Josh if I could go play his guitar and he said yes so I did. It was much cooler this time though because I was actually ona stage, there was nobody there to be in the audience (except for David and Kyla H, and I felt like such a rockstar. It was so amazing, I was there for pretty long, and I was so hyper when I had gotten back. I was skipping! Anyway I went into my cabin and I saw a lot of people there, I probab;y sounded so crazy to them. So Robbie Berman came to sit on my bed and I had pulled out a packet of chips so I opened them and I asked if Dylan wanted any, I said "Would you like some potato chips? twenty Percent indullgeeennccee" so he said "What did you do to them? You have never been the person to share..." and I said "Well, you can thank Josh';s guitar, it like lifts my mood and I'm feeling to happy, and happiness leads to kindnesssss" So he took some, and then Robbie asked for some so I gave him ,and then Chris asked for some so I have him and then somebody else also asked for some (I forgot who it was) so I gaave that person and I was left with quite a few. So then Chris says to me "You have poo on your show and your shoelace" so I, being completely hyper, said " Gees! It's not poo! It's chewing gum! G-D can't you see?!!!" and then I turned to look at Robbie and I said "People these days" and then I juststarted taking the chewing gum off of my shoelace with my hands, and I heard Robbie say "Gees, you ddon't even care" I'm not too sure but it sounded like he was pretty impressed with me, I think he probably just thought it was funny. Anyway I was about to put my finger in my mouth but I decided to go wash my hadns first so I walked to the bathroom in the rain. Then supper came and supper was great then too. Jarred B. sat across me (not that I care) and I was still pretty hyper so I at emy food in a gross way. Well it wasn't a surprise to anybody who was in my school last year because I always eat like a pig in front of them. I always say "I'm not a pig, I just eat like one". anyway, I had picked up the spag bol up with my fork and it dropped on the floor, I think it had amused Jarred because he was smiling (not that I care). Anyway, I actually spoke to him (not that I care) and we were talking about Paranormal activity. He said he had seen the first and the second one. It was a pretty epic conversation, lol. Anywho, I had made a smiley face out of my food that night too. I told Liat that she shouldn't waste food because she was making such a mess, and she said "wWell look at you, you are waisting food too" so I said "Woah, woah... This is NOT a waste, this is pure art!" and Jarred laughed at that too (not that I care). Anyway, the talent show was taht night and it was so much fun! It was so funny, the first act was hilarious! There were a bunch of boys (Including Jarred... not that I care) and there were about eight of them, so four of them were the boys, and the otehr four were the girls, and the girls had dressed up in the funniest ways! It was hilarious! And they did the funniest dance evr! OMG it was hilarious!!! Anywho, that night when the maddi had lef to say goodnight, our whole cabin fell asleep within the next 10 minutes, it was so weird because the first nioght we were like the only cabin awake, and and then the next night we were like the only cabin asleep. I enjoyed my sleep though, I slept like a log. The weird thing though was that I was a lot more tired the second night, I had like, no energy at all the next morning. Anywho, the bus ride back was still pretty fun, but it was nowhere near to as fun as the first bus ride. While we were waiting for the busses to take us home again, I saw the weirdest thing! It was a wall, that looked exactly the same as the wall from the cover of the album Pink Floyd The Wall!!! The only difference was the fact that it was grey and not white, I'm telling you it looked exactly the same. Speaking of Pink Floyd, JOSH SHER HAS A SHIRT THAT SAYS PINK FLOYD THE WALL!!!! How unfair is that??????!!!!!! I am so jealouse!!!! Anyway, I got home and I played guitar, I can't believe I'm saying this but, it wasn't as refreshing. I mean, I seriously seriously love my guitar, but it wasn't as much fun as the electric, I love acoustic though, if I ever get an electric guitar (I might get one for my birthday), then I will seriously hate myself if I play on it more than my acoustic. Speaking of my birthday, it's in 19 DAYS!!! IM SO EXCITED! I'm much more excited for Valentines day though, It's in 10 days time! It's going to be amazing, I can't waaaaaaaaiiiiiiiit!!!! Well, I am pretty bored here, so I think I am just going to head off now, so bye! IT's great to be back.

There are so many things that I am doubting. Let me start from the beginning of my day and then I'll get on to the doubtful part. Anyway, today was the crappiest day of all days! School was terrible, extra mural was terrible, waiting for Ruth was terribl eand when I got home it was terrible! I didn't think it sounded so bad, but now that I look at it, there were about 2 things good about my day. So I went to school, and I forgot to put in something yesterday, ya I got 53% on my Maths test, I completely suck! I can't believe that I got such a bad mark! I really thought I had done well on that test, I just can't believe it. Anyway, for practically the whole of today I had to listen to how every other person in my grade got in the 60% scores and up! Why, of all tests did I have to mess up on that one? They are probably now going to move me a class down, and I am already in the second lowest class! URGH! Anyway, I also found out that I suck in Afrikaans too. I saw the sheet that shows where evryone sits that Mev. Pearce was holding, it was just a sheet so that she remembered the names and so that she remembered where evryone sits, anyway, she was holding it and and it was kind of flipping over, and I noticed something written next to my name, I couldn't quite make it out at first and then I think, I'm not sure but I'm probably right, I just think that I saw the word "tutorial" right next to it. So we got our sheets back and I found out I did terribly horrible on that too. About 5 minutes before the lesson ended, Mev. Pearce handed out these sheets that were called "Tutorial sheets" and it was for people who wanted to go to like, extra Afrikaans lessons, so that's what I think was written next to my name, tutorial, because she thinks that I need to go to extra Afrikaans lessons, I was practically about to cry! Anyway, the next few lessons had passed and thenwe finally came up to sport (P.E), and that was proablby the worst lesson of all time! I had also then realized that I had left my towel at home, but Ron said she would let me borrow hers. When I got in Mr. Brawson made us do 4 lengths with the different swimming strokes and I kept having to stop because I kept swallowing water and I kept choking. I also found myself being unable to breathe, I don't know why, but I was just not breathing properly, I don't know what it was! I don't have Asthma, and it is not the first time that it has happened. Last year at S.O.S Camp, we had to do this race thing and I just couldn't breathe! I felt like I was having a heart attack, it's just the worst feeling you could ever have. So Mr. B called me up from out of the pool (I was coming last with all the choking and the being unable to breathe) and he asked me why I was coughing so much, so I told him my story, and he was pretty nice about it, I don't think I like him very much though, even though is is funny. Anyway, after that we had to do these leg up things and that was pretty hard. So I got out of the pool, to find my shirt missing! I had searched everywhere, then when it had finally come to the next lesson, Saul had said that heprobably had it, and he did have it. I also thought that I had lost my glasses but then I soon found out that they were just in my bag. I didn't have much time to eat at break, it's not like I was going to anyway, but still. I had to go to this meeting thing for Netball, just to find out the days that we were going to do the audition thing, you know, to find out who was on the team or not, and I was the only one with an extra mural on a tuesday (I have creative writing, and today is Tuesday) so they decided that I have to miss two lessons of Creative Writing just for this netball thing taht isn't even this term! URGH! I love creative writing, why would they take that away from me? And besides, I don't want to leave Isabel by herself, well, I guess she kind of deserves it, I mean she didn't come today and I was by myself, so I had to pear up with an older dude from grade 9. There were only 4 of us there because other people couldn't make it. It wasn't easy to pear up with him, I had great ideas in my head but I'm not going to share them with some guy from grade 9. Anyway, today in creative writing we did this weird thing. I found out that our teacher for Creative writing, Ms Hanson, is unable to write in jou- OMG I HATE MY MOM! She just interruped me by saying "You know you can tell me anything right?" and I said yes, but I can't and then she hugged me and it made me uncomfortable! I just HATE HER SO MUCH! I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER IHATE HER I HHHHHAAATTTEE HEERRR!!!!!!!1 uRGH!!!! Why does she have to make my life so much harder!!!!! She caused this huge fight tonight! Like she does every other night, but I'll tell you about that later. Anyway, where was I before I was rudely interrupted by the person I hate even more than Side? Oh right, my teacher is unable to write in a journal daily or weekly, she only writes wen she feels the need. I feel the need every night because I need to express how |I feel about living with the two suckiest people on Earth! (My mom and Emily, Emily obviously takes after my mom). Anyway, after creative writing I had to wait an hour for Ruth, who was at ballet, with my mom who wouldn't stop annoying me! She was talking to me about such crap, like something about which colour I wanted to be in her diary and stuff! I like to be quiet and I hate talking to her, why doesn't she get that?!!! I can't believe I had to wait so long, it was so boring and agonising! So now I will tell you about the fight my mopm started. So I was packing for camp tomorrow (i'll tell more about that later), and my dad comes into my room ans said I must use Ruth's camerea instead of my own one because he didn't know where my ones charger was (It's out of batteries), so my mom comes in and demands him to find it, and my dad says he will go and buy me a new charger, but I said so , I didn't need it. My mom ends up shouting at my dad and blaming everything on my dad and she forces him to come and apologise to me! And it may sound like a small fight bu I left some parts out because I have to go to bed soon. Anyway, it was jut so hectic. Which reminds me, last night my mom finds out that my bra was dirty and she just flips out and starts screaming and takes my phone away and switches off the computer, and then I went to go lie in bed to go to sleep because I was angry, so my mom forces my dad to come and talk to me, so he is sitting there and speaking when my mom barges in and starts shouting at me again, and so she then just decides to like, hit my dad, but it was so hard I could hear the smack, it was practically a punch! Anyway, she hits him and storms off! And then I kept trying to go to sleep but my mom keeps coming up to me and sitting on my bed and keeps talking to me! And it was just so annoying! I keep telling myself every night (because she always starts something every night) that I will not let anything make me smile tomorrow because I am always pretty upset the night before, but then what happens? I get to school and I'm all happy again. I mean sure not today because today school was the suckiest day on this planet, but other days, and I just hate being happy when something like that has happened to me. The thing I hate most though is the fact that the next mornign my mom says sorry and I am pretty much forced to forgive her, even though I know it's going to happen that night once again. Okay so let me start with the things I am having doubts with. People keep saying that Klitah (the camp I am going to tomorrow) is going to be so much fun, but I am seriously not looking forward to it. e don't get any free time, we are forced to go to bed at 11 and then wake up again at 5, and then we are going to be excersicing the whole day and we will only be having lunch at 12:30! Surely we must have some free time, I mean, theres shower time, and theres tuckshop time, you know, if we don't want any tuckshopwe can use that as our free time, or if we are finished showering, we can use that as free time too. Wll, I just hope so, it's just going to be the worst camp of all time! I am really really really not looking foreward to it. So I was on facebook today (of course) and Jared Berman started talking to me, and he said "I'm getting Teagan a box of lind chocolates" And I said "Oh cool, for Valentines Day??" and he said "Ya", so then I said "You should also give her a card, cards are always sweet" and he said "Okay ,ad I am giving something to you too" so I said "Me???" and he said "Ya" so I said "Why???" and he said "Nvm, I gtg eat supper now" so the other thing I am doubting is that he is actually going to give me a Valentines Day present, I mean, he said he would, but I don't think he will (not that I care). I just don't understand, he has never had a conversation with me face to face. Well, anyway... I better go to bed now, I have to getu p really early tomorrow morning. Oh wait I have one more thing to say. So I was starting to watch The Middle today without my sisters, so they started shouting at me and saying that they always wait for me with everything. So I watched it with them a few minutes later, and then they had said " Oh I have already seen this one". Now I know for sure that I hadn't seen that opne at all, so they were shouting at me and screaming at me, when hthey had watched it without me already! They are bitches and I hate them. Oh which reminds me, Sidne greeted us today by saying "Hello bitches" And I think that is retarded, I seriously haet her!!!! URGH! Well, I hope tomorrow goes better, Oh ya, I forgot to say taht it is my granny'sbirthday today as well :) So happy b-day to her! Okay now I really need to go, bye!

I am really taking a liking to this song Dream On by Aerosmith. It's so cool, it's like the coolest song ever! It's so good, and only now I realize that they sing it in Glee, they do sing some good songs in Glee, it's not like it's always terrible songs, it is most of the time, but not all the time. Speaking of horrible music... I went to Grant and Haydens barmi until 8:00 and then for the rest of the time I went to Isabellas, her's was much better! No offence to Grant and Haydens, but seriously their DJ sang to every song that he played. Even the crappy modern ones. Anyway, I had a lot of fun at Isabellas, it was so much fun! I danced to the four songs, "Time Warp", "Cha Cha Slide", "Y.M.C.A" and "Cotton Eye Joe". Those are the ones where they already have moves for yout o dance to, and they are fun to dance to. It was pretty cool, but apparently we missed out on a lot in the begining, it was okay though because I was just sipping on my slushy, I love those, they are soooo good! It was really weird though, because at the batti, Johnathan came to sit next to me and Sean was sitting on the couch nect to me, you know, talking to a Grade 7, anyway, Johnathan was talking to me (I didn't say much) about how we spoke on facebook last year about how he liked me and stuff, so Sean deicides to be "funny" and says "Well I'm Sarah-jo's boyfriend". I smiled because I knew he was joking, but Johnathan was acting like he was about to beat him up. Sean was pretty stupid to say that knowing that Johnathan was like the toughest guy in school, I seriously hate Johnathan. Anyway, it was so awkward for me because then Sean starting asking what Johnathan liked about me, and he said "I like how she doesn't dance, and she is very pretty around the face area" (I mean who says that?" Anyway, it was really awkward. Finally Ron came and I made a break for it. I saw Jarred Berman there (not that I care). Speaking of Jarred Berman, I didn't get an invitation to his barmi (not that I care) I know what you are thinking, why would I meantion it if I didn't care? Well the answer is simple... I'm just stating a fact, I do that a lot. Well I don't need an invite for his barmi, I got one for Deej's barmi, so HA! I htought we wer friends now though... I mean, he was even smsing me this morning. Oh well, I don't care anyway. When I got to school this morning I only then realized that I had left my key for my locker at home, so I had to use those big plyer type things to open it, it was pretty cool, but it was also really hard because my lock was so small, well I wouldn't know because I couldn't do it, I let Liat try but she couldn't do it either so then when David Hrr tried it actually worked. Everyone was crowded around my locker, but I didn't feel embarresed, I guess I don't get embarresed by much anymore. Last night my parents said that I looked rediculous in my converses, but my friends said it looked cool, so obviously they never knew what they were talking about. Even if my friends didn't say it looked cool, it wouldn't have mattered much to me, I will wear what I want. If I'm not embarrased by it, nobody else should be either. I can't believe that from tomorrow, it will be 23 days until my birthday! I can't wiat! But I am much more excited for Valentines day, it's going to be so exciting, if I don't get one from a guy, then at least I will get one form a friend. I just love Valentines day so much! (Excuse the pun). OMG I can't believe what I got told today! We had to drop off Emily at the orthadontist because she is getting her braces off in a month, so my mom asked to check mine and Ruth's teeth just to see if we would need braces or not, and I found out I NEED BRACES! How stupid are they trying to make me look|? It's bad enough I have glasses, but now glasses AND braces??? WHYYYYYYY??????????????????? URGH I am so annoyed with that! I can't believe I have to get braces! My teeth aren't even scew! Okay, maybe one or two are, but I mean seriously, who really cares? (sigh) Just make my life a living hell why don't you?! Anyway, I think I am finished everything I need to say except for the fact that Ruth still hasn't gotten my art picture, so, bye!

I know what people will say, they will say I look rediculous in my shoes, but I don't care. You see, I'm wearing this dress (yuk) and it's all pretty and girly, and then if you lookd down, you will see my broken, worn out dirty converses, and my parents say it's rediculous, but I don't care. I just want to have a bit of tomboyness in my life tonight, is that really too much to ask? It's not like it affecting anyone, and if I don't care other people shouldn't care either. I don't see why I should be embarrased by it, it's unusual, but I don't care. If people was to crittecise, let them. I heard the song Let It Be on the radio today, and that is exactly what I like to think. "Let it be" I'm in a dress tonight because I'm going to a bar and bat mitzvah, yes, two in one night. I am going to Isabella's for the first hour and 15 minutes, and then I'm going to Grant and Haydens for the last few hours, I'm going to Grant and Haydens for longer because I've known them for much longer and they are much better friends with me than Isabella, and also because my mom said those exact words to me when I asked her if I could stay at Isabellas for 2 hours and Grant and Haydens for 2 hours. She won't let me. It doesn't matter though, at least at Grant and Haydens I will be have someone to talk to while everyone else is dancing to the crap they call music. Today wasn't so bad. First we had to drop Emily off at Kirstenboch because.. Well... I don't know what that was about, and we were origonally going to go to see a movie, but we didn't, instead we went to go play Putt Putt in Muzeburg. Anyway, I have to go now, but I might come again after the barmi and batti. Anywho, tata