I am freaking out, my stomach has butterflies and I keep shaking! I am just so nervous for tomorrow, I did find out that we are hardly doing any work for the first day and I don't need to bring my folders and my books and stuff, just my school diary and my stationary and stuff like that. It's pretty early now but it would be best if I went to bed early. I just can't get over that I'm going to be in a new enviroment tomorrow! It's all just so... New. I don't know, it's just going to be weird. Today I went to get my passport photo taken, I'm not going anywhere, but I need it for school. I also went and got some new folders. Anyway, we had a nice lunch today, we went to Primi Piatti and I had the usual. My mom couldn't get me another drink though, not sure why. I was thinking today, and I realized, I am seriously not good at guitar. I only know like 20 good songs, and I keep playing them over and over again. I need more expierience, there are people in my grade that are much better than me, and they keep learning new things, and I just sit there playing the same old stuff I always play. I sure do love my music, and I absolutely love playing guitar, but what's the point in loving something that never changes? That sounds stupid, but really, I just love it si much. I love music more than I love my own mother, I know that sounds bad, but it's true. I don't think I'm going to be writing on here much when school starts, I don't know, unless something out of the ordinary happens, I'll definietly keep coming on to look at other people's journals though. They are never interesting, they are always aobut people who are depressed and they always write thinkg that make absolutely no sense. I just don't get why mine is so much different to theirs, well, I guess it's because I'm younger so I probably just don't know when to shut up. Anywho, I think I am going to go to bed now. Wish me luck for tomorrow! PLEASE! bye :)

I woke up so early this morning. Well, I did say I wanted to, but only because Isabel wakes up so early and I didn't want her to have to wait for me like she did the last time, she said she had waited three hours the last time, not she only waited an hour. I woke up at 8:00! Well, first I woke up at 6:00 then i woke up again saying the word crap in my head because I thought it was really late, when it actually turned out to be 7:00! Then I went back to sleep again because Isabel still wasn't awake and I woke up at 8:00 to find Isabel watching TV. I just hope that it doesn't interfear with my normal sleeping pattern, I just want to wake up late like I normally do, is that really so much to ask? I just feel a little annoyed today I guess, it's probably just because I'm tired. Isabel and I spent the whole of last night thinking of what to write in out email that we were going to send to Ian Somerhalder. It took us so long and it was a pretty long email, I sure do hope that he replies, that weould be the coolest thing ever, we did ask him questions so he would have something to say when he replyed. Anyway, it would be a dream come true for him to reply to that email, well, he probably won't, but theres no harm in hoping is there? Isabel wrote the whole thing out and then I checked it and then she by mistake clicked on this button, and it completely erased the whole email, so then she had to type it out again (we were doing all this while watching Vampire Diaries) and then when I clikced send, it wouldn't send it because his Inbox was already full, so Isabel is going to send it some other time. The barmitzvah was pretty fun last night, well I had fun, I didn't dance but I had fun talking and catching up with all of my friends. I was talking to Emma, Dylan, David, Kyle and Josh P. It was cool, I miss talking to them, it had been so long and they always manage to make me laugh. I started singing this one really crappy song, but I was only mocking it, and of course they questioned me again and I'm sure they now believe taht I actually like that stuff. I don't need to proove anything to them, they can believe what ever they chose to, I know the truth and it doesn't bother me what they think. Well, it kind of bothers me a little, I mean honestly, why would I like something like that?! Anyway, at the barmi the food was great, we got pizza and then we got McDonalds chips, I sure do love those chips. There was nothing nice to drink though, I hate coke, it makes my teeth feel all weird. Anyway, Isabel's mom came to fetch us like half an hour early, which I was a little disappointed with, but nowhere near to as disappointed as Isabel. i don't know why she gets so embarassed about her parents like that. So I came back from isabel at 2:30 and I went staright home. I found out that Sidne wanted me to go to her, but I just said no. I can't take it anymore, I need my days off for the last few days before school, how can they even want me to be with them? I completely hate arrangements, that's why I never invite people over to my house, I never ask of invite, I always get asked and invited, and I just hate it. It is just so much easier to my friends at school where there's a whole bunch of them and we are not one on one. Hmm, maybe that's why I don't like arrangements, maybe I just don't like being one on one. Probably not, I really do like to be by myself, or maybe it's just the fact that I don't actually enjoy being around the people who ask me. I guess it's a bit of both. I spent an hour today sorting out my music on the computer, I'm nowhere near to done, I wasn't on facebook or on the internet at all actually, it was just my music and I. I was playing a bit of basketball with my sisters and Zoe (Ruth's friend), and it was pretty fun. I was on a team with Emily and Ruth and Zoe were on a team. We beat them of course, I'm not trying to boast or anything, I mean, there's nothing really to boast about but they had no chance, a 12 year old and a 15 year old on one team, and two 10 year olds on the other, honestly. But at least we all had fun, I am so unfit. I have to share a room with Emily tonight, it's a long story... Not really though, I just say that because I don't feel like explaining. Anyway, I'm not looking forward to sharing a room with her. I just finished watching The Globe Awards thing, I'm not too sure what it's called, well, I didn't finish watching it, but it's recorded so I'll just finish it tomorrow. It was pretty cool, I saw Johnny Depp, I love him, he is so awesome.Anyway, it's pretty late now. I was actually going to go to bed at about 10:15, but then I heard that my sister and my dad were watching the Golden Globe wards (that's what it's called, I just remembered), so I got lured in and started watching it with them, and now it's pretty late. I'm not even in my pajamas yet, so, I'm off to bed now. Night :)

Tonight is Aaron Shers barmitzvah, and I'm quite excited to see all of my friends again. It's going to be fun, and best of all, I am not wearing a dress! Yay! Apparently it's going to be cold because the barmi is outside but I highly doubt I am going to get cold, if anything I will be boiling hot! Well, I won't be dancing, unless they decide to play my favourite song which I seriously doubt, since it's a disco party and they play the crappiest music of all time. What has gotten into people these days? What ameks them think that the so called music they play is actually good. It's not even music, it's just all electronic and the songs tahta re not electronic just have no skill in their songs. Well, I guess that is just my opinion, other people have their minds brainwashed and think that the noise with a sound they call music is actually good. I have been listening to the song War A LOT! It's such an amazing song! And just like Another brick in the wall, I have brought it upon my friends who now love it too. I am going to sleep at Isabel tonight, which I seriously don't want to do, I know I say taht a lot and then it turns out fine but I really don't want to do this one. Anyway, that is why I'm writing here so early, because I won't be able to tonight. I didn't do much today, I just sat around like I normally do and I watched TV and listened to music and played on my guitar and went on the computer and stuff. That's really all I do these days I guess. Anywho, I don't have much to say because i didn't do much today. Yesterday, my dad and my sister gotso pissed off with me, they just can't take a joke! I don't understand why my dad gets angry because I'm really only messiong with Ruth. I punched her yesterday for touching my guitar, but it wasn't hard, it was just a light punch on the arm, she wasn't even crying, but I still go into trouble because she went and told on me, oh well. My dad threatened to take my guitar away if I did it again, I highly doubt he will so I'm not really going to take it so seriously, but if she touches it again, I will punch her again. It's not like I didn't warn her, I litterally told her if she touches my guitar I would punch her, she just didn't want to listen. I am so completely bored. My mom want's me to shower now and it's only 5:25! The barmitzvhah starts at 7:00, I will just wait another like 15 or 20 minutes before I go shower. Anyway, I am so bored right now, so I better just go pack my bag so I can go to Isabel. Bye

Well, it's pretty early in the morning, but oh well, I guess my sleeping times for school isn't really working out for me. I figures it's all going to be okay after all, I have stopped worrying so much about it, beside everyone else is going to have to go through the same things I am, so they probably have just as much problems as I do, in fact, they probably have a lot more problems than I do. I always thought of myself as the girl with the most problems in my life, with the poverty, the parents fighting every night, the people telling me I'm pretty stupid and the being uglier than most of the girls, but I have realized that if I look at Isabel, she has do deal with school, poverty, her dad is really sick and she can't really afford the meds, and she has relationship problems, and then theres Liat, who has school, poverty, her dad is dead, she has been through so much trauma and she has a pretty tight schedule. Now that I think about it, there is so much poverty going on in the world, I just can't stand it. Speaking of Liat, she cam to me today (I know it's actually yesterday, but just bear with me okay?) anyway, she came to me today and I just had the worst time. Well, it wasn't THAT bad, but I didn't exactly enjoy it. It was pretty boring, we didn't do much. I found out yesterday that she has her period, shame, I don't see why she would want to be at my house while having her period, I wouldn't want to be NEAR anyone. Anyway, today was just incredibly boring. I didn't wake up as late as I had hoped to, but that's okay, we can't have everything that we want. Before we went to go fetch Liat my dad and I went to Canal Walk and I got a new Archie Comic, I sure do love my Archoe comics. A perfect day to me would be reading an Archoe comic when I wake up with music playing and it's cloudy and raining outside. I love those type of days, well, only when it's like a weekend or something. I was seriously hyper tonight while I was talking to Dylan and Storme and Erin. I don't know why though... It may have had something to do with that packet of sweets I ate, but probably not. Anyway, I was listening to this really amazing song and I think it could be my favourite one. It's called War by The Temptations. I just love it so much, it's got one of the greatest beats ever and it has such a great meaning and it gives out such a good message. You know how I was saying that it was by the Jam and how they sang it all horribly? Well, I found out that it's not by the Jam and the other artists who sang it sing it brilliantly, just like it was in Gullivers Travels, and I just love that song to bits! It was really funny though, because I'm pretty funny when I'm hyper and on the computer. If you don't believe me, ask my friends who have witnessed it (not taht you would). Anyway, I really think the song had something to do with me being hyper, it happens to me all the time when I hear a song that I love, I just get, excited I guess, and the excitedness leads to being hyper. I watched The Soloist again this morning, but this time I watched it with Emily and Ruth. They didn't want to watch it at all but they weren't watching anything on TV yet they were sitting there playing on the computer, so they didn't have much of a choice. Anyway, when I paused it to get something to drink to go with my amazing breakfast (fried eggs, toast and maken) Emily started saying that she really liked the movie. I don't think she understood it much in the beginning, but I think she got around to it. I sure do love that movie, I'm not sure if it's true or not though, I'll look it up on Google tomorrow. Adam has just been so flipping annoying with me, he keeps phoning me and smsing me, and I don't answer or reply back, but he still keeps trying. Well, he was for two days, I think he finally got the picture and he stopped trying, He is just so annoying, I know it sounds horrible of me, but Ijust wish he would stop bothering me. He smsed me to say how much he liked me and if I feel the same way about him, I don't know why he would even think that I felt the same way about him, I completely hate him! I just hope he's not in my class this year, I also hope he doesn't annoy me at Aaron Shers barmitzvah, if he does, I just don't know what I'm going to do. I still don't know what I'm wearing to the barmi, I guess I don't have to wear a dress, I completely hate wearing dresses, but it's just in respect for the barmi/batti girl/boy. I don't see why I need to be respectful when they don't even care, why would they care what I am wearing? I am kind of stupid thinking that anyone would notice anyway, believe me, it's not like I am the life of the party. Anywho, I think I better go to bed *checks time* WOW, my parents are gonna be pissed, anywho, bye :)

You know how last night I said I was going to go to bed early? Well, that didn't really work out so well for me. I got into bed at 11:15, and ended up going to sleep at 1:30 AM. I was going crazy, I started crying twice, I just don't knwow hat it was but I couldn't fall asleep. I sat up at about 12 and I went to go get some juice which I had two glasses of, and then I tried to go to sleep again but still couldn't so I ended up drawing in my book, I'm telling you, there is something wrong with me. I don't suffer from insomnia because this is like the first time it's happened to me, well it's happened to me before but only for like 20 minutes, but now it was two whole dreadful hours. I can't believe I started crying, what does this mean? I know it sounds crazy but I kind of hope it will happen again tonight because I just want to tell my parents that I am too tired to let Liat come and play at me tomorrow. I seriously do NOT want her to come, it's going to completely ruin my day! I hate arrangements and sleepovers, I just hate them. Well, I have fun with Isabel, but other then that I completely hate them. They are just so awkward, especially if the friend is coming to my house. I have nothing against my house, it's just I hate it when they come, there's nothing to do here except watch TV or play on the computer, well, nothing tht my friends would be interested in. Especially Liat, it will just be so awkward, we will probably end up just talking most of the time. I guess the only thing that bothers me is that she is coming for so long, she's coming at 1:30 and then leaving at 6:00!!! SIX WHOLE HOURS! Believe me, they will not go by quickly. I tried on the dresses my sister gave me for the barmitzvah in two days time, I hate them. They just don't look nice on me, they make me look like a nun in some type of way. I guess I'll just go in my jeans and my black shirt. I can't decide whether I'm excited or not about sleeping over at Isabel that night, and then Sidne wants me to sleep at her again the next night, I just hate it all! I don't want Liat to come, I don't want to go to Isabel and I don't want to go to Sidne! I want my days off! Why do they get so bored with themselves that they have to call someone to play or sleep over, and why me? Of all people, me! I don't know, maybe I'm just crancky from the night I had. Anyway, fingers crossed that I have a temperature. I bought my new school shoes today, they are hideous! I don't understand why they are even making us wear stupid shoes, and why now? If you are goiong to make us wear them, start from greade 1, not years into school. Everyone was perfectly happy wearing their own shoes, why did they have togo and ruin that for us, it was the only thing we got to wear willingly. Urgh! Well, at least we had a choice between the shoes, I got the nicest ones, well to me they were the nicest ones. The other ones were just way too hideous to even consider. I just hate them! I hate the fact that school is starting soon! I hate the fact that I have to start going to bed earlier! I hate the fact that I'm not going to know anything to do with the school grounds! I'm just so... Nervous. Well, I guess everyone is. I better get going to bed now before I type on this until it's 12:00, so 'night.

My mom is just being so horrible! I seriously hate her! You probably think that I am just saying that I hate her but I really love her, well that is not how it is. You don't know what I have been through my whole life, ever since I can remember with her. She has caused so much pain and trouble and fighting in our family and then she just puts all the blame for it on us three children. She always says she never does anything wrong when it's really only her that does everything. I'm tlling you, my life would be so much better if she just left our fsmily and got devorced with my dad, if she ever decides to be nice and do that, I am definitely chosing to live with my dad. I'm pretty sure my friends are scared of her, but her and my friends are just a whole other story. She is just such a bitch to my dad, she hits him sometimes... How can he still love her? She is always starting fights with him, yet he still loves her, how is that even possible? It's all just so confusing! My friends don't understand, they always see me looking sad or something and they ask why, but what am I supposed to tell them? My mom is just the worst thing that has ever happened to me? What would they think if I said that to them. Yes, that is what best friends are for, but I don't think I have any best friends, just really really good friends and they are mostly boys, I only have one very good friend which is a girl and that is Isabel, she would be the closest thing to a best friend for me, but I can't even tell her my secrets. Well I guess that's just my problem, I have trusted her once with my very deep secrets and she just went and said it out loud, and I have also told Sidne my secrets and she just went and said them out loud too, it's their fault I never trust anybody anymore. Speaking of Isabel, I actually had a really good time at her. We talked aobut all different things and I love it when I have those kind of talks with friends. We watched the next four episodes of Vampire Diaries, now I completely hate those vampire stories as much as the next person, but I don't know why it is that I like Vampire Diaries. When I woke up at Isabel, it was 5:00! Then I fell asleep again and I woke up at 6:00 and then I fell asleep once again and woke up at 10:00 which I feel a little bad for because Isabel had been awake for 3 hours. Her mom said something that really surprised me, but I don't think she actually meant it because it was really meant to just be an excuse so Ron wouldn't have to sleep at her. She said "Sarah-jo got to sleep over because she is like family" That really got me thinking, I have only been to sleep at her about two times, so I'm not quite sure if she actually meant it or not. I am really trying to go to bed early tonight, you know, just to get in the habit of it so I won't be horribly tired when I get woken up for the first day of school. I am so nervous for school, I am seriously freaking out, but I don't know why. I should be feeling excited now because I found out that you actually get a map on the first day so I won't be lost, well, unless I forget where my locker is. That is another thing, I really want to see what the lockers look like because I want those type of lockers that have those slits at the top, you know, just in case it's Valentinse Day and someone wants to give me a card, I know, it's crazy, but still. I don't know why I think of those things, I know they are never going to happen. While my mom was being horrible tonight, she told me that I can't play on the computer and that I should be more involved with the family. She said to do that I must stop going on the computer and I must.. Dare I say it... Stop listening to music! She doesn't understand me, she says she knows me better than anyone, she doesn't though. She doesn't even know that I am a tomboy, or that I am not comfortable with the little talks she has with me, she doesn't know that I'm not the kissy huggy type and she doesn't know I like to be by myself sometimes. What she knows about me is my name and the music Ilisten to. She doesn't understand how impotant my music is to me, I almost start crying when I hear a song I love. I guess most people don't understand my type of music, how can they not see the art in Pink Floyd and The Rollings Stines and Supertramp and Kiss and Queen and all that other amazing rock art. But I just can't do this one thing she has asked me to, I can't stop listening to my music, I refuse. Anyway, I hope I made this easier for all of you to read, I'm not sure weather I like the fact that people I don't know are reading my journal, hmmm, as long as it's not a family member of any type or a friend of person I know, I guess I do kind of like the fact that I have someone to tell this to, someone who doesn't know me and someone I don't know. Well, I best be off, so goodnight (if I can ever get to sleep by going to bed as early as this).

So in about half an hour I'm going off to sleep at Isabel, which I really don't mind, the only thing aobut sleep overs is that we can never decide on what to do, I guess that won't be much of a problem though. Anyway, today we went to Canal Walk and I got an Archie Comic and a Bruce Springsteen CD which is pretty cool. We had luch at Primi Piatti and Emily saw her two teachers there, which got me thinking about school. I am so nervous, I am seriously freaking out! I just hope I'm not in the same class as Adam, he phoned me again today but I didn't pick up, he just annoys me to death and I seriously can't stand him. Anyway, I was just writing on here today because... Well, I just had the time and I was bored and I knew I wasn't going to be able to tonight so, ya. Well, I better go pack my bag for Isabel, so... bye

Well, I woke up once again late, I sure do say that a lot don't I? Well, maybe next time instead of saying I woke up late I will only mention the time I wake up if it's an early time. Anyway, so when I went to see what my sisters were watching TV, I found them watching The Princess and the Frog. I noticed this really cool part in the movie, when Dr. Facelier (The evil "shadow Man" who by the way is my favourite character) was singing the song I've Got Friends on the Other Side, and there is this one part when... Well I can't really explain it, but he sings the part "I hope you're satisfied" and it's just the coolest part in the whole movie. My sisters are obsessed with that movie, I wouldn't be surprised to see them watching it again tomorrow morning. Anyway, I found out that tomorrow morning I have to go get my school shoes, which I really don't want to do. Why do I also have to go? Well I guess I don't want my mom to get the wrong shoes. I hate the fact that we even have to get new school shows, I mean, why is it so neccessary? I think it is copletely stupid, as if there wasn't enough money we already have to spend on school, which I really think I'm going to have a hard time at on the first day. What if I get lost? That sure would suck! Oh well, if everyone else has done it before me, I'm sure I can manage it too. So about 20 minutes into the movie, my mom phones and tells us to get dressed (she wasn't there at the time) so we can go see the movie I have been waiting days to see. Gullivers Travels, I think the highlight of the movie was the soundtrack. it wasn't such a bad movie, I quite enjoyed it, but there were some pretty good songs in there, other than the crap ones like the Lady Gaga one. There was this one song in the end which I thought they performed so well that I had to look up the song and hear it. It turns out that the band that sings it sucks! It's called War by The Jam, and the way Jack Black sang it was so much better! I was a little disappointed. What really sucked about the movie was that the movie theatre had no cup holders! My drink was leaking all over my shirt and my phone, but soon enough my mom got us all those boxes that hold your popcorn and your drink and your sweet for you, which was nice. Anyway, after the movie we went to get ice-cream, well it was from Marcells so technically it was frozen yogurt, but still. So I got home and went to read my Archie comics in my room, and when I came back I found my sisters watching The Princess and the Frog again! Anyway, I got to watch the cool part with the Shadow Man so I was satisfied, See what I did there? You know, 'Cause he says in the part "I hope you're satisfied" Well, I think it's pretty clever (not really though). Anyway, I was on facebook and Isabel started talking to me and she said " I have something scary to tell you " so I said what any other person would say and she told me that she likes Deej! How cut eis that? She told me that she had a dream about him kissing her, and when she woke up she felt disappointed! I told her that it was so cute and she said that she didn't want to like him because I used to like him and she thought it would be mean, but I told her " My thing was very small, and I am completely okay with it! I think it's very cute" And I thought it was nice that she kind of checked with me before, she didn't have to though. I don't really feel like that anymore about Deej, I don't really know though, it doesn't seem to bother me that she likes him, so I must be over him already. I just want to find out who he likes, I told Isabel I would try to find out for her. She said that he likes Emma, which he could, but I'm not so sure he does. Well, maybe he does, but she has a boyfriend, so she can't really act on it. Anyway, after the long chat with Isabel she asked if I would sleep at her tomorrow and I said yes, even though I really don't want to. I seriously don't like sleeping over at people, especially if I go to them as early as the time I'm going to her (I'm going to her at 2:00) I don't know why, I'm just not the type of person who likes sleepovers or arrangements, I just want to stick with seeing them at school. Well, I guess it will be fun, we are going to watch the Vampire Diaries which will be awesome. She seems to have become obsessed with it, and I don't know why, but I hate it. Vampire Diaries was my thing, and now she just comes along and takes it away from me, well Rachel also liked it and we had fun talking about it together, but Isabel is just obsessed, and I feel like she has taken the only thing that was kind of mine away from me. I don't have anything to myself now. Music- Dylan (which I am okay with) guitar- practically everyone but Isabel has also taken that away from me because now apparently she can play guitar and she "doesn't go for lessons" but her mom teaches her (how is that not going for lessons of you are getting taught by a person?) running- Dean, Kieranand David, writing- Isabel, Glee- Sidne and Liat, baseball- Kayla and Sidne, Archie comics- Brendan, Art- Grant and Sidne, need I go on? Anyway, I feel like I just don't have anything to myslef. Anyway, I made a new CD today, which had pretty cool songs. So I found out that that story about Phil Collins and his friend drowning and that thing sbout Pink Floyd and the racism in the song Comfortably Numb was all just a lie, what was I expecting? I guess I just wanted to know something about music that nobody else knew, that didn't work so well for me. I might as well just be that normal girl who doesn't know much about music or anything else for that matter. You know what? I do have something to myself! I bothered to look up those things aobut music, which shows something, I have a passion for music like no other person in my grade, and I am knowledgeable about it, the other people sure don't understand it like I do. And look at me, I'm not really pretty or smart, but that doesn't matter to me because I would much rather hang out with guys who appreciate the other stuff about me than hang out with the girls who just make fun of me aobut it, I am a good tomboy. So there you have it, I have the passion for music to myself, and the being a tomboy to myself. I guess I do have things that not only I, but other people can apreciate.

Well, since I didn't write on here yesterday the reason being I slep at Kayla, I will start off by telling you what happened yesterday. So I did the usual in the morning, woke up late and all. It took us a few minutes to decide what to do because we once again didn't go see a movie, but we came to a decision that we were going to go to the Lion Farm. We didn't see much there, in fact, it was so boring and that wasn't the only reason I hated it. While I was there, I kep feeling like I was going to faint, like I needed something to drink urgently or I was going to faint, at one point I even felt a little dizzy, now I'm not going to take that seriously though, because I'm sure it happened to all of us. I'm sure I veen heard Emily say she felt like she was about to faint, it was most probably just the heat, I mean, it was really hot. So we spend about half an hour there, and the lions were pretty cool, pparently there was a white lion there, but we didn't get to see it. I've always wanted to see a white lion, well, i saw a picture of it so I guess it sort of counts. I also once read a book called The White Lion in Grade 5, and I really enjoyed that book too, but in the end it got kind of pointless. Anyway, after the Lion Farm we did eventually get something to drink, so I got a little cooled off by that. Then we went to have lunch at this one place nearby, which I really enjoyed, it was such a nice vibey place, and there was this guy playing guitar who I seriously couldn't stop staring at, he was really really good. I thought to myself, "How great would it be if I could be doing that some day" But I don't think I'm good enough, and besides, he was probably well known because he wasn't South African.He was brittish, and what he did was he would sing and play guitar, but have the drums and the other stuff on a CD so that he could play and sing along to the song, and he did play great songs. The food there was also really good, and apparently there was a wedding going on there, I would love to have my wedding there. I would love to play guitar there. Oh well, I guess we can't have everything we dream for. The whole time my parents were asking me if I was okay, why do they always think I'm sad? Maybe I do look sad, but I'm really not, I hate it when people think I'm sad. It was funny though because on the way out, my mom tried to hug me and I tried to get away from her, and she said to me "Must I start calling you Axl from now on?" We both laughed, and it was weird because I was litterally thinking of The Middle that day. I was thinking of the three kids who would be who, like, I thought I would be Axl, Emily would be Sue and Ruth would be Brick. Anyway, after the amazing lunch I was told we were going to the Crocodile farm, which I was not looking forward to, but when we got there it wasn't so bad, only because the guy who gave us a tour was really funny. So when we got back from that I had to quickly shower and get all of my stuff ready for Kayla, and when I went to kayla we just did the usual things, we watched TV, played on the computer, had supper, talked, and went to bed. Then the next day (which is today, we went tabogganing at Cool Runnings, which I was not looking forward to when I first heard we were going. It actually wasn't so bad after all, I had quite a lot of fun. Well, I got back and did the usual, just watched TV and played on the computer. I spoke to Alex, I sure do miss her, and I think I am going to camp next year ( well, this year), and now I have to go to bed. Well, bye.

Today (well yesterday) was great for the most part of it. I woke up nice and late and then I had a great breakfast (maken). So I went to Jay Jays but unfortunatley there was no new stock so I didn't get anything. I was told that I once again couldn't go see a movie and I found out that I have to go sleep at Kayla which I don't really want to do, so you won't be hearing from me tomorrow. Anyway, Ross (my mom's old boyfriend) and his son Liam were here for supper, Liam is pretty hot. Anyway, I also found out that the Tygervalley shopping centre is so much better then Canal Walk, and you don't have to see anybody you know. I'm not actually quite sure if I want to see anybody or not, I don't know. Well I don't have much to say about my day, and I am really tired, so I amd off to bed.