The highlight of my day today would be the fact that Mrs Cook didn't say anything about my fringe. Today was just horrible, I was really sad but it's not like anyone would veer care. The only person who noticed was Gen, but I'm not being sad for attention. I just can't stop thinking about how Mik has taken away all of my friends. I spent most of second break drawing my pictures from The Wall. To my relief David was one of the two people to ask me why I was sitting by myself, as if he would ever give a crap. The otehr person was Dylan. Today was just not the greatest day for me. I got some really bad marks back for EMS today as well. I guess we all have days like these. And that is the time we listen to the music that doesn't help us through these times but does make us feel an inch better than we did before, and in my case it's Pink Floyd. I want to draw. I just want to draw something, but something worth drawing, and it must be something from Pink Floyd The Wall. I think I just found it... Maybe drawing helps me take my mind off of things, I don't know. Well I just hope I don't fail on my cycle test tomorrow. But mostly I hope Ruth takes her time on getting changed. I reallly want her to take her time. I am going to draw now, so... bye

Okay so it was break time and somehow the subject came up about Pink Floyd. Theres this guy in my grade and his name is Roland and he said to me that he met and is going to meet again the guy who designed some of the album covers for Pink Floyd, ACDC, Paul Mccartney and others. I asked him to ger me an autograph and... HE IS GOING TO GET ME AN AUTOGRAPH!!!!! IT'S SO AWESOME!!! The album covers he did for Pink Floyd were Dark Side of the Moon, Animals, The Division Bell and I don't remember what else but it's so COOOOOOOOOLLLLLLL!!!!!! Anyway, CAG today was pretty fun. It was at this childrens hospital and and I was with this one really cute little girl and Sidne and Le-or were with me, and this little just started playing with our hair and it was just the cutest thing ever! Well today was pretty boring though, I will get to yesterday in a second. I got the worst marks ever for my EMS and Science cylce test. For science I got 75% and for EMS I got 65%. Oh well, at least I passed. Now all I need to do is learn for my history cycle test on friday which is two days. I HAVN'T LEARNT ANYTHING FOR IT YET! I just hope I pass. Our teacher is so boring and I can never pay attention in his class. Okay so yesterday was prett boring too, but we did go see Emily's play that she was in, and I quite enjoyed that part. I have a serious chocolate addiction and it honestly sucks. Creative writing yesterdy was horrible. It's not that what we did wasn't fun, it's just that I write the worst thing anybody could ever read in their entire life! URGH! I just hope our teacher let's us write something else before we start putting stuff in the school magazine, and I hope that if she does my writing won't be bad. Oh right, I left out the coolest part about today. We got to go to school barefoot and in civvies!!! How awesome? Anyway, nobody noticed my shirt (Pink Floyd The Wall shirt). Oh well, who cares. I should probably finish my work now (not gonna happen) BYE!

I'm sorry I didn't write yesterday, but here is what happened. I went to the Waterfront with my family because we needed to get some things, and then Kayla phones me and asks if I want to do something with her and some friends, so I said yes. My dad then took me to her and I saw Isabel there, which was cool. We watched TV while waiting for Storme to come, and then when she came we hanged around kaylas for like half an hour until we went of to the Waterfront. Anyway, we were going to see a movie but there were none that we wanted to see so we were just walking around. After a long time of walking we got ice-cream and something to drink. Then we went to this one shop, andi t was so much fun! We gave Isabel a bunch of the ugliest clothes to try on, and it was so funny! We did give her some nice clothes to try and and then we saw Talya Rub. which was pretty cool. We spent a long time in that shop and it was pretty fun. We then went back to the movies to wait for the last 2 minutes for Debby and Steven to finish their movie. My dad then came and we went home and then the nightmare began. I was doing my homework and my oarents walk in, close the door and tell me we need to have a "talk". They were telling me how unacceptable it was for me to be walking around with my friends by myself and stuff liek that, it was so awkward and weird. So today I went to school and stuff. It was as boring as it normally is. It's not the amount of work they give us that bothers me, it's the amount of time. Oh well, what can ya do? I have really been getting into Pink Floyd. I am listening to them right now. This may sound normal to anyone who knows me well, but I mean now I have reeeeaaallly gotten into them. I am not only obsessed with The Wall, but now with all their otehr albums too. Well, I have only heard 5 other ones because I want to know them wel and I don't want to rush it or anything. Anyway, I can't stop thinking about them. IT WAS DAVID GILMOURS BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY!!! My dad told me but I thought he was lying because I had looked it up a few hours before he told me and I could have sworn none of them were close to this month, but I have a terrible memory. Anyway, I got really upset again today because of Mik. Whenever I see this girl now, she just makes me upset. And I want to like her, in fact I'm pretty sure I do it's just, I can see that my friends like her a lot more than they like me. (sigh) Well, I can't control them, I will just stick with my music and not take notice of anybody else. That sounds horrible of me but it's not like any of my friends would care. I have nothing else to say really, so Im off.

Could my days be going any worse??!! So I forgot my mathletics user name and password, which is definitely going to get me into some trouble. What is the point of mathletics? It's so retarded and I don't think they should make us do it. I say that half because I really really really hate it and half because I forgot my username and password. AND I have got this giant stomach ache. I know what you are thinking, but I already had my... monthly 'friend' a about a week ago, so it can't be, and I refuse to believe that I am 'sick' because I don't get sick, it's just not something I do. Wow, my life is going ggrreeeaattt. (sarcasm incase you didn't get that). And to top all of that off, I a bored out of my mind! I mean, I hate going to school as much as the next person, my life would completely suck if I didn't get to see my friends every day at school, but at least it gives me something to do with my day. It's weekend and I am supposed to be out and about, but instead I'm stcuk inside the whole day watching movies. That may sound great but believe me, nothing could be more boring. I would draw, but I only like drawing stuff from the wall and there is nothing left for me to draw. URGH! I just... I don't know, I have nothing left to look forward to anymore. The only good thing is the fact that I'm not going on Facebook as much as I used to. Facebook is really so boring! And I don't feel the need to anymore because none of my friends ever go on anymore so I don't have to be bored on the computer. (sigh) Oh well, there is nothing I can really do. I'm still sticking with the plan on being by myself at school. I won't go up to people anymore, if they really wanted to talk to me, they would come up to me, and I'm prety sure nobody wants me to come up to them because I am probably the most annoying thing that has ever happened to them. Well, some people (me) are just better off by themselves.

I know it's very early for me to be writing now, but I just have something that I need to get out. I just can't believe that all of my friends have been taken away from me. David, Dylan and others. There is this girl, lets just call her Mik, and she is so nice, and so cool and she is very pretty, it's just that that has lead David to liking her, which makes him want to be like her very good friend, and whoever david thnks is a good friend, Dylan this so as well. So David and Dylan are now like, obsessed with Mik, and I am left with nobody to be my good friends. Well, theres always Kyle and Josh, but they never speak to me. Mik is the new S-J. I don't know what kind of music she likes, because thats usually what really really gets David to like them. I am not jealous of her. That is really the only thing that I definiotely don't want any of you to think. It's just that all of my friends, have now moved on, and I miss talking to them. I don't deserve to talk to anybody. I am better off with just being quiet and being by myself. I am a horribleperson, and I'm boring and ugly and every bad thing aobut a person, no wonder they decide not to talk to me anymore. The only way that they would was if I became very good friends with her, but that's not going to happen. I though Middle School would bring me closer with people, but inevitably I was wrong. I just hate that. If I can't be friendly with the people I actually want to be friends with, I might as well not be friendly with anybody. And I don't mind that, I am better off like that. From now on I will sit by myself, and do something, like draw. I love art and drawing and stuff, the only thing is, I am really bad at drawing from my mind. I need a picture or something I can draw from. I am officially friends with nobody I want to be friends with. Everybody else thinks I am annoying. Well they probably do. The thing is, I always say this, I always say that I am going to be sad that day, because befoe school I am sometimes in a sad mood, and then when I get to school I become all hyper, and I hate it. I just want there to be a day when I can just decide on my mood. I just don't even know what to do anymore. There is no point in me even trying anymore.

Well, I had said yesterday that that day was going to suck, but apparently I was one day ahead. Today actually pretty much sucked. I guess it wasn't that bad, but it could have been much better. I can't even believe Mrs Cook said that my fringe was too long! It's most definitely not over my eyebrows, anybody can see that! It already makes me look retarded, and I look even more stupid becasue I have to wear my glasses, but I am getting my contact lenses tomorrow, which is something to look forward to. Teagan and I were discussing the party today,a nd she said that she didn't want to invite Gina. I really do want to, but \i said it was fine. I sent her an sms today to tell her that I would prefer it if she was invited, but she never has her phone woth her! It's only one more girl, and it really makes no difference. Teagan is inviting someone she is very friendly with and I am not friendly with at all, so it's really only fair. I really hope that she decides to let us invite Gina, I guess it's not like she can say no. Nothing went as I hoped today. It really wasn't fun. I guess the part when we went to MaAfrica Tikkun it was fun, it was for CAG, but it wasn't that much fun. Oh well. I only got home at 7 because it ended so late, it was so annoying. I really want to quite but I'm too scared of Mrs Cook. URGH! It's like she teaches, but completely hates children! I just need to stop trying to predict tomorrow. I always say "Tomorrow is going to suck" or "Tomorrow is going to be so much fun". I always get surprised. I just hate that my days are bad. Well, we can't have everything we want. I don't have much else to talk about. Well, I do, but I am not really in the mood to talk about it. Bye...

You know how yesterday I said that today was sgoing to suck? (Of course you don't, nobody ever eads this!) Anyway, it didn't suck at all. I mean, it wasn't the best day, but it wasn't teh worst. Swimming wasn't bad, I am very comfortable with my wheight. I also found out that my one oral, my essay and my test is only for tomorrow! Although I did do my english oral today, and I am not sure how it went because our teacher didn't give us our marks back, but it's okay, I couldn't have done too bad. Maths today was amazing! I really think Ms Goodspeed was impressed with me. You see, Sam was walkingn past and he noticed my homework diary (I doodle on my homework diary all the time, only things to do with music) and then Kayla said "She's obsessed with Pink Floyd" and then Sam and I got into a whole discussion on Anotehr Brick in the Wall, Kayla was a little bit in the descussion as well, but not really. I noticed Ms Goodspeed looking at me with an impressed expression on her face. Ms Goodspeed is my favourite teacher. She has the dryest sense of humour and she is so funny! I found out that Brendan might be moving down to our class, and usually I would be all for that, but I don't really want him to come to our class. I really really really really really really don't want him to come to our class! Oh well, let it be. I should go now, so bye.

I have done so much work today. I know, it is all my fault for leaving it at the last minute, but I just can't believe they gave us so may things, and all for the same day! Tomorrow, I have two orals, one essay and a cycle test on EMS!!!!!! URGH! I am so gonna fail that test. And worst of all, I have swimming tomorrow! I am too fat to swim tomorrow. i can't believe my wheight, and I havn't done anything to prevent myself from gaining wheight, I have just been stuffing my face. It's a good thing I am starting this new diet tomorrow. It's really for healthy eating and moods and stuff, but I just really hope that it will help me lose wheight. Today was so boring. I did nothing fun or special or anything. Although I did draw another one of my pictures from Pink Floyd The Wall, I don't think they are too bad. Anyway, I am just bored to death. 1. Bored 2. Over-worked 3. Fat Does that sound good to you?????? Well, I have absolutely nothing to say because today has just been such a bore, and I am waiting for tomorrow to end because that is really going to be the suckiest day of my life.

So I will start off with last ngiht, after I wrote on here. It was so much fun. I had the greatest time ever, and I have noticed that everything I don't expect, happens. I know I have said that before but I have been expecting a lot less so everything is happening to me a lot more. Anyway, the people there were me, Teagan and Kayla. She did invite more people but we were the only ones that ocould come. We had the best conversations, I have always wanted that, just a talk at a nice place with my friends. It was like an hour into the supper and then suddenly, Josh, Johnathan, David and Kyla (not kyle hend.) come and sit with us. They all practically ignored me, but it's okay, I don't really care. Anyway, it was a great night. I decided that I was going to get Teagan a custom made shirt so I asked her whats he wanted on it, and she will tell me once she knows. I also found out that she is getting me something custom made, but she didn't say what. That night and the whole of today, I have been feeling really sad. I don't know why. I think it's because I miss hanging out with my littel group, but that never happens anymore. I miss them. I miss talking to them. Now they all just ignore me and it's all just so depressing. Middle School has done that to us... Oh well, if we were really good friends, we would still be talking with each other, but we obviously aren't. I think I have also been sad because I found out that they are all in a band, and I guess I just want to be in one too. It doesn't matter. What happens happens. I just want good things to happen to me, who doesn't? I am an idiot. I don't deserve anything good happen to me, I have been an idiot in the past and the present and it will most likely happen in the future. I am really disliking myself at the moment. Oh well, at least I have friday to look forward to. (sigh) I think I am just going to keep my depressed-ness to myself. I better just get on with life. Well, I'm off now, even though I have so much more I want to say.

I have done two orals and one essay today, only today! I did not do it today because it's at the last minute, because it's not at the last minute, but I just thought that people have already finished their work, and I just want to get it off of my back. What I really need to start doing now is y project for the 7th, I know, last minute one, but it doesn't matter, it would havesucked anyway. Well tonight I am going to Spur beause, well, it's teagans birthday and she invited her close friends. I'm not all taht excited for it, but I'm sure it'll be fun. Tomorrow I am going to Isabel, which I am also sure will be fun, I am actually exciited about this one. Last night we were talking about how we have always wanted that kind of friendship where the one practically lives at the other, I sure hope that is what happens with me and Isabel. I really don't want to move any time soon. Anyway, I am wearing my Pink Floyd The Wall shirt :) It's so awesome. I watched Pink Floyd The Wall today, well, I have 20 minutes left but I just stopped because I wasn't in teh mood anymore. I love it. I love lvoe love love it. It's so... interesting. I also have this weird thing about th Beatles. When ever I see them in a movie and they are performing, they just look so happy. When they smile it makes me smile, if I had a rand for everytime I have smiled when they smiled, I would be a millionair. Their smiles are so happy and cute, I love it. I think iI can convince my dad to make me another shirt, but with the Beatles on it. Well, I am going to play ball with Ruth, SHe asked ME! bye :)