that i get angry too much and then i need to be callmmm hahahah no, i need to get my arse of the computer and get motivated and do some schoolwork and piano and lose some wieght and redye my hair and get untonsilitisy and see my girlfriend but, you know, beds good too right???

im suddenly very grumpy coz i have piano practice in half an hour and i havent practised in two weeks and i lost my theory book and i cant play that fucking piece margreat! and i should practise but i cant be bothered

dont woryy, i dont want to, jenny was playing with them, L word i like playing with tehm (: um,, so jaybee wants me to write, but i have no idea what to say, im in such a jbjklfe uninteresting mood if only youd caught me at six yesterday morning, when i was trippng like made over the fact that spiders can flip themseleves over. or last night, when i was raging coz my mother doesnt like my girlfriend and shes a closemindedcunt but now, im just sitting here, wishing i was with her, that she'd be here with me, hahah bebe, i was putting on my stockigns this morning and was like, i realllyyyy wish she was taking them off me with her teethhh.. gsdjueoilakjdsdlkalslsld well, i guess,i should get back to the article im translating, itu tentang remaja dan narkoba fun >

i have tonsilitis sebagai akibat, im at home, iv cancelled work and tutouring and everything and im cold sitting at home, with my bro whos sick too watching harrypotter i really just want to crawl back into bed again, im so sleepy and forsomereason my facefucking hurts,why my face??? and throat blerggh/ im supposed to be doign art. fcuk that

Did you do anything risky last night? no, forsook the risk for pizza and conversation You ever kissed someone at your house? yuss (: Be honest, who texted you last? jay What is your current annoyance? sore neck What were you doing at 12 am last night? sleep. Did you see a guy today that made you smile? no, but there was this girl, wearing bright green cords (: What are you doing tomorrow? handing up the shittest assignment ever Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow? nope Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? yahhh If any, name a lyric from the song you’re listening to? you were romeo, you were throwing pebbles I feel dirty admitting that im listening to that, but its strangely calming Are you in a good mood right now? BAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA Do you want someone to call you right now? please. If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean? a variety of emotion When you say you don’t care do you mean it? no How artistic are you? somedays quitee Do you want to go to Africa? not praticularly Is it possible that you’ll ever be a cat lady? no Can you legally drive? yes, doesn’t mean I do You kissed someone last night, didn’t you? No Did anything dramatic go down yesterday? Not really What would you do if you had no friends? go to the beach, dance naked then eat fish and chips and watch a scary movie Do you think you’ll be hurt again soon? there is always possibility Who was the last person you laughed at? Why? ? Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? yuss Would you ever let a girl/boy put you through hell and back? been there done that, will do it again Generally, do you call people, or wait for them to call you? the call me when I say (: The boy you fell hardest for, no matter how long its been, seeing them with another girl, would it hurt you? im with the girl iv fallen hardest for, and its not ending anytime soon, so shutthefuckup Does anyone disgust you? yes. Me. Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow? no Have you ever kissed anyone you weren’t dating? a few Where was your default picture taken? last year, the study day before exams, nice day Are you tired right now? sootired Is it ever too late to apologize? No Do you fall for people easily? yes Do you hate the last person you kissed? not one bit, not at all. I could nver Do you think the last person you kissed is nice? shes magic and amazing Are you happier when you’re single or in a relationship? . Do you believe people deserve a second chance? only some yarp How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair? notlong Do you find smoking unattractive? noo, is VERYsexy Have you ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex everyday? yess Something tragic just happened, does your facial expression show it? O: >< (: ): How old is the last person you kissed? 18 (?) ?? under thos books over there, maybe? Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? schooltrakies Have you ever met someone who is amazing? yes. Her name is jacinta. Im in lovee What are you listening to? love stpry *cringgeeeee* If you had to get a piercing right now, what would it be? chest, or lip Where are you right now? sittin in front of the computer Could you date someone taller then you? well, seing as im quite smal…. Have you broken the law in the last 3 days? mmm,, I don’t think so, Ah actually, yes (: Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? YES.YES.YES (: (: Are you comfortable with your height? not really Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend? yarrr Do you pay with cash, credit/debit, or checks most often? $$$$ cash When did you last use a straw? awhile ago What time did you wake up this morning? ten something Your ex says they never even liked you, you say? jhbcsdfewi rflCUNT Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone? yuss Could you go a day not talking to the last person you kissed? NO Do you prefer kisses on the nose, cheek or forehead? neck Have you seen someone recently you used to talk too, but don’t anymore? nah Do you like your life as of now? sometimes, on a gooday Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in? Mother *cough*

someone please save me? take me away from here im too apathetic, too pathetic

dance aroudn in the rain screaming my lungs out i want to fuckup BAD to cutt i want a cocktail sfhbdflje ;ieowrflksjf';t32t RAGGGGEEEE i REALLY want to be out of control, but this fucking assignment is keeping me here and now and dragging me down

and i hate my smile

Georgia: i don't understand why she doesn't like photos, god lulu's beautiful Jacinta: agreed, she is gorgeous. ^ in reply, bcause even in that photo i can see a hundred tiny flaws that no one will pick up, except me and yeah i fuckign ahte myeslf, so i will ALWAYS see the flaws, tehre is always SOMETHING that kills an chance at me liking it yeah im angry now i wrecked my happy hermit bubble the philosophy is too hard, and iv lost the task sheet and its due tommorow and i dotn give a fuck.

friday was good, i thinki im outta this mood (: so, triple frees to dnm then homeee to start reading yaya sisterhood again, and losing my self in regina spektor and punk covers of pop songs and then, a few of the guys, lehmo, lian n jimmi came up and we sat on the tree in the hill, in the rain and watched thecity lights and yeah it was nice and im watching the L word and carmen and jenny: bsafwejxcwekfjwe,mcisklfrkew ahhh its not fair, not at all, im home alone, and jays at josh's work sdjfjkdefj grrr and that dream last night, the corset dress (: