i have a new boyfriend. hes great. its a new beginning. a new man, new friends, a new outlook on life. and for once i believe i am truly happy. lets see how long this lasts

i like him. regardless of what you say i do. im trying to not tell my entire life story everytime something new happens which is why u didnt know. but he says hes a total ass, a pathalogical liar and i dont know who to believe. hes nice to me. i wish life wasnt always so hard

im done. im not doing this with you anymore. have fun with your life. i really do wish you well. i just hope you can find it in you to leave me alone

i know your reading this. so here goes leave me alone. get out of my life. i dont care about you anymore. you are immature always yelling out sexual words. you pierce yourself and dye your hair for the attention. dont deny it. everyone thinks it. i have been ignoring you and trying to leave you alone and then you send me text messages harrassing me. im not answering anymore. i think its comical how you call me immature and then go and swear every other word. it doesnt make you "cool". it just makes you a lonely person who wants attention. and not good attention. so stop texting me. stop talking about me. just leave me the hell alone. i have had it with you. i have tried to let it go and to move on but with you still harrassing me i want to rip your head out and throw it against a cement wall. and btw, your "friends" also come to me complaining about you and tlaking shit, so dont say its only about me. i know people talk shit, and i dont care anymore. im past it, im over it. and im done. dont text me again. dont look at me, dont talk to me. just leave me alone.

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that everything you have, everyone you have, or everything thats left is being ruined by your inability to open your eyes and see that you are killing yourself, and poisoning those around you

just forget me and let me get on with my life. jsut let me try to salvage what is left. of what you havent destroyed

i know we're moving. and fine. am i upset? yeah. b/c this is the one thing that i had that hasnt changed in almost 10 years. but i get it. you have to do this. but that doesnt give you the right to go in my room and throw out MY stuff. not just pack up, but THROW OUT. idc if you have to get rid of your stuff. but you dont see me or shannon going thru your stuff when your not home and throwing it out. that is beyond low. and thats why i hate being associated with you. i hate you so much. my head hurts everytime im around you. i get anxiety attacks when you yell at me. i cant keep putting a smile on my face and telling myself to be strong. its not working anymore. you can continue to fool your friends and family but i dont think i can anymore. i cant keep pretending everything is alright. that im alright. because im not. and i havent been for a very long time. and im trying to change that and just forget you and let you have your fun and games. but one person can only handle so much when no one else is on their side.

but i've never been so ashamed of myself in my life.

i will not stoop down to your level you may be older than me. or you may be younger. but age doesnt make a person. its how you conduct yourself. and buy going around telling only what i did isnt fair. i have the texts to prove it. i have the texts to SHOW it was you who sent it first. i started nothing. you brought it up. you started it. you may think you know me. but you dont know a god damned thing. b/c if you did, you would have realized i'm too mature and old to put up with your childish antics. so grow up and leave me the hell alone. i dont want to talk to you. just stop with the looks and the stares and get on with your lives. i've been doing that even before all of this started. so leave me alone. and get over yourself.