was amazing. i told him that before he left for camp today i would let him take my bra off and i did. we were laying in his basement watching tv and making out. he was kissing them and my stomach and neck. it was nice. i wasnt sure if how comfortable i was going to be with it. im not the most confident person when it comes to my body but not a lot of people know that. i hide it and cover it up but im insecure. but then again, who isnt. i shudnt have worried tho. it was fine. it made me happy. and for once i actually let myself go, lose myself in the moment. not something i do very often. and that made it all the better. i just wish he wasnt leaving for 2 weeks. im gonna miss him so much. just the letters we can mail back and forth to each other

he lied to me. plain out lied. admitted the truth later. but he still lied hes had sex seven times. when we first started dating he asked if i was a virgin and i told him the truth. i am. he said he was too. then yesterday he admits to not being one. and proceeded to tell me the places he's done stuff. isnt that lovely?

so much has happened. i told you i wouldnt let him do anything i wasnt comfortable with and i stuck with it. he wanted to go farther and i told him no. that i wasnt ready. i can take care of myself. i dont let people walk all over me so everyone needs to get thru their pretty little heads and leave me alone about it

cant wait for tomorrow and friday. gonna be amazing on a more present note: i dont like you. i cant stand you. you think that just because your the "boss" that what ever you say, no matter what we are doing, we will stop adn drop what ever it is to do wat it is you want us to do. and thats not true. we have a life. we have feelings. we have stuff to do. not everything is about you when you want it and how you want it so suck it up you bitch and get a life

i remember the day that the world slipped through my finger tips and its a scary day to remember so many memories that i wish were the present and so many memories i wish had never happened.

i want to kill you yet i dont even know who u are

i just told him. i dont know why i did. i let him in too fast. i dont want to drag him into my problems. even if he is my boyfriend and all

hes a great kisser =] under a bridge, in a church, in the rain, in the middle of the street, in some bus stop house thing. enuff said

im stuck. i am so happy when i am with him. my stomach does summer salts constintly. but then he "loses" his phone, or ditches me in class or school and i dont know. i am so happy around him. but im not too sure how i feel abotu his ex and how theyre best friends or all these other girls calling him "sexxxxxxy" and stuff. i hate feeling jealous. but he's admitted to cheating. whether is was truth or dare or not. idc. he still did it. i just with i could figure this all out sooner rather than later, like the last one.

keep your opinions to urself. u care. im happy. but after hearing ur opinion 3 times im about ready to cut ur tongue out. he makes me happy. cant you be happy for me, just this once?