The way to win your heart? make me laugh and be confident. and affectionate. PLEASE. When was the last time you really laughed?? um. idk. What are you like when you're drunk?? stupid. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?? no. i don't have cartons. that's old school. Who knows a big secret about you? my mom. and renee. How long is your hair?? eh, long enough. i suppose. Who was the last person who told you they loved you? my cat. When was the last time you sang out loud?? little while ago. i sing out loud and proud. What did you have for breakfast?? nothing. Is your birthday on a holiday? labor day. boring. What instant messaging service do you use? aim. Can you cook?? not very swell. Did you have a nap today?? i wishhhh. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats? sweats. despise jeans. When is your birthday?? labor day. gosh. just told you. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?? jcpenny. Do you have any regrets?? no. Do you use an alarm clock?? yes. i need to. otherwise, i would NEVER get up. not until like five in the afternoon. Where was your default MySpace picture taken? pamida. Whats the first thing you notice of the opposite sex? ahh. hair. What color is your favorite shoe?? mm. i don't have a favorite shoe. honestly, i have too many shoes. Who would you like to see right now? renee would be nice. Are you a social or antisocial person?? more social. Have the cops ever come to your house??? yeah. i believe so. Do you have a tan? no:[ Would you rather sleep in the bed with someone, or alone?? it really depends. tonight, i would love to have someone with me. Are you afraid of the dark?? no. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? no. Did you miss someone today?? yes. Who's your last text message from?? no text. What's your favorite commercial at the moment? i love the flea dog commericals. 'there ain't no bugs on me!' CUTE. Do you always wear your seat belt?? i try to. What do you wear to bed? pajamas. Who was the last person to disappoint you? AH. father. Do you trust people?? no. Is there someone you want to fight?? no. Do you know what you want to do with your life? sometimes i think i do. but othertimes, just no. How is life going for you right now? exhausting. it's going really fast. Do you like American Idol?? yeah. it's allright. Who was the last person to comment you? my cousin? perhaps. What was the last reason you cried??? sad video. How do you feel about piercings and tattoos?? they are allright. Do you believe that what comes around goes around?? YES. What is your favorite fruit?? mmm. idk. blueberries are amazing. Does anyone love you? yes. Is your best friend pretty?? gorgeous. Where is one place you want to visit?? austrailia. Done anything illegal?? yes. Ever called 911? yes. Have you ever crawled through a window?? yes. Are you a morning person or a night Person?? night. Are you a forgiving person?? no. What are you listening to right now? saosin. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?? nope. Who was the last person to smoke a cig in your presence?? addie.kelsey.joe.lindsay.renee.lots of people. Are you taller than 5'6? nope:[

who was your last call and what was it about? sam. asking if i was going to see speed racer. 2: is there a member of the opposite gender on your mind? uh. not really. 3: what's one thing you're really good at? um. cleaning. 4: have you told anybody you loved them today? yes. 5: what mood are you in? kinda tired. shit, i have to watch lost! 6: do you miss anyone? yeah. 7: are you growing apart from someone close? i feel like me and jane are. it makes me sad. we used to be besties. 8: where was your default taken? pamida. 9: do you have a facebook? yeah. 10: is there anybody you wish you could kill? hah. yeah. 11: what will you be doing at 8? welllll. it's past eight. and i was in marquette. 12: when is the last time you cried? earlier this week. 13: are you dating the person you text most? i don't text. 14: is there anyone you hate? not hate. 15: who are you voting for? idk. 16: who is the last person you held hands with? jody. 17: do you like someone? i suppose. kinda. i don't know anymore. 18: are you in a good mood? eh. slightly. 19: where did you get the shirt you're wearing? jcpenny. now that store bombs. 20: who cleans your room? myself. 21: what kind of phone do you have? a normal one. 22: was your last kiss sober? always. i would never kiss someone who was drunk and i was sober. blah. 23: who do you trust with everything? myself. and usually my mom. 24: what made you smile last? some random guy in a car. 25: what were you doing at 1am? i was talking to renee last night. 26: what is your background on your phone? uh. idk. 27: where will you be in 50 days? i don't care. 28: who were you with last night? lots of people. 29: what are you doing this weekend? stuff. 30: have you bought any clothing items in the past week? yessir. 31: how long is your hair? a little past my shoulder. 32: what did you have for breakfast? i didn't eat breakfast. 33: what do you wear more, jeans or sweats? SWEATS. i can't stand jeans. even since i was little. 34: when is your birthday? labor day. 35: do you have any regrets? no. not anymore. 36: what was the highlight of your week? joe's b-day party.

Current annoyance? headache. ugh. i have to watch lost tonight. maybe i'll nap till ten. Current concern? getting shoes and a dress, honestly. i know. i am shallow. Have you ever made out with someone you weren't dating? yes. Is there a difference between 'best friend' and 'friend'? i guess. yeah. Has anybody on your top friends ever admitted to liking you? on my previous top friends, yes. Do you miss anyone? yes. Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone? yeah. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug? um. idk. kent randomly comes and hugs me, though. Can you touch your toes? yeah. Do you know anybody who was abused? yes. Who was the last person who looked at you and smiled? hmm. idk. Is silence really golden? sometimes. Do you have any interesting tattoos/piercings? nope. Are you afraid to grow up? kind of. but not really. Can you count past 100? HAH. of course. Any upcoming vacations? nope. Do you care what people think of you? sometimes, but most of the time, NO. Would you call yourself smart? yes, i would. Do you like to read books? love to. Do you own a pair of Nike's? use to. Have you ever touched an elephant? nope. Is anything wrong? yes. headache. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? no. Do you want to go to college? going to be. Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)? very good. What were you doing at midnight last night? uh. reading. Name something you CANNOT wait for? GRADUATION. What's your favorite season(s)? fall&spring. Have you ever talked to Tom? myspace tom? no way. Last thing you ate and drank? water. and aspirin. Do you like peanut butter? love it. Who’s making you feel the way you are right now? my brain cells for having a headache. Most visited web page? myspace, songmeanings. and facebook. Coke or Pepsi? coca-cola. Looking forward to something this weekend? nah. How many siblings do you have? one. Do you have any pets? maxine. What's your favorite number(s)? five. What are you watching now? this screen. What is your middle name? nicole. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends? sometimes, i am. but they deserve everything. they are amazing. Have you known any of your friends for your whole life? sadly, no. Are any of your friends taller than you? hah. oh, yeah. Have you ever been ditched by a friend? yes. Have you lost or forgotten a friend's phone number? yeah. Do you currently like someone? kinda. i don't know anymore. Do they like you? i know some people who like me, yeah. Would you ever ditch your friends to wait on your crush to call? HAH. no. Have any of your crushes ever called you self centered before? nope. not in so many words, but i think that's what he meant. Would you ever get back together with one of your ex's? no. maybe, kinda. i don't know anymore. Who do you want for prime minister? haha. wth. Do you think abortions are horrible? no. Needles aren't so horrible? nah. Plenty of secrets? yeah. Do you enjoy drama? HAH. who does? Who was the last person that said "I love you" to you besides family? probably renee. Do you wish the guy/girl you like would tell you how they feel? yes. the way they really do feel. What would you do if your love asked you to marry them? my love? haha. i don't have a love. whatever. What's on your mind? headache.

Wrath Who did you last get angry with: myself. What is your weapon of choice: my words. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex: yes. How about the same sex: yes. Who was the last person who got really angry at you: ah. my mom, probably. What is your pet peeve: seeing things not in line. orrrr idk really. i don't have much pet peeves. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily: i hold grudges. it sucks, but i do. Sloth What is one thing you're suppose to do daily that you haven't: floss. What is the latest you've ever woken up: about five in the afternoon. gross. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: chelsea. What is the last lame excuse that you made: i'm sick. idk. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through: yes, sadly. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock this morning: once. Gluttony What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice: diet mt. dew. Are you a meat eater: yup. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event: not muchhh. Are you comfortable with your drinking and eating habits: not my eating habits. i eat far too much. Do you enjoy candy and sweets: VERY much. Which do you prefer: sweets, salty foods or spicy foods: depends. i don't like spicy though. i like salty and sweet. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch": haha. no. Greed How many credit cards do you own: none. If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it: MOVE. Would you rather be rich or famous: rich. i would hate to be famous. really. Would you accept a boring job if it meant that you would make megabucks: probably. Pride What's one thing that you have done that you're most proud of: my grades. What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of: the person i'm becoming. What thing would you like to accomplish late in your life: move to the ocean. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place: nah. idc. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors: yeah. Have you ever cheated to get a better score: yes. What did you do today that you're proud of: not a thing. Lust How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies, family, strippers, locker rooms): probably a lot. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a person of your chosen sex during a normal conversation: yes. What is your favorite body part of a person of your gender choice: eyes. Have you ever had sexual encounters (including kissing/making out) with multiple persons: i don't understand. i have kissed multiple people, just not at the same time. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute: no. Envy What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own: lindsays cat ollie. that'd be sweet. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with: my mommmm. If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be: i'd stick to being myself. Have you ever been cheated on: nope. kinda. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own: yes. my arms, eyebrows, different colored eyes, smaller calves, etc. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself: i wish i could less emotional. and more laid back. What deadly sin... Do you do the most often: probably sloth. Do you do the least often: envy. Is your favorite to act on: lust. for sure.

1) Are you involved with anyone? nope. 2) What are you thinking right now? life. 3) Where do you wish you were right now? near the ocean. 4) What could you not go without during the day? probably my blanket. 5) would you ever share a drink with a stranger? shit, no. 6) Have you ever lied to a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes. 7) Would you rather be in a serious relationship or play the field? right now, play the field. 8) How long ago did you hug someone outside your family? uh. idk. 9) Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced? if they want, sure. 10) Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire? nope. 11) What does the last text message in your inbox say? i do not text! 12) Need to get something off your chest? YES. what did you have to gain out of me? you used me. maybe. sure. 13) How do you feel about your life right now? it's complicated. and messy. 14) How many times have you been pulled over by the police? twice. 16) Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to? kind of. 17) How's the relationship between you and your most recent ex? we are still really good friends, luckily. he's the best. 18) Anyone upset you lately? yes. 19) Last person you talked to on the phone? dad. 20) Do you think you're dumb? hah. sometimes. 21) What could be done to make things better for you? i could relax more. and stop overanalyzing. 22) How's your heart? weak. 23) Ever kissed someone with a name starting with a D? yes, i have. two, actually. haha. 24) Can you keep a secret? yes. 25) Are you happy with your living arrangement? sure am. 26) Do you have trust issues? very much, yes. 27) Is it easier to forgive or forget? forget. 28) Would you live with someone without marrying them? yes. 29) Do you ever wonder what your last ex is up to? i usually know what he's up to. nothing much. 30) Have you ever been given roses? nope. 32) Have you ever been cheated on? nope. i believe not. 33) Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? no. 34) What's your current problem? life. 35) Have you ever had your heart broken? no. 36) Had a Long Distance Relationship? no, and never will. 37) Do you believe in this saying: once a cheater always a cheater? no, i don't. 38) Do you want to get married? no. 40) Do you believe in love at first sight? no. 41) Have you ever gone out with the same person more than once? almost, but no. 42) What was the first thing you thought this morning? idk. 45) Do you know someone who likes you? yeahhhh. 46) Do you like anyone? nah. whatever. 47) Do they know you like them? look above, stupid. 48) How many people on your top friends have you kissed? zero.

1) EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING? thankfully, no. maybe when i was little! HAH. 2) LONGEST RELATIONSHIP? three months. whoo. 3) LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? hmm. money from my dad. 4) EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE? yeah. 5) WHEN’S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT? LONG TIME AGO. i suck. 6) THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON? food. 7) LAST FOOD YOU ATE? frosting. 8) FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? hair, probably. 9) ONE FAVORITE SONG? i can tell-saosin. 10) WHERE DO YOU LIVE? ishpeming. 11) HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED: i attend westwood. for only eight more days! 12) CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER: altell. 13) FAVORITE MALL STORE: hot topic, probably. 14) LONGEST JOB YOU HAD: video one. sweet place. 15) DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE? yesss. 16) DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?: i have. 17) LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED: none. 18) FIRST FRIEND YOU’D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY: renee! 19) LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND: earlier today. 20) FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: wendys, subway. taco bell. 21) BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD: "I'm fine." 23) WHERE’S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS? mcdonalds. we have a blast there. 24) CAN YOU COOK? not very well. 25) WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE? moms. 26) BEST KISSER: shit. 27) LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: sunday night. i usually cry on sunday nights. 28) MOST DISLIKED FOODS: pickles. corn. 29) THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: kindness. and feet! haha. 30) THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: pfft. my elbows. 32) LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?: five hours. i believe. 33) FAVORITE MOVIE? say anything! 34) CAN YOU SING? i sing, just not very well. 35) LAST CONCERT ATTENDED? company of thieves! they were amazing. i loved the guitarist

What's your middle name? nicole. Where will you be 2 hours from now? hopefully in my bed. but i'll probably be writing up an essay. Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated? sometimes, yeah. Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a J? uh. actually. yeah. Are you on a desktop or laptop? desktop. What are you planning to do tonight? essay. SLEEP. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? no. What are your three favorite colors? blue, red. and black. Have you ever passed out? nope. What are you doing tomorrow? SCHOOL. shit. Are you easily confused? sometimes. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?: i really think i'd make a good wife. What's your favorite kind of ice cream? mackinac island fudge! Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap? sure did. and almost do. Where were you at 9am this morning? going to school. Do you fall for people easily? no. sometimes, i do. but i try not to fall for people. Have you texted in the last 24 hours? i don't text. at all. Last thing you got in the mail? some shit from westwood. When is the last time you saw number 2 on your top friends? today! What are you listening to right now? extientlism on prom night-straylight run. How has the week been? tiring, already. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't? yes. what did you do on sunday? mother's day! Do you sleep with the TV on? sure do. Do you have a job? sure DON'T. Are you too forgiving? no. i hardly forgive. Have you ever wanted to be a firefighter? hell no. If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? my mom. or just myself. One person you miss? dad. What was the last song you listened to? me vs.maradonavs.elvis. GREAT song. What's irritating you right now? essay. What are you stressed out about? essay, i suppose. but i think it's more. i just don't know what. How many windows are open on your computer? three. What are the colors of your wall? white. Have you been outside today? yepp. very windy. Are you sarcastic? can be, but usually not. last person you saw? mom:] Last person you talked on the phone with? grandma. In the past week have you gotten your hair cut? nope. Is there something you regret? nope. 1. Do you have a condom in your room?: nope. 2. When's the last time you cried & why?: sunday night and because of boy. 3. How is your hair currently styled?: down, messy. 4. What are you wearing tomorrow? idk. 5.Who was the last hot guy you saw?: idk. random guys at school. 6. What is your mousepad?: i hate mousepads. so i don't have one. 7. Are you a member of any after-school clubs?: key club? perhaps. 8. What's your favorite song of the moment?: maybe i am fred astaire. i can't choose. i am indecisive. 9. What do you think of the pharaoh Ahknaton?: wtf. 10. Who did you last get mad at?: my cat. 11. Do you have anger management problems?: HAH. probably. i have a hole in my closet:0 12. What do you think of when I say "razer"?: spell right. 13. What about "apple"?: pie. 15. Got any weird nicknames/aliases?: nope. 17. Ever considered professional gaming as a career?: no. that's lame. 18. On a date, who should pay?: the boy, for sure. 19. What's your favorite pair of shoes?: flip-flops. 20. What do you hate about winter?: so cold. so long. so dark. 21. What do you hate about summer?: bugs. 22. Are you failing any classes?: nope. 23. When's the last time you were at your public library?: awhileago. 24. Digimon; cheap rip-off of Pokemon? Yes or no?: no. i lovedddd digimon. 25. What do you think when you look in the mirror?: i suck. 27. Do you have a guitar in your room?: no. 28. How often do you cook?: not much. i suck at that as well. 29. How do you feel right now? tired. kinda annoyed. i have little patience today. 30. What's today's date?: thirteenth of may. 31. How many rooms in your house have rug floors?: a few. 32. What's your favorite period of history?: sixites. 33. Are you a computer geek?: nope. 34. Favorite candy? pez. mike and ikes. skittles. gobstoppers. can't decide. 35. What was your last nightmare about?: well, i had to wash a lady, and was told she was just in a coma. i started washing her and she was dead. she felt like cardboard. and she was pale. ugh. i can remember everything. sick. 36. What was your last good dream about?: i can't remember. i have lots of nightmares. 37. Who made you laugh last?: my cat. she banged her head on the window. what a dumbass. 38. What movie did you watch last?: across the universe! 39. Are you "über-1337"?: wtf. 40. Do you know what 1338 means?: no. 1)Taken or single? SINGLE. 2) Do you like it? sure do. 3) Would you still kiss your ex? maybe. 4) Have you ever had your heart broken? no. 5) Do you like when your boyfrined cheats on you? i don't have a boyfriend. and who likes cheaters? 6)Do you like/love someone? i might like someone. i'm confused. i don't really know what i want anymore. 7)Have you ever kissed anyone? HAH. obviously. 8) If yes how many? just a few. 10) If someone likes you would you want them to tell you? probably not right now. 11) Do you want someone you can't have? i suppose. he just pushes me away. he's afraid. but, i am too. 12) Do You believe in celebrating Anniversarys? yes. 13) Do you get butterflies around your crush? sometimes. i like butterflies. 14) Do any of your Ex's still have feelings for you? i don't think so. he told me he can't think of me 'sexually'. great to hear from an ex. ass. 15) Have you slept at a girlfriend/ boyfriendss House before? no.

so. my last days of school are incredibly pointless. i sleep in, go into g.i., then go to health block. let me make a check list: (1) speech for health block. make poster. make notecards. (2) advanced bio presentation. work on tomorrow. it's for wednesday (3) upfront magazine quiz (4)college lit essay. Please start that. (5) communications resumes. ahhh. please start that. i have five things left to do. and five things that i could easily finish tonight. but i'm way too lazy. so i'll start them tomorrow. sound like a plan? oh, yeah it does. and keep my room clean. and do the dishes. and maybe exercise a bit. something, anything to keep me from sleeping. i keep sleeping. i seriously think i may have some sort of depression. all i want to do is sleep and lay in my bed all day. i feel horrible, lately. i don't know. i think it's PMS. because around my period, i always feel shitty. but my moods, are crazy lately. ONE thing can just set me off, and i'm yelling or crying. something is off with me lately. plus, my hands are shaking faster than nascars. i feel like i'm an anxiety attack just waiting to BURST. i'm taking my paxil. so i really don't know what is wrong with me. well, two weeks until GRADUATION. i cannot believe it. i am ready though. i need a dress and shoes though. i don't even want that. maybe i will just wear my black dress. but, my boobs pop out like no other. i hate my boobs. i hate my calves. i hate my eyebrows. i hate my fingernails. i hate my thighs. i hate my stomach. i hate my eyes. the things i do like on my body: my feet and my lips. those are pretty sweet on me. that is what i try to concentrate on. i have to take a shower tonight. i am so tired of taking showers. even though, i NEED them. just getting up and trying to take them, takes so much out of me. i get tired so easily. humph. i wonder what is wrong with me. i am tired ALL the time. no matter how much sleep i get, it just never seems to be enough to keep me awake. i have no motivation to do anything. maybe i'm scared. maybe i think if i don't do anything, then i won't have to think about the future. but time won't stop for me. tomorrow still comes. the future is here. and i have to know, not to be afraid. it's like, i almost think if i don't do anything, then everything will stop and wait for me until i am ready. i just need to: do all my work, keep my room clean, do dishes. and relax. please.

1) Is there someone you wanna date? date? no. be with, yes. 2) Do you like to party? yeahhh. 3) What are you doing right now? this survey. listening to music. 4) What does your last text say? i don't text! 5) What do you do when you crush trips and trys to play it off? remind him. haha. 6) Last missed call? dad. 7) Last person you talked on the phone with? dad. 8) Why did you cry last, and when? last night. myself. 9) What was the first thing you did when you woke up today? pressed snooze. 10) Is there a meaning behind your profile song? no. i just really like it. augustana is nice. 11) Do you have a best friend? sure i do. 12) Do you like vitamin water? yeah. 13) Have you ever disliked someone, but ended up being friends? for sure. and it's worth it. jane is an amazing person. 14) Who sits next to you in science? uh. logan

so i'm here. and completely and totally bored. not bored, just confused. well not confused, just. i don't know. i'm thinking maybe i chose the wrong thing everytime. i make so many mistakes. i don't know what i regret anymore, because everything i do seems to be wrong. i know the right thing to do, but every single time, i mess it up. it's, well it was there, so i did what i could. maybe i shouldn't act on impluse. but, then what have i really done wrong? nothing. then, why do i feel like i make the wrong choices lately? i'm overanalyzing again. why do i worry so much? about EVERYTHING. it's not, one particular thing, it's just everything. every little move i make, i shouldn't think about it. but what happens if i did make one wrong choice? and i hurt someone? not on purpose, but i do. do i apologize? but, how could i hurt them? not possible. AH! i'm going crazy. so many people. so many people left to hurt. ahhhhh. life sucks. sooooo. gosh. i'm having a tough time right now with guys. good thing i'm moving. i think it's the only solution. it'll make everything better.