1)Who are you? i have no idea who am i, anymore. 2) When was the last time you were told you were beautiful? uh. today. 4)Are you going to prom? i already did. it sucked. 5) Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from? some telemarketer. 6) What is bothering you right now? i'm freezing. 7) Was New Years enjoyable? it sucked. 8) Who was the last person to play with your hair? addie! 9) I'll bet you miss someone right now? sure. 10) Who was your last text message from? no text. 11) Are you high? no. 12) What are your favorite colors? blue.black.red. 13) Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon? sure is. 15) Are you easily scared by horror/thriller films? no. i love them. 16) If you were given $100, would you spend it, or save it ? spend it. 17) If there was a large spider in the room, would you stay? NO. 18) What are you doing this weekend? grad. parties. 20) Where are you right now? computer room. 21) Are you listening to music right now? yes. 22) Do you have any enemies? idk. 23) What are you doing? this survey. and shaking. so cold. 24) What does your tenth text say? no text. 25) Hows the weather today? COLD. 27) What are you thinking about right now? my hamburger. 28) When was the last time you intentionally made someone cry? i don't think i have ever made someone intentionally cry. ouch. 29) Would you be able to date someone who had a kid with someone else? yes. 30) What are you doing tomorrow? school. two more fucking days. 31) What are you doing tonight? sleeping, for sure. 32) Could you date someone taller then you? i can't date someone shorter than me. weird. 36) What is your current mood? TIRED. 38) What sport do you enjoy watching? baseball. and boxing. 39) Ever had a near death experience? yes. 40) What was the highlight of your week? watching juno. 41) Are you happy right now? allright. 42) Whats the last thing someone said to you? thanks for the atm card. 43) Where is your phone at? my room. 45) Have you ever been given an engagement ring? when i was young. 46) When is your Birthday? labor day. 47) How do you feel about your hair right now? messy and gross. whatever. 48) What do you miss most about the past? being able to not think about the future. 50) Do u have anyone who u consider a brother/sister but they really aren't? no. i think that's weird. 51) How many people did you hug today? none, actually. 55) Have you ever had someone sing to you? yes. 59) Do you believe in love? i would like to. 60) Is there somethin that has happened in ur past that u hate talking about? yes.

What's the last thing you said to someone & to who? um. something to my cat. idk. When was the last time you cried really, really hard? awhile ago. Is there someone you'd like to fix things with? yes. but i'm not going to let go. What's a happy time you've had in the past week? when i was watching juno. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? sometimes, my mom. Have you ever seen your best friend cry and how do you feel about that? yes. it was bad, but nice to know that i could help her. If you could push one person off a mountain, who would it be? HAH. i think i took this survey before. What's the weirdest thing you've ever heated up in the microwave? nothing weird, just stupid. Have you ever liked someone that treated you like crap? yes. Have you ever seen a zebra? yes. Has anyone disappointed you recently? yes. How late did you stay up last night? um one am. Do you plan on moving out within the next year? yes. Are you a morning person or a night? night. i sleep all day. Are you a forgiving person? no. Are you a jealous person? nope. Does anyone like you? yes. What's something you really want right now? food. Do you love someone? yes. How many TRUE friends do you have? one or two. Does it take a lot to make you cry? well, not really. i just usually hold in it. then, it all comes out. Have you ever fallen for your ex's best friend? NO.

I just want you to know, i still think of you. even if you never think of me. I just want you to know, that i never meant to hurt you. Please don't come back at me with an excuse or another reason to hurt me back. I just want you to know, that you had my heart at one time, even if you never believed you did. I want you to know, that you were the last thing on my mind at night, and the first thought in the morning. I want you to know that I smile, laugh, and cry. And sometimes, it's for the same reasons. I want you to know, that even if we were apart, I knew you loved me. I just want you to know, that even if you stumbled over your words, I knew what you were trying to tell me. I want you to believe in what I say. even when i lie. at least pretend and give me a chance. Show that you trust me. I hope you know that my choice would be to not change, stay with what's familiar. but, believe me when i say, i have to try. i want you to believe, that i can be indepedent and dependent at the same time. i just want you to know, that sometimes, you did get in the way of both. and it made me feel awful. i just want you to know how to give and take. allow me to give to you, don't let me use you. don't let me take too much from you, because you deserve better. don't let my laugh fool you. i just want you to know that i always try to have a back-up plan. i won't let myself fall completely. if i seem to get over something fast, it's because i was prepared for it. i prepare for the worst. that way, i never get hurt. i just want you to know that i try not to love anyone. because sooner rather than later, they leave. so is it better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all? i'm only eighteen. i don't know the answer. but, all i know is that i think it is better to never have loved at all. love is an addiction. and a pain. and incredible. it's almost everything. i just want you to know that i lied to you. i lie to protect myself and to hide my feelings. it seems worth it to me at the time, to lie to you. if you lied to me previously, it's almost like i'm getting back at you. stupid, huh? i just want you to know the way i am. i want you to trust me, even though i won't trust you. i want you to make me laugh, even when i tell you to leave me alone. i want you to be around, even if i'm sleeping. i want you to be able to read my mind, even though i know you can't. maybe what i'm looking for is a soul mate. and i don't believe those exist. i don't know what i'm looking for or what i want anymore. i want everyone else to be happy. but me, i'd rather be realistic than happy. i just want you to believe my choices are right. i want you to support me, even if you know i'm wrong. i want you to tell me the truth, even if it hurts me. i will get over it. i promise. don't even tell me you promise me anything. i won't believe you. promises don't mean anything. when i make a promise, i mean it. i just wish other people would. so what makes me not trust? what makes me not believe you? so if life is a circle, will someone really come back? i want you to know, to believe that i am only human. i am trying my best. i am who i am. some days are harder than others. and today, is hard. just believe me. i'm sorry if i let you down. i'm sorry if i will let you down. i cannot promise you i'm easy. it's complicated. i'm complicated. i suppose you have to give me a chance. just remember, i will love you to the moon and back

Why did you kiss the first person you kissed? 'cause he was there and... it happened. i don't even think i liked him. How many people of the opposite sex have you fallen asleep next to? a couple. Do you hate anybody? nah. Anything going on between you and the last person you kissed? not a thing. One thing that you will never forget? probably my health block clinicals. Ever had your heart broken? no. i'm so afraid of that. Do you get along with your parent(s)? yes! What is the last thing you ate? pizza. Do you like pickles? disgusting. i hate pickles. If you were sick in the hospital who would you want to be there? my mother. but she'd already be there:] Who last said they loved you? uh. mom. Do you want a relationship with someone right now? kinda. i don't know. If I looked next to you, what would I find? mouse. or a glass of water. Are your underwear and socks folded in your drawer or just thrown in? thrown in. who folds their underwear really? What will you do after the survey? probably read. Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? i hide them. constantly. Is there something you regret and wish you could take back? now i do. but whatever. it happened. First thing you do when you wake up? press snooze. or pee. Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles? yes. When's the next time you will see the person you like? thursday i think:p Who has your heart at this moment? ugh. a really, really nice guy. What were you doing at ten last night? up. Does anyone hate you? i don't care anymore. Where are your siblings? sibling. in wyoming. acting like a jackass. Are you happy with life? right now, kinda. Can you handle the truth? sometimes, but i'd rather hear it. If you could have one person with you right now, who would it be? ugh. Do you miss anyone? yes. Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday? way more than eight. shit. What was the last book you read? if there be thorns. Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? no. Is there something you always wear? nope. What's most stressing right now? boys. ugh. and my mom with mayo clinic. Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to? actually, no. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? probably not.

Why are you not going out with the person you want to? because i suck at life. Where's the last place you went? school. Are you looking forward to something as of right now? friday. Have you ever worn false eyelashes? nope. At the moment, are you more warm or cold? cold. Do you find girls with facial piercings attractive? no. i like boys. When was the last time you saw snow? a while ago:] Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down? mom. renee. jane. lindsay. Who was the last person to insult you to your face? lindsay. about my weird accent. Has anyone ever tried to shove their religion in your face? YES. Who was the last person you sat next to? lindsay. What did you do today? school, which is nothing really. What did you do yesterday? school, once again, really nothing. Who can you tell anything to? my mother. What are your plans for tomorrow? school. again. What are you thinking about right now? taking back sunday. i love thisss song. Do you smile often? no. Do you prefer an ocean or pool? the ocean. pool's are kinda gross. When was the last time you cried? sometime last week. How long is your hair? little below my shoulders. What is the last thing you ate? some thing at lunch. Who last sent you a text message? no text. Who do you dislike currently? actually, boy who leads me on kinda sucks right now. but, whatever. Are you wearing make-up? nope. If you could have something right now, what would it be? food. Do you miss something? something? no. Last compliment recieved? By who? um. idk. Your heart is racing, who are you standing next to? mmm. idk. What is something you hate more than anything? pickles are gross. Is tomorrow going to be a good day/night? who knows. Are you in a good mood? nah. Would you rather get up early or sleep-in? sleep-in. Are you wearing anything? yeah. Are you paranoid about something? yes. Have you kissed anyone on your top friends? nope. Are you wanting to tell someone something? i guess, yeah. What would you do with five million dollars? buy lots of stuff. Would you rather watch a romantic movie or a really gory one? probably a gory movie. but i love romantic movies, too:] If you had to live off one type of fruit, which would you pick? blueberries or raspberries. What are some of your nervous habits? biting my nails. and i fidget a lot. i play with my pen cap, too. If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick? renee&jane. together. What is your favorite curse word? shit. How long does it take you to get ready? five minutes, usually. Would you change yourself to make someone like you? never. Do you smoke weed regularly? no. Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks? no. Who was the last persons house you went to besides your own? renees. Is there something you could've done to make your last relationship work? yes. do you like someone right now? maybe. Listening to music? yes. What is your favorite flavor ice cream? mackinac island fudge. Anything annoying you right now? this survey, kinda. Favorite color? blue. Have you ever bought anything from a sex shop? haha. no. well, maybe. What's the color of you're shirt you are wearing? yellowish. What did you do Sunday? layed around. Do you have any bruises? yes. What were you doing at noon yesterday? school. Have you been outside today? yes. Last movie you watched? juno! Do you wear any jewelry? no. i don't like jewelry. Last person you hugged? uh. britt. Who/What made you upset today, why? idk, nothing really. Do you sing in the shower? sometimes, yeah. it sounds weird though. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally? no. Last person you talked to on the phone? mom. Do you want to tell your ex anything? kinda, yeah. If you could fix things with anyone who would it be and why? probably my previous best friend, but i just can't let go. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you? yes. one said he might be. another, i just can't believe. What color are your bedroom walls? white. What should you be doing right now? nothing. Do you get along with your parent(s)? yes. Whats the car of your dreams? a reliable one. Ever wanted to be a teacher? no. Ever been stuck in an elevator? no. that is something i am paranoid about. What do your cousins call you? stephanie. Has anyone ever told you they like you more than a friend? duh. Have any tattoo's? nope. Obsessions? nah. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? no.

Ever kissed anyone 30 or older? no. Are you in a relationship? nope. single. Have you kissed anyone today? nope. Do you miss anyone? yesh. What are you listening to? tbs. Is there one place you'd like to visit? austrailia. Have you held hands with anyone today? nope. let's hold hands. Do you like winter? NO. Do you regret anything? i should. but no. What are you excited about? graduation=] Seven days from now will you be in a relationship? probably not. but who knows. Do you like what you see in the mirror? at times. mostly, no. What are you doing tomorrow? school. Do you like to cuddle? love to. How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over? a couple i guess. Where is the number one person on your friends list? john fucking cusack. how many people have you fallen for? completely, not very many. what's on your mind right now? lots of stuff. it's nighttime. what are you doing? survey. do you want to see someone this very minute? britt would be VERY nice. do you like someone? maybe. possibly. i don't know anymore. Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? not a lot. maybe a few. Do you regret doing anything this weekend? nope. well, maybe my nap, because i can't sleep right now. When did you last cry? sometime last week. How late did you stay up last night? not late. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it? i think they did. he told me he did. i question it now. What do you think of the most when you are alone? food.boys.myself.family.friends. lots of stuff. it's all mixed up. Suppose you see your crush kissing another person: ugh. that would suck. Ever met a real life prostitute? haha. yes. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? no. let's talk about sex, baby. Did you ever lose a best friend? yes. i miss her, really.

1: Who has your heart? no one right now. i'm difficult. 2: Do you like the last person you kissed? actually. no. 3: Who was the last person to call you? kelsey. 4: What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? lemonade. yummm. 5: What was a common phrase of today:? you gay. 6: When was your last encounter with the police? mmmm. august, sept. maybe. idk. 7: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? sometimes. but not really. 8: Did you sing at all today? i sing everyday. i find a reason to. 9: When was the last time you cried? sometime last week. 10: Are you scared of spiders? some. 11: Who were you with last night? myself. 12: What do you think of Fergie? she has a REALLY good voice. 13: Do you believe in love? i would like to. 14: When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up? uhh. idk. 15: Have you done anything you regret in 2008 so far? yes. but i learned from it. 16: Do you miss anyone? yes, i do. 17: Do you curse a lot? yeah. more than i should. but whatever. 18: Who was the last person in your bed? myself. i'm sweet. 19: What should you be doing? laundry. whateverrrr. 20: What color is your hair? brown. 21: Have you ever drank with your number one? yesh. 22: Is there someone you wanna kill right now? i probably could. 23: Who knows a secret or two about you? mom.renee. 24: Are you too forgiving? no. 25: Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex? yes. 26: Olive Garden is? not around here. but i don't like it much. 27: Are you closer to your mother or father? mom. 28: Do you have trust issues? YES. 30: Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and meant it? no. 31: Who do you like to spend your nights with? renee. my mom. 32: If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you? probably not right now, but idk. 33: Do you want someone you can't have? i guess so, actually. john cusack, baby. 34: Are you a cuddler? AH. YES. 35: Have you ever been to Florida? yes. 36: When did you last talk to your brother or sister? longgg time ago. oh, well. 37: Do you ever wanna know who you're going to marry? noooo. 38: Have you ever punched a guy? YES. bastard. 39: Gotten in a car with people you just met? ah. yes. 40: Does anyone hate you for no reason? well, i would hope they have a reason. oh, well. 41: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? not to change anything.

crazy dream. i totally told off boy who leads me on, again. i have told him exactly how i feel numerous amounts of times, but it hasn't amounted to anything. so i don't care anymore. for real. i'm just over it. i have high school to get done with. tomorrow, i have two speeches. not bad. then, i'm really, actually done. crazy. i am just ready to be done. everyone keeps saying how it's going to be so different not seeing the same people everyday, and honestly, i'm not really going to care. it's not a big deal. everyone has a facebook or myspace. even aim. it's not like everyone is going to be forever. and i slept forever today. and that didn't amount to anything. but i really had nothing better to do. my friends never call me. they never want to talk to me. they never want to hang out. so, i just lay around by myself then. so i'm just here. again. 'but if he loves me, then why does he leave?' i don't understand either. well, actually i do. he might love me, but he just pushes me away. and pushes me away. i don't matter to him. so he won't matter to me. freakin' alcoholic.

Does the last person you held hands with mean anything to you? no. it doesn't. Who's Myspace Password Do You Have? renee.jody. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret? a million bucks, for sure. What are you doing tomorrow? last monday of high school. finally. Are you ticklish? VERY. gosh. don't tickle me. only special people can. Have you ever played naked twister? uh. no. Does anyone call you babe? no. How's your heart lately? anxious. i'm throughhh. Who have you texted in the last 24 hours? i don't text. Who was the last person you said "I Love You" to? dad. What do you spend most of your money on? food. Who was the last person to call you? kelsey. Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? yeah. How long does it take for you to take a shower? not long. When was the last time you cried? sometime last week. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you? yes. Wallpaper on your cell phone? ehh. idk. Next time you will kiss someone? honestly, hopefully soooooon. Where was your default picture taken? pamida. Who was your last text from? i don't text. What's the most interesting thing that happened to you today? i slept for four fucking hours. What's your favorite number? five. What is your current mood? sick. my stomach hurts:/ Last people you hung out with? lindsay and renee. What color shirt are you wearing? blue. Ever had a near death experience? yes. Who's car were you in last? moms. What are you listening to? let me fall-alexz johnson. Do you get along with girls? some. i get along with guys better. Last movie you saw in theaters? iron man! Last thing you ate? kelloggs. What was last thing you drank? milk. Are you happy right now? no. Whats the last thing someone said to you? 'well, i didn't hear you'. Where is your phone? room. What color is your hair? brown. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? dinero. What were you doing at midnight last night? uh. sleeping, i think. What's for dinner tonight? idk. some pizza junk. When is your birthday? labor day. How do you feel about your hair right now? annoying;it's wet. Where does most of your family live? copper country. What color are your eyes? brown. What are you doing now? listening to music. What is one thing you question a lot? if i'm really happy. Do you think you lead people on? yes, i do. Are you married? NO.

1) Your ex is driving next to you, what do you do? if he sees me, i'd wave. whatever. 2) Where is your significant other at the moment? i have no significant other. 3) When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? arghhh. 4) What is the last thing you spent money on? bra and a couple movies. 5) Who is the most attractive female on your Myspace friends list? i have lots of them. 6) If you had to sleep with one of your teachers who would it be? i wish mr. barnes was still at whs. 7) Congratulations! You just had a daughter! What's her name? i'm counting on a boy. 8) What are you craving right now? some cereal actually. 9) What was the last thing you cried about? sad video. 10) When you buy something and your change is 2 cents, you keep it or tell or tell them to keep it? tell them to keep it, idc. 11) Have you ever blocked someone on MySpace before? nope. 12) Do you think you're a hoe? i'm a dream and flirt ho. 13) Are you happy? now? kinda. in general. no. 14) Who came over last? renee. 15) Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted? hah. no. 16) What was the last movie you watched at home? across the universe. i love, love, love that movie. 17) Where do you hurt? my foot. my head. 18) What's something fun you did today? i watched lost. 19) When is your birthday? labor day. i'm a hoot. 20) Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror? no car. 22) What are you going to do after this? probably eat. clean. read. fill out application. laundry. make poster. ahh. i hate sundays. 23) Do you like pickles? gross. 24) Favorite pop tart flavor? um. strawberry. 25) What are your plans for the weekend? it's sunday. and i have plenty to do. 26) Do you like the color green? yes. 27) Who was the last person to send you a text message and what was it? i do not text. 28) Last restaurant you went to? bk, through the drivethrough. took forever. 29) How many hours did you sleep last night? plenty. 30) Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle? yes. 31) Do you like your name? eh, it's okay. 32) What do you do when you are bored? read.sleep.watch tv.watch movies.computer.write.think. i do too much. 33) Do you have a job? If so what is it called? nope. 34) What is your current mood? mood? uncomfortable. my cat is sitting on my arm. 35) What made you laugh last? cat. 36) What are you doing now? this survey, duh. 37) What is your favorite song? i can tell-saosin, probably. 38) Who is your best friend? renee.lindsay.jane.missy.kelsey. i have lots. 39) Most visited website? uh. probably this one. i love it. 40) Do you have a car? nope. 41) How tall are you? five four. maybe. 43) If you turned out to be your opposite gender, what would you be called? i'd be called jack. i love that name. 44) When was your last kiss? awhile ago. 45) When was the last time you held someone's hand? prom. 47) If you could go back and change anything, would you? nah. 48) Who do you wish was with you right now? uh. renee. probably. 49) Can you eat with chopsticks? haha. no. i'm american, silly.