Is there someone you wanna date? sureee. Why did you stop liking the last person you liked? he's going nowhere with his life. Who was the last person to give you a hug? britt. How late did you stay up last night? like, 3 am. What did you do today? i woke up. pretty incredible. What were you doing at 12 am last night? watching a movie. Where is the person you need most right now? i don't need anyone right now. How’s your heart been lately? conflicted. i make everything complicated. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color? i never dyed my hair, so yes. Where were you at 8 am this morning? home. Everything happens for a reason? yes. How has the week been? it's monday. just started. it's pretty okay. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't? no. i pretty much said what i wanted. it's up to him now. What makes you happy at this moment? knowing that their will be another season of lost. What's your worst habit? biting my nails. sick. Have you ever taken anyone/anything for granted? everyday. Do you hate being home alone? i love it. Whats life like lately? fun. Where is the person you want most? right now? probably my mom. at work. Where will you be 2 hours from now? at home. of course. Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a F? can't say i have. Does anyone love you? yepp. What was your last alcoholic drink? beer. Did you speak to your mother today? nope. At this very moment what should you be doing? probably emptying out the dishwasher. whatever. How many months until your birthday? a couple. What are you listening to? finch. Are you mentally disabled? no. Do you hate your best mates? no. Kissed someone in the last 24 hours? yepp. Who would you like to be tied to for 24 hours? i think i took this survey. lame. How long do you think you will live? in my 70's. i think. What was the first thing you did this morning? called lindsay. What were you doing at 3pm yesterday? watching a movie. How do you vent your anger? i throw stuff:X What are you doing this weekend? party. Are you dating the person you texted last? i don't text. What do you want right now? shower. What does your last incoming text say? i do not TEXT. fuckingggg. What was the last song you listened to? finch. What are your plans for tomorrow? volunteer work. Do you trust your best friend? try. Do you know your fathers birthday? yepp. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? sometimes, yeah. Who was the last person you were in a car with? britt. Who was the last person you kissed? Where? britt. on my bed. Ditched school to do something more fun? of course. Who did you hang out with last night? britt. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? yes. Are you a generally clean or messy person? i try to be clean. doesn't work.

What would you do if you found out your ex is engaged? i wouldn't be surprised. Do you wear a name tag at work? i don't have a job. What are you excited for? camping. What color is your iPod? silver. What did you do last night? pool.boardgames.movie. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? still in school, probably. Are you happy right now? eh. i don't know. Last song you sang? home-threedaysgrace. If you could change your eye color what would it be to? blue. i hate my eyes. Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? yeah. Have you ever really wanted something so bad and got it? yeah. What are you doing right now? this survey. What were you doing 10 minutes ago? talking. What color are your eyes? brown. When is your next trip? august. How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you right now? zero. i'm sweet. and cheap. Have you seen your best friend cry? yes. sucks. Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more? yes.! Do you need to know everything about someone's past? yes. i do need to know. Anything hurt on your body right now? my feet. my cat is smushing them. What was the first thing you did when you woke up? called my dad. Who will you be with this Saturday night? boys&girls. Who was the last person you hugged? mother:] Have you done anything bad recently? whatever. What are you listening to? tbs. When was the last time you laughed? today. Have you ever been stalked? eh. hopefully not. What was the last thing you cried about? myself. Do your best friends know your family? of course. What was the best thing that happened to you in 2008? GRADUATION. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend? yes. Would you rather have someone be honest & hurt you or lie and save your feelings? be honest and hurt me. lying sucks. Who do you hate? no body. well. shit happens. How many piercings do you have? none. What are you drinking? nothing. What did you do today? nothing. i showered, that's about it. Are you afraid of bugs? sometimes, yeah. freaky.

Name: stephanie. Age: eighteen. Race: white. Gender: female. Normal Questions: Define normal using approximately ten words. nobody knows what normal is. it's absolutly nothing.suck that. Would you frame someone else if your friend committed murder? mmmm. maybe. When is killing justified? mental disorders. What do you like most about yourself? feet. haha. What was or is your favorite subject in school? health block. and english classes. What do you want to do for a career? nursing. Do you support the war in Iraq? no. Are you religious? no. Do you read, watch or listen to the news often? nope. Is older always wiser? sometimes, i think so. Are you going to marry your favorite celebrity? ahhhh. that would be great. Do you wish you were a celebrity? no. Is body structure a good indicator of personality?no. Is choice of clothing a good indicator of personality? nah. Is choice of friends a good indicator of personality? sometimes, yeah. Are more and more technological advances good for mankind? no. people are just trying to see if they can, not more for it they should. Between male and female, which is the weaker gender? probably males, really. they seem like they are just looking to get hurt. Do you believe in karma or predestiny? i believe in karma. Are you vegetarian? no. i don't think i could do that. i love hotdogs. Do you get along with your family? eh, no one gets along with their ENTIRE family. impossible. When you discover that you are angry, what do you do to calm yourself? write it out. throw stuff:X When you are sad, what do you do to make yourself feel better? sing ridiculously LOUD. to ridiculous songs. Do you need a significant other in your life? i don't. Have you ever truly loved? been 'in love', no. Is it okay for you to show weakness? i try not to. Is revenge always the answer when you are wronged? no. Is revenge ever the answer? i suppose not. that'd be the easy way out. Is everyone like an open book to you? some people are pretty predictable. Do you keep your mouth shut in public for fear of sounding stupid? sometimes, yeah. Does your IQ mean much? hell, no. This or That Passiveness or aggression? passiveness. Clinginess or detachment? detachment. Flattery or honesty? honesty. Passion or reason? reason. Liberal or conservative? liberal. To listen or to talk? to listen. To discriminate or to be hurt? to be hurt. Friends or lovers? friends. Money or fame? money. Power or freedom? freedom. Pain or numbness? pain. Night or day? night. Marilyn Manson or Justin Timberlake? whooo. justin timberlake. i love him. haha. Pink or Evanescence? evanescense. amy lee can sing the hell outa pink. Nine Inch Nails or Blink 182? hmm blink-182 is funner. Bowling for Soup or Tool? pfft. they are boring bands. Kittie or Britney Spears? how bout neither. Ani or Madonna? madonna. i like her. Malice Mizer or F4? eh. Escargot or no? no. Johnny Depp or Orlando Bloom? johnny depp is the hottest man alive. United States or Canada? us. Felines or canines? felines! Charlie’s Angels or Kill Bill? kill bill. Chicago or The Hours? neither. The Lords of the Rings or The Matrices? the matrices. Summer or winter? summer. Finding Nemo or Scary Movie 3? finding nemo. Newsweek or Playboy? hmmmm. newsweek. playboy does have some good articles though, REALLY. haha. Renee Zellweger or Angelina Jolie? angelina jolie. Buy CD or burn CD? burn cds.

Name something that made you frown today?: the way i acted last night. i suck. How do you feel about being the age you are?: eighteen kinda rocks. Kiss with your eyes open or closed? closedd. Are you rich?: hellz, no. Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?: YES. What were you doing at 7:00 AM?: sleeping, of course. What were you doing 1 hour ago?: shower. What ipod do you own?: nano. What was the last thing you said aloud?: 'they are articles.' How many different things did you drink today?: one. Are you ticklish?: yeah. Is success in your future?: hopefully. Are you a heavy sleeper?: nooo. What are you doing today? i don't know. Was today a good day?: it just started. What are you listening to?: dad's voice. Does someone like you right now?: yepp. Who was the last person you had a deep meaningful conversation with? i don't know. Where is the last place you went?: home. Your favorite romantic movie?: pride&prejudice. Is there something you will never forget?: yes. How is your hair?: wet and messy. Who was the last person you took a picture with?: um. renee? What were you doing at midnight last night?: board games, haha. they were sweet though. What does your last sent text say?: i don't text. Do you wish on 11:11?: no. Have you ever played naked twister?: i hate this question. First thing you notice of the opposite sex?: smile. How do you feel about Valentine's day?: i love the candy. that's about it. Can you keep a secret?: yes. So what's on your mind?: ehh, i make everything complicated. Which shoe do you put on first?: right, i think. i don't know. closest shoe to me, i put on. Favorite color(s)?: blue.red.black. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?: i believe not. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?: not hated, just disliked. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?: yes. Is it easier to forgive or forget?: forget. i suck at forgiving. Do you laugh a lot?: try to. make me watch the goofy movie, i'll laugh foreverrr, haha. Are you happy with that?: yes. Do you believe in love at first sight?: hell, no. Do you want kids?: four. Last thing received in the mail?: some credit card shit. Are you random?: can be. Have you ever hurt anyone when you were mad?: probably. If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?: yes, i would. What's the last thing you said out loud now?: umm cya? maybe. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?: yes. Do you believe you can change someone?: no. they have to want to change. Something you dislike?: liars. and people who act like nothing happened, when it DID. Do you have trust issues?: yes. Know anyone currently in the military? of course. doesn't everyone? we are in a war. Are you happy? kinda. Most exciting part of the day? ehh, idk. Is it going to be a good Summer? better be.

What was your last alcoholic drink? beer. Did you speak to your mother today? yepp. At this very moment what should you be doing? probably putting some clothes on. How many months until your birthday? a couple. What are you listening to? sexy can i? whoo. i'm addicted. Are you mentally disabled? nope. When was the last time you cried? a couple days ago. Do you hate your best mates? nah. Kissed someone in the last 24 hours? sure have. Who would you like to be tied to for 24 hours? um. renee. that'd be sweet. How long do you think you will live? eh. i don't care. What was the first thing you did this morning? called my dad to wish him a happy father's day:] Last person you went out to dinner with? um. britt. Do you drink lots of water? not as much as i should. How do you vent your anger? i usually throw things:X What are you doing this weekend? with britt, probably. it's sunday. so, yeah. Are you dating the person you texted last? i don't text. What do you want right now? clothes. and breakfast, even though it's one. What does your last incoming text say? i don't text. What was the last song you listened to? sexy can i! What are your plans for tomorrow? idk. Do you trust your best friend? sometimes. Do you know your fathers birthday? yepp. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? sometimes. Who was the last person you were in a car with? britt. Ditched school to do something more fun? hellz, yes. Who did you hang out with last night? britt.abby.steve.meghan.cynthia. some other ppl. maybe. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? yes. Are you a generally clean or messy person? i try to be clean, but messy. Who was the last person to sleep in bed with you? britt.

what makes relationships work? why do people try so hard? i believe that their are certain steps in a relationship and none of them are good. it's all pain. everyone gets hurt. so why does everyone look for a relationship, when they know, they are just destined to get hurt? why do so many people search for love? i wish i could say that relationships are worth all the pain and the effort, but i don't think they are. i think it's more important to be selfish and to live your own life, before sharing a life with someone else. plus, how can you trust someone? someone can say anything they want, but in the end, the words mean nothing, because at the end of the day, the only things people remember is what someone did for them, not said to them. so, point one, no one can trust each other. and why get into a relationship without trust? point two, everyone gets hurt in a relationship, and i don't think i'm strong enough to get hurt yet. point three, i'm selfish. i'm pretty sure that's the only thing holding me back. yes, i'm scared, but i'm also selfish. i want to be able to experience life on my own and to be able to see who i want, when i want. i don't want to have to check-in with anyone. that wouldn't be MY life. it would be someone else's life. i don't think i'm ready to have someone else's life try to fit into mine. so, how am i suppose to know how to trust someone? if i ask, can i trust you? that doesn't get me far. they can prove it to me, but then, it wouldn't matter. so, how do i not get hurt? i think i'm well on my way to hurting people and hurting myself [for the first time in my life.] i don't want to be hurt, just because of someone else, i think i'm fine on my own. so, how do i learn to not be selfish? well, i'm eighteen years old, and i think i have earned myself my own right to be as selfish and pathetic as i want to be. i think it's allright for me to be scared and to have my wall. i think it's right for me to not let go. mixed emotions.

GIRL survey are you on your period? nope. have you made out with anyone in the last 2 weeks? yup. have you shaved your legs in the past three days? just today i did:] has a boy ever called you babe/baby? HAH. yeah. i do not like that. are you wearing a pushup bra? nope. are your toe nails painted pink? nope. are you in love with a boy? nope. do you have more than 1 bestfriend? yeah. has a boy put their arm around you in the past 5 days? yup. has someone ever called you beautiful? yup. will you be in a realationship in 4 months? UGH. are you wearing short shorts? nope. is your bra pink? nope. black;) ever had a boy bestfriend? yes. do you think chad michael murray is cute? eh, not really. are you tan? kinda, yeah. do you wear a lot of makeup? nah. do you enjoy wearing dresses? sometimes. ever turned a boy down you shouldn't have? probably. i don't care. are your fingernails painted black? nope. are you a slut? oh, no. do you straighten your hair often? no. do you want a boyfriend? EH. is your bestfriend the funniest person you know? one of. whose number one in your life? mom. always. is your ex hott? HAH. would you kiss your ex? no. have you ever kissed the same sex? no. does any of your exs hate you and why? i don't care. give me one confession: i'm extremely disappointed. Are you waiting for someone? kind of. Last MySpace message you received? some shit i already know. Does anyone hate you? i don't care. What are you up to this weekend? not much. Are you happy with life? no. who did you spend most of your time with last night? britt. and myself. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? eh, not everyone. Did you cry today? no. not yet. i probably will though. Are you a jealous person? no. Do you like to make the first move? somtimes, yeah. i usually do though. apparently i'm hard to read. have you changed when it comes to relationships? i try to. but i will only change for myself. i'm selfish. what did you learn from your last relationship? to allow myself to let go more. and that i deserve to be treated better. Do you miss anyone? kind of. Are you smart? yeah. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? no. Kiss with eyes open or closed? closed. What's most stressing right now? future. Do you swallow gum when you're done with it? yes. Do you like messages or comments better? messages. even though i know they are usually bad. Who was your last call from? eh, dad. What would you do if you had a time machine? use it. when did you run into your ex? movies. grad parties. what did he/she say to you? um. hello? Whose car did you last drive? dads. Last non-relative you hugged? britt. What is your opinion on sex without emotional commitment? well, that sucks. What's so good about the person you like? he treats me amazing. Ever kissed a blue eyed and dark haired person? i don't believe so, but...i don't know the color of that one guys eyes, haha. The next person you'll hold hands with...will it mean anything? yes:] Are you someone's best friend? yes. Is a date to a restaurant sound romantic to you? it can be. WHO DIED?UGH. do you cuss? yes. whatever. do you drink/smoke/do drugs? drink.smoke. ugh. Have you ever received a love letter? yes. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them? kinda, yeah. Does your exs have new girlfriends/boyfriends? yeah. not all, but some. Do you care? hell, no. Are you a bitch... be truthful? yes.

are you myspace famous? nooo. do you have a "myspace name-kiki kanibal" ect. no. how did you get it? . have you ever been approached by someone using that name for you? . what is currently pissing you off? my cat keeps licking me. when is the last time you talked to your ex, who and what about? when i saw indiana jones, argelis, and he was taking out the garbage, and i just said, are you taking yourself out? hah. Ever been with the person you liked under fireworks? UGH. i don't think i liked him then anyway. Do u believe ex's can be friends? yes. Are you mad about anything? just disappointed and irritated. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? no. What is the closest purple object to you? purple? probably my toothbrush. Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it? sometimes. Break someone's heart or have your heart broken? actually, i'd rather have my heart broken. it's way easier to deal with. Are you friends with your best friend's ex boyfriend or girlfriend? nope. my friends really don't have exes. what about them with yours? nah. i don't think so. Are you currently frustrated with a boy or girl? kinda. What is the closest thing to you that is blue? blanket. Who are you with right now? myself, and cat. How old is the oldest person on your top? twenty. What are you? a klutz. You get bored of your boyfriend/girlfriend easily? nooo. Would your parents let you have a sleepover with someone of the opposite sex? yes. Anything exciting today? kinda, yeah. what are you nervous about? eh. lots. Do you hate the last ex you had a conversation with? i don't hate him. just disappointed. If you could have something right now, what would it be? shower. If you were really upset, who is the first guy you'd go to? britt, probably. Do you know anyone addicted to any type of drugs? yeah. Got anything you regret so far in life? i don't regret anything. what did you sleep in last night? clothes. Does anyone you know wanna date you? not date, just fool around with. Would you date anyone you met online? never. Who is your best friend? renee.mom.britt.lindsay. cutest boy on your top? brittttt:] haha. last time you cried in a public place and why? eh. i can't remember. how do you feel? like doing something! thing that made you most upset in the past hour? my cat keeps licking meeeeee. damn. you would take back the person you fell hardest for only if things were different? welllll. no. i think things happen for a reason. just accept it. Last person of the opposite sex you hungout with who was very attractive? haha. Ever date anyone UNOFFICIALLY? hahaha. i kinda am now. who did you last kiss of the opposite sex? britt. who did you last kiss of the same sex? i don't do that. have you ever been in love? no. would you ask an ex for help? possibly. but i think i'd rather die. Are you still best friends with the same person as the begining of the year? yes. have you ever lost any friends? yeah. Do you know anyone who has cancer? pfft. yeah. Are you typically a jealous person? no. Do you know anyone that smokes pot? yes. What would you do if you found out your ex is engaged today? i wouldn't be surprised. Are you excited for summer? it's summer! i am excited. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you in a romantic way, and meant it? yes. Can you see yourself ever being with someone you've been with before? no. well, no. last time you talked to a cop? haha. day before graduation. i suck. Do you live near your ex boyfriend/girlfriend? no. whats a date your not looking forward to? ugh. what do you love about valentines day? candy. Who's the last person that creeped you out? bossert, haha. Would you believe an ex if she/he said they love you? no. Do you hate your last boyfriend/girlfriend? no. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? not everyone. Have you ever broken your nose before? nope. have you ever had a crush on someone from myspace and then met them in person and totally changed your mind? no. Have you ever been nice to someone who treated you like crap? yes. all the time. What was going through your mind during your last makeout kiss? nothing. i just let go. Something you'll never do? heroin. What could be done to make things better for you? a neck masage. Ever kiss someone with a name starting with a D? yes. whats the first thing your last ex said to you the last time he/she seen you? 'your a piece of shit' [joking] According to your Ex you are? probably a crappy person. why so many questions of ex's? i don't know. don't care. Why did you stop liking the last person you liked? he didn't try hard enough. is your ex someone you should date again? no. Have you ever fallen for someone whose name starts with a J? nope. If an ex said he/she hates you, you say? i don't care. i'm over it. Where is the person you need most right now? at work. Why is your relationship status the way it is? because i'm confuseedddd. Who is your best male friend? britt. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? ugh. 2 days ago. Do you have any strange phobias? i suppose. Do you give out second chances too easily? no. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? no. what year did you give someone of the opposite "your everything"? i haven't. If you got married to your most recent boyfriend/girlfriend what would your name be? it would suck. name songs that remind you of an ex? i don't have any. well, what it is to burn, probably. who was the last person to make you cry? myself. Have you ever said you would never love again? i always do. Is there something you wanna let go of? yes. Do the old songs you had in your past really remind you of the memories? hell, yeah. Do you find your ex gf/bf good looking? he's my ex. no. Has someone promised you something and broke it? of course.

I'm tired of: my belly. I am listening to: same song over and over again. Maybe I should: work out today. just a little bit. I Wish: i had more motivation in me. ChocoIate is: allright. I have lost my respect for: people who don't listen. I last ate: probably smarties. Someday: i will be near the ocean, happy. I will always remember: my mother. Love is: nonexistant for me. i don't want to fall in love. MySpace is: frustrating. Today: has just started for me. and i'm up way early. whoo. Parties: kinda suck. but i'm still going to one next weekend:X QUESTIONS-------- Is your cell phone right by you? no. Are you wearing chap stick? no. but i should be. Are you tired? actually, no. wah. Are you wearing pajamas? i'm usually in pajamas. i'm lazy. Are you mad? a little. not so much right now. Last beverage? mm. probably mt. dew. Last phone call? um. renee, i think. HAVE YOU EVER.... Lost someone close? yeah. List 2 favorite colors: red. black. THIS MONTH HAVE YOU: Made a new friend? yeah, i suppose. Fallen out of love: nope. Laughed until you almost cried? yes. damn goofy movie, haha. Met someone who changed your life? nah. Is there something you want to tell someone? no. i just want him to tell me. i already asked my question. Wallpaper on your cell phone? idk. What's the most interesting thing that happened to you today? well, my cat kept following my arm so she could lick it. that was pretty funny, not interesting. i guess it's something you have to be there for. Whats your favorite number? five. Last people you hung out with? britt. What color shirt are you wearing? pink. Who's car were you in last? britt. What color is your hair? brown. If you could have one thing right now what would it be? a new hairbrush. When is your birthday? sept. fifth. How do you feel about your hair right now? it sucks. What are you excited about? i want to go camping.

how do you know if you are making the right decisions? i know that is such a cliche question, but really, how do you know? just wing it, i suppose. i mean, all the things i've done in my life, i probably wish i wouldn't of done, but i still don't regret it. it's who i am. i probably wouldn't of been friends with the people i was friends with. i wouldn't of wasted my time or let myself be treated like that. i would've just told the truth: you are a bitch and i do not want to be your friend anymore. simple as that. it's simple for me now, but why was i so sensitive before? i always was so worried about hurting everyone else's feelings that i never stopped to consider my own. i always let people use me and say the most horrible things about me, when they were suppose to be my best friends. not anymore. well, i can try anyway. so why is it that it is so hard for me to reach out to someone? why can't i just pick up a phone and ask them to come over? to be there for me? not just for me to be there for them? sometimes, i just don't want to be alone. but, i never tell anyone that i suppose. i just don't reach out. so, how do i stop my heart from beating so fast and my breath from slowing down? why is it i cannot catch my breath lately and my head feels like everything is going to come oozing out? why do i feel so dizzy and out of control all of the sudden? something that i ate? or am i just thinking too much, again? maybei just need to get out more, or stay in more. whichever one feels better. i need to figure out which one is better. it will make me feel better in the long run. i need to just figure myself out. what do i like? what do i WANT? help.