So he and I are talking again.. After almost half a year. I hope we can be friends, he's really not someone I want to lose touch with after highschool. He told me he missed being good friends, I hope he was being honest, cause I sure missed him.

I want to go straight edge, but I'm not sure if I could pull it off. Maybe I will start with being vegetarian. Meat is pretty gross, so that should be easy. He waved at me today, I just gave him a blank look. He asked me a question, and I only shook my head. I don't even know what I want.

Diplomas are stressing me out so much! I cant wait to get them over with. I'm finding it so difficult to stay concentrated on studying. A pretty good looking guy started talking to me in the parking lot at my diploma prep course. He introduced himself and we realized that we used to play on a baseball team together when we were younger. He remembers me cause I was a girl on a boys team, I'm not sure how I remember him though. It was neat though. You are sweet, lets chill and be friends. Why now?

Well I got my old job back today. Now I have two jobs. They both pay well, and I've worked it out so I work the easiest days at both places. Nice nice. At the end of the summer I will decide which I want to continue working while I'm going to school. College will be much better than highschool.

For real I only have one full day of highschool left. Ever. End of story. Some people are real sad about the whole thing, but I'm so excited. Finally, I can get on with my life. Going to public school was the worst mistake of my life. Soon I will be going to college with my best friend though, and taking classes that truly interest me. Great. Diplomas are stressing me out a little though, considering they are worth 50% of my marks. Scary thought. Lately the whole idea of corporations and consumers, and phonies and all that has been getting me. Really. So today I had some spare time. I got a touch creative and sewed cute patches over the designer labels on my hoodies, cut off all distinguishing factors, and altered the zippers. Hopefully they just look like standard hoodies with cute little patches on the hoods. It's funny how controlling companies try to be. When I cut the dangling part of the zipper off that had the logo on it, the zipper failed to function. Really I'm sure that was no accident. It was the same for all three hoodies I fixed. Tomorrow I'm going to go to moxies and ask for my job as a line cook back. I worked there for nearly two years, but then it got old and I quit. I left on good terms and my managers all told me that I would be welcom back. Hopefully its still the same managers working though. I'm still keeping the job I have now, but hopefully I could pick up a shift or two each week in the summer. That would be nice. Being a cook was stressfull, which I like cause it helps me deal with stress outside work. I just become more accustom to it. Oh my friend kissed me. I can't decide if I like him or not.

Grad camping sucked, guys suck. School is almost over though! I can't wait to be in college. Next year will be such an improvement. Really though, I need to take it easy on hooking up with guys. Today at school people kept comming up to me saying how trashed I was, and commenting on all the guys I danced with. I danced with one of my best friends boyfriends, and grinded with one of my best guy friends.. and alot of other people. eek

yea grad camping tonight!

Holy man, graduation was a million times better than I expected. It was so much fun! So many good pictures and so many laughs. Really it was amazing. I most likely drank too much, but I wasnt sick, just a little out of control. So fun. except I have one little regret.. I slept with some guy. Not really random, but someone I think is super good looking. He wasnt that great though, and it was horribly skanky of me, and I wish I hadnt.. Hopefully too many people dont find out. The worst part was I had to use "plan B" for the first time. How embarassing. Still though, so fun! We were in the party bus for 3 hours before the banquet, then the banquet was amazing and I danced with all my friends, and my brother. Then we were on the bus again for another two hours and we went to the aftergrad, and I danced with more people. This one guy friend of mine thats I may like bought me some shots and we grinded on the dance floor a bit. ... but then i slept with someone else. eek.

My grad banquet is tomorrow, maybe it will be fun. All my friends are making such a huge deal about it. I'm going in a 26 person party bus.. I'm not even excited. Today I went to the nail appointment my friend made for me, and tomorrow my friends are picking my up and we have a hair appointment somewhere. Everyone is just organizing my day because they know I wont do it myself because I dont really care. I went out for coffee with my guys tonight, and that was fun though. They all noticed my shiney nails haha. They are the greatest. adios amigos!

my grad ceremony was today, even though school has a solid two weeks and then diplomas.the ceremony wasnt bad though. I got lots of nice pictures with my friends and whatnot, and lots of people cheered for me. I feel bad for the people who walked the stage in dead silence.. ouch.