Possibly my best friend and I may be spening a month in Thailand in January. We looked around at various travel options, including cruises or volunteer housebuilding. Thailand has become the most appealing, both for its price and culture. It should be amazing. Really I hope it happens

I hate him. I really do. I really should.

I love the way he holds me

I want to travel, and have a meaningful life adventure. Not just go to college then university, I want to look back on my life and have amazing memories. I want to be entirely independant, and go somewhere that isnt mexico or cuba(as nice as they sound). I want to help people and discover my passions. Really I want to do it all, and go to school. Somehow I'm broke even though I'm working two jobs. I hit a car today, it was aweful. My mind was concentrated and registration, and I backed right into a car. The other car was fine but my bumper popped out of place and the paint scratched. Shitty deal.

My brother was just sponsored my Addidas. Such a huge company. I'm so proud of him. Too bad I'm not as successful, he has it so good.

Holy I'm bored. So so bored. Yesterday was so exhausting, I worked 15 hours with only two 15 minute breaks. The night before I only got about four hours sleep too. My feet were just killing me. I hit some guy with my car, and it ended up that it was a guy that I work with. Long story but it was actually sort of funny.

So my guy friends are pissing me off so bad. They are such idiots. Last night they got high and drunk and then decided to drive home. Plus the car is standard so its even more difficult. Fuck I hate drunk drivers. Not to mention they left me at the party cause I was suppose to be staying the night there cause it was my best friends. Then they went and fucked around with my car. Boys make me so so angry! Really though I was worried about them last night, and they promised me they wouldn't drive. The guy I like is texting me now. He is so sweet.

Really, I can't get him out of my head. I like him so much. Trying not to like him just didn't work out for me. He called me twice yesterday, but I was at work the first time, and the second time was at like 1:30 in the morning, so I didnt go out with him. Then just now I went on msn and he asked me if i wanted to hang out for a bit, but I work in like an hour so I couldn't. Sooner or later we will actually hang out. Ahh I just can't stop thinking about him, and how things used to be with us.

So I have been thinking about my future. This is the time in my life when I can choose to do something I want in life. At the moment my life is on the track of becoming a psychologist, at least those are the classes I'm registered in now. Really though I want to do something music related. I want to do the music for movies, or be part of a music production company. It feels good to know I can do whatever I want.

Today was the math diploma. I NEVER have to go to highschool! done done done! The day I go back to pick up my report card doesnt count. I'm DONE. It hasnt really sunk in yet, I'm just getting close to the realization point. Me and this guy are going to register for our classes at college together next week. Maybe we will be in a class together. That would be so cool considering we met when we were 13, and we are almost adults and still friends. I'm so happy I'm friends with that one guy again. It is such a good feeling.