Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
it's amazing what a light I knew
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
I didn't know that I could be so cold
I didn't know that I would ever grow
and now I'm older than I've ever known
the lack of love in my life
I used to try to crush everything
outside of what directly spoke to me
now it's not cute, this inconsistency
just a lack of love plain in sight
it's amazing what a light I knew
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
I used to say I gave her everything
but then I realized it was selfishly
you know I do just almost anything
to bring her eyes back to mine
I hate so deeply the bridge burner fame
but still I bark out like a dog on a chain
when I think of all the hearts I've left in my way
mom and dad you made a big mistake
it's amazing what a light I knew
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
so here's a song, I'll call it Finishing
please don't believe I need your sympathy
when all and all the problems rest on me
hate to be any doubt
it's amazing what a light I knew
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
I didn't know that I could be so cold
I didn't know that I would ever grow
and now I'm older than I've ever known
the lack of love in my life
I used to try to crush everything
outside of what directly spoke to me
now it's not cute, this inconsistency
just a lack of love plain in sight
it's amazing what a light I knew
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
I used to say I gave her everything
but then I realized it was selfishly
you know I do just almost anything
to bring her eyes back to mine
I hate so deeply the bridge burner fame
but still I bark out like a dog on a chain
when I think of all the hearts I've left in my way
mom and dad you made a big mistake
it's amazing what a light I knew
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
so here's a song, I'll call it Finishing
please don't believe I need your sympathy
when all and all the problems rest on me
hate to be any doubt
it's amazing what a light I knew
it's amazing what a light I knew
and if you think it's all her fault
that just isn't true
Lyrics submitted by three star salute
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