Tourniquet

this song means somthing different to me than just love, probably because the way i was raised. when he starts the song saying shes made of hair and bone and little teeth and things i cannot speak, to me hes relating she to life she= ones life, like people do with boats and stuff lol, and she is a human body. and when he says and things i cannot speak, theres certain things about our lives we just dont talk about. "she comes on like a crippled play thing, spine is just a string" i take this as lifes embrace comes on like a strange friend that you will know for your forever and by saying spine is just a string i think he means life is delicate.. it hardly has any backbone and can change instantly. when he continues to say " i wrapped our love in all this foil".. could be a crystal meth reference there, in addition to the fact that hes saying he tried to keep his destiny and life safe and normal, but can that really be acheived when theres certain people in our lives that lay eggs and fucking infect us in a negative way " i never wanted it to ever spoil, but flies will lay there eggs" says to me that he didnt plan to become what everyone considers a freak the flys are the ones who layed these eggs inside me and sorry if they took course and grew. in the next line when he says "take your hatred out on me, make your victim my head, you never ever beleived in me, i am your tourniquet" this reminds me of when i was a kid and i had an abusive parent that used to do just this, take their anger out on me and literally make their victim my head in the most physical way possible. hes saying go ahead and take your anger out on me, make your victim my head, you dont beleive in me as anything more than a inconveiniance so looks like im unimportant enough to be your tourniquet( or in other words go ahead and beat me to shit because your too ignorant to target your actual problems). also when he eludes to the part where he says "prosthetic synthesis with butterfly, sealed up with virgin stitch, if it hurts, just tell me because your the innosence" this reminds me of someone talking you through the pain and stitching up your wounds at a young age when all these things happen due to "flys" that prey on the weak for they themselves are weak. and when he says if it hurts just tell me because your the innosence.. kids are innocent. its almost as if hes taking on the role of a counselor right there and representing someone who helped him. "i never wanted it to end this way" ( i didnt plan for my personality to change and my life to go down a completely different road) but again flys will always in the end have to lay their eggs somewhere. also these lyrics do not include when he says " what i wanted, what i needed, i got from me." this of course means look what your end result is you FUUUCK you only made me stronger ;)( in other words look where all mansons pent up passion went, into his music and it made him and icon. essentially the same thing happened with me, all those days hinding in my room or sitting on the curb in a random spot a block away from my house taught me to draw and now im going to college for the proffession. that fuck basically knocked the art out of me. what i wanted from this life is to become and artists and what i need right now in this life is to make money to survive and get away. what i wanted what i needed i got from me. nobody helped me.