Angry Johnny

Look at the video. The bed, the candies, he obviously fancied her. Then later there are the suitcases she was going to leave.

The tone suggests a sexual theme. The way she says "blow you", you can tell she's using terms from his wants for her own purposes. "I wanna blow you..." but not the way you want.

The tone also shows how very distant and deadened she is from her feelings, she's not exactly angry but she knows this is the very best solution. When she asks where has his pleasure gone that changes it becomes a feeling of power. He enjoyed himself so much at her expense but then the tables turned. She's euphoric in response to his pain. He had to have hurt her bad.

Right before that point the video, she opens the box of candies takes a bite of one and spits it out. It looked like she was thinking she might as well eat them he got them for her right? But then she spits it out. There is no thing he can give her to balance out what he's doing, so it's disgusting. She realizes it fully and tosses the rest as well.

A lot of times in a situation when someone is raped they try to remove themselves from it or distance themselves. Or at times even if it's not their fault they feel like the Jezabel (another word for whore)

He's also called angry Johnny, she talks of ending his rage and in the video they show a male form throwing things. So not only is he a rapist he has anger issues. When she leaves in the end, the place is littered with his destruction.

In the end, she says she wants to blow away every part of him that doesn't feel okay. I don't know how to describe it, but being around someone who's done that to you makes you feel wrong. It's like your everything is screaming to reject them regardless of what you have to show on the outside.

I know the feel from my experience. Now I don't feel like he should die anymore but more like he shouldn't be alive or in this world. Yes, there is a difference. But my god, I had my plan but my friend, current bf now helped me get past that point. For anyone out there they are not worth it, not worth the further ruin of your life. Not unless you seriously need to get away and are in unavoidable danger.

Fear, mental and emotional manipulation stop you from seeing a way out but there's always a way. My way was it was either him or me (I wanted the later but I had a child, I would have to take him too because I couldn't assure him being okay. My sister (like a 2nd mother for him) had slit her own throat not long ago.) but there was another option. There were s few, I couldn't see them through the pain, depression and fear. There always is another way. Going, staying both are hard when someone is twisting your thoughts.