In regards to the meaning of this song:
Before a live performance on the EP Five Stories Falling, Geoff states “It’s about the last time I went to visit my grandmother in Columbus, and I saw that she was dying and it was the last time I was going to see her. It is about realizing how young you are, but how quickly you can go.”
That’s the thing about Geoff and his sublime poetry, you think it’s about one thing, but really it’s about something entirely different. But the lyrics are still universal and omnipresent, ubiquitous, even. So relatable. That’s one thing I love about this band. I also love their live performances, raw energy and Geoff’s beautiful, imperfectly perfect vocals. His voice soothes my aching soul.
No doubt I've done it to myself
The more you know
The more you know
And I just can't quit if you couldn't tell
I've seen it all
I've seen it all
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
Am I a fake?
Am I a fraud?
And is it worth losing you for?
Another pain
I can't ignore
Another morning on the floor
I take the blame
I wanna change
But I can't settle the score
Now I'm a slave to better days
And I'm not willing anymore
I had a dream that I was drowning everyone I've ever loved
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
Cold water running down my face
Just let it go
Just let it go
But there is no mending what I can't replace
I should've known
I should've known
Am I a fake?
Am I a fraud?
And am I worth losing you for?
Now I'm gutted to the core
Like I've never been before
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
Now it's sinking in
Thick skin is wearing thin
Out of my mind
And it won't come as any surprise
And I've paid for it this time
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
I'm feeling
I'm feeling
I'm feeling heavier
I'm feeling
I'm feeling
I'm feeling heavier
The more you know
The more you know
And I just can't quit if you couldn't tell
I've seen it all
I've seen it all
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
Am I a fake?
Am I a fraud?
And is it worth losing you for?
Another pain
I can't ignore
Another morning on the floor
I take the blame
I wanna change
But I can't settle the score
Now I'm a slave to better days
And I'm not willing anymore
I had a dream that I was drowning everyone I've ever loved
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
Cold water running down my face
Just let it go
Just let it go
But there is no mending what I can't replace
I should've known
I should've known
Am I a fake?
Am I a fraud?
And am I worth losing you for?
Now I'm gutted to the core
Like I've never been before
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
Now it's sinking in
Thick skin is wearing thin
Out of my mind
And it won't come as any surprise
And I've paid for it this time
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
I'm feeling
I'm feeling
I'm feeling heavier
I'm feeling
I'm feeling
I'm feeling heavier
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