Control

I think it's about her bipolar, because it reminds me of my own. people find mental illness really hard to understand, especially when it involves risky or out of control behaviours, it scares them. I like this song most because she doesn't paint herself as the pure victim - it's kind of an empowering song, about not being ashamed of it and about not being defined by it. For me, anyway.

From my own struggles I think is about a mother who is losing control of her drug addiction fighting with her self as the kids see all the mean and coldness thier mother slowly become they cry out please stop your scarring me but she can't help to feel the awful energy she yells back your goddammit right you should be scared of me feeling thier hurt she can't stand to look at her self she turns the mirrors around. She sat alone in her bed crying tel morning she feel she losing control that the demon in side her head is coming she try hinds her secrets hoping to stay in control but she coming down she paces around for hours on empty scard and confused her mind weaken as she jumps at the slightest sounds the baby's crying she can't help what she becoming but the love of a mother still in side her she become bigger then her body and colder then her home meaner then her demons and bigger then her bones she dosent give up she fight for control she become acquainted with the villains that live in side her head they want her to Wright about them so they could never died when she died so someone who going through what she been through she Wright her own words down so she never die when she dead as all of us share her struggle but in our own way her word hit home that song bring me to my knees every time I hear it as its hard to hear it I love to lessen to it its very deep and very real and really good it made me notice her and her music from the very frist time I heard it

This reminds me of The Yellow Wallpaper.

I feel some serious Jessica Jones vibes, especially with the line "Who is in control?"

I have two theorys Either its a Undertale song about genocide or A song about a Abusive mother. Listen to the song from those two perspectives and it will become clear

I, personally, believe this song is about a person with multiple personality disorder.

In the lines "I can't help this awful energy" and "God damn right, you should be scared of me" it seems as if there are multiple 'people' speaking, with one being meaner, and the other try in counteract the more negative voice.

For the line,"Who is in control?" The person singing is questioning which 'person' is actually controlling themself.

Lastly, in these four lines, "I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head, they beg me to write them so they'll never die when I'm dead. And I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head, they beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead." The person is (possibly) keeping a sort of journal, or diary, that they write about this other personality. It may be that they are 'Immortalized' by being written down, and telling others about the 'Demons'. This especially rings with the "So I'll never die when I'm dead" as the person is talking about themself.

Well, that's just a theory. A song theory! (Game theory reference aside, don't take this as the 'real' interpretation of the song, I'm merely a bored 12 year old, interpreting a song I like.)

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I think sending her away to find riches means 'they' see her as a larborer More than just the house is alive, shes trapped in the house with her own monsters Shes alone with her thoughts and her mind is driving her crazy, she cant control it. She cant control herself and at the same time she can, its incredibly confusing to describe, but if youre experienced it, it makes perfect sense

I think this song is about an eating disorder. The first verse is describing how someone gets hooked with an ED. “They send me away to find them a fortune” reminds me of the promise from Ana (in my case) that I’ll be happy once I’m thin, all my problems will disappear. “The house was awake, the shadows and monsters, the hallways, they echoed and groaned” makes me think of the various triggers around my house that remind me of how “imperfect” I am. “I sat alone, in bed till the morning. I’m crying, “they’re coming for me”” for me sleeping is an escape from the constant obsessive thoughts but then when I wake up in the morning they are right there again (they’re coming for me). “I tried to hold these secrets inside me” is about the struggle to hide the disorder. “My minds like a deadly disease” anorexia can be a deadly disease so I think this is pretty on point. “I’m bigger than my body/ I’m bigger than these bones” is all about body image and how it doesn’t matter how small I get I’ll feel and believe I look bigger than I actually am. “I’m colder than this home/ I’m meaner than my demons” is referring to how my self talk is sometimes worse than what Ana tells me. “All the kids cried out. “Please stop, you’re scaring me”” makes me think of how children sometimes stare at people who are extremely thin and sometimes they looked shocked or scared. “I can’t help this awful energy” expresses how powerless I feel to this disorder. “God damn right, you should be scared of me” I always think people should be afraid of my mind because of how toxic and cruel it is. “Who is in control?” For me my eating disorder is about control and starving makes me feel in control but since I feel often that I can’t actually make the decision to eat without feeling awful about it it makes me question who is really in control? “I paced around for hours on empty” is taking about the over exercising aspect. “I jumped at the slightest of sounds” this might be a bit of a stretch but I think of the word “sounds” as gaining weight. And how scary of an idea it is to gain weight.
“I couldnt stand the person inside me. I turned all the mirrors around” both of these lyrics are very literal. “I’m well acquainted with the villains that live in my head” being with the villain of Ana is typically a comfort and I know her very well. “they beg me to write them so they’ll never die when I’m dead” reminds me of the desire to take photos to document the weight loss, so even after I’m dead people will be able to see the “success”.