"Control" as written by and N....
They send me away to find them a fortune
A chest filled with diamonds and gold
The house was awake, the shadows and monsters
The hallways, they echoed and groaned

I sat alone, in bed till the morning
I'm crying, "They're coming for me"
And I tried to hold these secrets inside me
My mind's like a deadly disease

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
God damn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

I paced around for hours on empty
I jumped at the slightest of sounds
And I couldn't stand the person inside me
I turned all the mirrors around

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
God damn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head
They beg me to write them so they'll never die when I'm dead
And I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head
They beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
God damn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?

And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
God damn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?


Lyrics submitted by KiraKira, edited by pocketcups, stiles1048

"Control" as written by Timothy Joliffe Bran Ashley Frangipane

Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Universal Music Publishing Group

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  • +4
    General CommentI think it's about her bipolar, because it reminds me of my own. people find mental illness really hard to understand, especially when it involves risky or out of control behaviours, it scares them. I like this song most because she doesn't paint herself as the pure victim - it's kind of an empowering song, about not being ashamed of it and about not being defined by it. For me, anyway.
    iholdheron August 30, 2015   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis reminds me of The Yellow Wallpaper.
    stiles1048on September 01, 2015   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI feel some serious Jessica Jones vibes, especially with the line "Who is in control?"
    LordJaeger6277on April 06, 2016   Link
  • 0
    My InterpretationI, personally, believe this song is about a person with multiple personality disorder.

    In the lines "I can't help this awful energy" and "God damn right, you should be scared of me" it seems as if there are multiple 'people' speaking, with one being meaner, and the other try in counteract the more negative voice.

    For the line,"Who is in control?" The person singing is questioning which 'person' is actually controlling themself.

    Lastly, in these four lines, "I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head, they beg me to write them so they'll never die when I'm dead. And I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head, they beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead." The person is (possibly) keeping a sort of journal, or diary, that they write about this other personality. It may be that they are 'Immortalized' by being written down, and telling others about the 'Demons'. This especially rings with the "So I'll never die when I'm dead" as the person is talking about themself.

    Well, that's just a theory. A song theory!
    (Game theory reference aside, don't take this as the 'real' interpretation of the song, I'm merely a bored 12 year old, interpreting a song I like.)

    :)
    Catlover5299on December 07, 2016   Link
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    My InterpretationI think sending her away to find riches means 'they' see her as a larborer
    More than just the house is alive, shes trapped in the house with her own monsters
    Shes alone with her thoughts and her mind is driving her crazy, she cant control it.
    She cant control herself and at the same time she can, its incredibly confusing to describe, but if youre experienced it, it makes perfect sense
    Justapersonyayon May 23, 2018   Link
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    My InterpretationI think this song is about an eating disorder.
    The first verse is describing how someone gets hooked with an ED. “They send me away to find them a fortune” reminds me of the promise from Ana (in my case) that I’ll be happy once I’m thin, all my problems will disappear. “The house was awake, the shadows and monsters, the hallways, they echoed and groaned” makes me think of the various triggers around my house that remind me of how “imperfect” I am.
    “I sat alone, in bed till the morning. I’m crying, “they’re coming for me”” for me sleeping is an escape from the constant obsessive thoughts but then when I wake up in the morning they are right there again (they’re coming for me).
    “I tried to hold these secrets inside me” is about the struggle to hide the disorder.
    “My minds like a deadly disease” anorexia can be a deadly disease so I think this is pretty on point.
    “I’m bigger than my body/ I’m bigger than these bones” is all about body image and how it doesn’t matter how small I get I’ll feel and believe I look bigger than I actually am.
    “I’m colder than this home/ I’m meaner than my demons” is referring to how my self talk is sometimes worse than what Ana tells me.
    “All the kids cried out. “Please stop, you’re scaring me”” makes me think of how children sometimes stare at people who are extremely thin and sometimes they looked shocked or scared.
    “I can’t help this awful energy” expresses how powerless I feel to this disorder. “God damn right, you should be scared of me” I always think people should be afraid of my mind because of how toxic and cruel it is.
    “Who is in control?” For me my eating disorder is about control and starving makes me feel in control but since I feel often that I can’t actually make the decision to eat without feeling awful about it it makes me question who is really in control?
    “I paced around for hours on empty” is taking about the over exercising aspect.
    “I jumped at the slightest of sounds” this might be a bit of a stretch but I think of the word “sounds” as gaining weight. And how scary of an idea it is to gain weight.
    “I couldnt stand the person inside me. I turned all the mirrors around” both of these lyrics are very literal.
    “I’m well acquainted with the villains that live in my head” being with the villain of Ana is typically a comfort and I know her very well.
    “they beg me to write them so they’ll never die when I’m dead” reminds me of the desire to take photos to document the weight loss, so even after I’m dead people will be able to see the “success”.
    Treblemaker515on July 12, 2018   Link

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