Here I come, come to you in the very clothes
That I killed, killed you in and now I know I'm alone
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me
I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I wanna be stronger; too long I've sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy, half of me knows it's all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
Into a wall, I've hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
And I'm back in front of you Lord, with blood on the floor
Is the blood mine or yours don't wanna do this anymore
Back and forth between being me and who you call me to be
You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't
Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar
But it's warm from crying 'cause he will try nine times
To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again
Here I come again to you
Just to show the blood soaked through
Through my bones and all I own
Is there a way for me to grow
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me, please
Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living
'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
Abuse grace take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
They say the ocean's blue but it's black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
Of lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops, where sky begins
And random chunks of light remind me of what is true
But right now the ocean is blacker than black, the sky is too
That I killed, killed you in and now I know I'm alone
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me
I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I wanna be stronger; too long I've sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy, half of me knows it's all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
Into a wall, I've hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
And I'm back in front of you Lord, with blood on the floor
Is the blood mine or yours don't wanna do this anymore
Back and forth between being me and who you call me to be
You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't
Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar
But it's warm from crying 'cause he will try nine times
To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again
Here I come again to you
Just to show the blood soaked through
Through my bones and all I own
Is there a way for me to grow
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me, please
Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll on my soul, I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living
'Cause I will save a face for name's sake
Abuse grace take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
They say the ocean's blue but it's black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
Of lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops, where sky begins
And random chunks of light remind me of what is true
But right now the ocean is blacker than black, the sky is too
Lyrics submitted by Driedzone, edited by SquishyMew, osterfeldc, Ragefreak, toadling17
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"They say the ocean’s blue but it’s black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd"
I think the ocean symbolises a crowd and his ambitions, and for his sins/struggles he hasn't quite earned that crowd
"I’ve been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
The 'sky' being God, "the ocean I shall win" is him being deserving of having that crowd, and facing the fears and problems, one day he will 'win' that crowd.
That I killed, killed You in and now I know I’m alone
I walk to you, rain falls from You
Can You wash me, can you drown me
This part is obviously about God, he comes to God in desperate time when he has no one. He left his faith and he ask for forgiveness. He wants to be cleanse for his sins, he has a lot of them so maybe he would be better of dead.
I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent up inside of me
I wanna be stronger; too long I’ve sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy, half of me knows it’s all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
Into a wall, I’ve hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
And I’m back in front of you Lord, with blood on the floor
Is the blood mine or yours don’t wanna do this anymore
Back and forth between being me and who you call me to be
You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
To a door but he can’t cause he’s poor and he can’t
Fall down anymore cause he’s already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar
But it’s warm from crying cause he will try nine times
To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize again
Here I come again to you
Just to show the blood soaked through
Through my bones and all I own
Is there a way for me to grow
I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me, can you drown me, please
Every time I feel selfish ambition is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence, repentance is taking commission
It’s taking a toll on my soul, I’m screaming submission and
I don’t know if I am dying or living
Cause I will save a face for name’s sake
Abuse grace take a aim to obtain a new name in a newer place
But my name is lame, I can’t walk and I ain’t the same
And my name became a new destiny to the grave and
They say the ocean’s blue but it’s black right now
In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now the full parts
Of lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts
I’ve been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win
But it’s hard for me to see where ocean stops, where sky begins
And random chunks of light remind me of what is true
But right now the ocean is blacker than black, the sky is too
I don’t think the ocean resembles the crowd but depression. Because he talks about drowning and that the ocean is black and the sky is God, is future. God told him he will overcome his depression. It’s hard for him to see where it will end all the pain.
The "I walk to you, rain falls from you, can you wash me? Can you drown me?" meaning that this hurt person is sad ("rain falls from you") and Tyler wants this person to 'wash' and 'drown' him with their sadness because Tyler feels bad for hurting the person. It's like when you accidentally hurt someone emotionally and then you say "I'm so sorry! I'll do anything for you!". I think that's what Tyler's trying to say to this person. That he feels bad for hurting them and that he's willing to take on their pain and misery just to get them back and to get rid of the guilt.
The next paragraph of rapping is talking about how he feels about the situation. Then the paragraph after that that's about how a man's trying to but a key but he can't, I think he's talking about himself. How he thinks he needs to get this person back (the key) in order to continue with his life (the door). But he doesn't exactly know how ("but he can't 'cause he's poor") or maybe because he doesn't have enough time, chances, etc. How losing this person has made him "fall on the floor" and whenever something else bad happens, it can't hurt him because he's already hurt ("he's already on the floor"). The next line just talks about how he's hurt and whatnot.
The nine lives and nine crimes part must talk about how he is trying to figure out what he's done to hurt this person ("he will try nine times to realize nine crimes"). And the "but he has more than nine lives" meaning that even though he has lost this person, his life isn't over. He still has more chances with more people.
Then he talks about how he's showing the person that his guilt and pain from hurting the person has really affected his everyday life and how he feels about himself ("just to show the blood soaked through, through my bones and all I own") and the "is there a way for me to grow" must talk about how he is wondering if there is a way he can grow out of what's happened. If he can grow out of hurting this person and the guilt that comes with it.
And again he asks this person to drown him with their worries as a way Tyler can repay this person for what Tyler has done.
Then in the last rap part, he probably talks about the depression that comes with unintentionally hurting and losing someone important to him. "They say the ocean's blue but it's black right now" talks about how the people around him say that if you look on the good side of things, then life isn't so bad. But to him, life is still "black" anyway. The next part talks about how what he has faith in keeps him going ("I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win"), how it keeps him trying to get through his difficulties. But then he says "it's hard me to see where ocean stops, where sky begins" which must mean he can't tell when his emotional pain and stress will end and he can't tell where his faith is actually helping him with this. And that "random chunks of light remind me of what is true" shows that he has some rays of hope that help him realize that he make it without this person, but then he returns to present and depression engulfs him again and his faith seems like nothing without this person he has lost ("but right now the ocean's black, and black the sky is too").
I don't know the official meaning of this song, again, this is just an interpretation. You have your opinion, I have mine.